Holly Jean

@VincentArogya the recontextualization you describe makes perfect sense. It is actually a common thing that people experience when they transition from an awakening experience to a persistent state of awakening. This deconditioning from the old way of viewing reality and reconditioning from this new perspective is natural. It absolutely fits with my own personal experience of it, and yes, Leo knows... After awakening, more awakening! We are deep and dynamic beings, and the realm of awakening is massive, with no end in sight, though quite a lot of mapping and insight has come out in recent years, as well as a ton of really helpful info around navigating life after a transition to a persistent state of awakening. It's completely natural and okay for your experience of awakening to continue to deepen and change significantly over time, and with that, character changes occur hand-in-hand. The gradual process of deepening this way is most common and generally considered most adaptively beneficial. Most of the time the character changes are desirable, but depending on how your awakening unfolds, it's not always the case. It is possible to go "too deep" too fast, isolate, and/or develop a sort-of pathological experience of an awakened state. I'm happy to give more reflection and info from my personal experience as well as the research I'm involved with, but I would need to know more about your experience to put it into context.

I would edit for clarity, when in your expression of recklessness, "You are embodying feminine energy." Being female or male might mean that one of the feminine or masculine aspects are expressed more often or remain in the foreground of experience most of the time, but never subscribe to the self-limiting beliefs that you are all one thing and not another. The yin contains the yang and the yang contains the yin, unendingly. As self-awareness develops into maturity, so does the depth of the realization of both the all-containing aspect of emptiness AND the expressive aliveness-fullness of being as present in all of life, all beings, all sexes, all existence.

Hi Hiba! Wow, what a breakthrough! It sounds like you have had quite an awakening. Very next-level compared to the "before" picture you describe. Congratulations! Now I'm curious. With all these changes, do you have an underlying sense that everything is fundamentally going to be okay, no matter what? If so, is that new?