Fearless_Bum

I took 200 mcg a few minutes ago and my memory hit me like a truck! Suddenly there's clarity and improved memory! Just wanted to share my excitement, this really works.

@Leo Gura No ... just no. I dont know if you see how strange what youve just said is.

Get a high quality porn blocker that blocks, sites, apps, etc. Make it so that you couldnt access porn no matter how hard you tried. This is like 70% of the work ^. The other 30% is telling your loved ones (Letting out this behavior into the "world" and bringing people into the loop builds accountability and bonding/trust), building relationships, and exercise. This isnt just some nofap challenge, you can really let go of this behavior once and for all. Lets be honest, why would you ever want to watch porn when you can have awesome sex in real life, maybe im crazy but I see 0 reasons. PM me if you got any questions on how to cope and get through this stuff, coming from another guy on this path, its been going well for me. Lets uplift each other.

@Vincent S Was waiting for someone to notice .

@TheOneReborn I agree a bit with the mantra idea, can be super soothing to repeat mentally "Its okay." . Just keep meditating, and let go of all the fear mongering that happens around enlightenment, and dont buy the BS that people will tell you about this being scary work, enlightenment is the essence of self-love, healing, magic, and happiness. Not fear lol.

@blankisomeone Hey man, had similar experience with family members. I get the constant stress, sense of urgency, arguments, dense feeling in the air all the time, the tension between what you desire and your parents putting you down. Bring the light into your life, get your shit together, cooperate with your parents, if your parents see you got your shit together they will eventually respect you it doesnt matter what. No one else is gonna give you that "light" only you can bring the healing and love into your life, and maybe others will be inspired. Give them time and respect they are "children" too like you, also healing and learning on the path. If you cooperate with the situation youre in, take care of yourself, and get excited to create what you want, trust me opportunities will come for you to move on from that. If you want a personal testimonial feel free to pm me .

When you make some-thing a thing, your creating a boundary between that thing and all other things. If you stop labelling, then there is no-thing. Like literally the sound of your fridge humming and the feeling of your body will be remembered as inseparable.

If its spontaneous, then by definition nothing can lead to it.

Last week it was realized that there is never completion and that reality is infinite creation. The void you feel isnt something that has to be faced or avoided, but a natural feeling that inspires creation. The plate needs to be empty for food to be put on it, the canvas needs to be clear in order to paint. When you feel that emptiness or purposelessness, its just the canvas clearing up in order to receive the next "message", the next thing you desire to create. The universe is eternally creating and will never stop, there is no such thing as being finished, its impossible. One of the glitches people fall into is trying to somehow stop desiring, thats like trying to stop creating reality. When does the earth create beautiful architecture and gardens? When someone gets the insight "wow, id like to create that, it would feel great!".

@Flyboy hmm, nope sorry, doesnt feel right. You can feel how that thought stream feels, feels very straining, like trying to look at your own face without a mirror. Kind of like " Wait! I dont trust myself, so I gotta try to look at myself forever in case I do something bad." Fear/Mistrust of oneself. You just look at your desires, what do you do then? Do you discern which desire is helpful and which isnt? Do you then follow the desires that you think are healthy and aligned? If you do then youre doing exactly what this thread is celebrating!

Im back! Let go of lots of unhealthy habits and replacing them with nicer smoother ones. Lifes been nice, lots of energetic healing taking place, I want a girlfriend, someone to grow with and show appreciation for. Thatd be nice. Got crystals and starting experimenting with them, got quartz and citrine. Gods putting the bread crumbs and im eating them all!

Hello this is my journal. After getting some help and inspiration the time has come to express everything that comes to mind through this medium, so perfect this medium, I can type as fast as my thoughts. Oh my god, so satisfying woohoo! So this is it, where do I want to take things? I have the golden opportunity right now to express thoughts, and fully see them. When I see my own thoughts like this laid out I can savor them more. Today I freaked out and lost my shit, I felt super unstable, the instability comes from not knowing whats what and having a problem with it, theres no problem with it anymore. Right now Im feeling hopefulness, I know things are possibly getting better, the focus on the bigger picture is slowly coming together. Listening to music helps to fuel the inspiration. Music is amazing, life is amazing, I got the gift to create what I want, and I have the even bigger gift of thinking that im doing it all! Right now im noticing the power humans have, humans are super powerful, they dont know how amazing they are most of the time, but I see it. Humans are animals too, but capable of thinking they think, quite incredible, like walking gods who are simultaneously powerful and powerless. Most beautiful, we are the Angels, we are the gods we've been looking for! If we all got our shit together and focused on building a paradise we could totally co create one! Fuck all the doubts, fuck them all. What am I doing here, im not sure really, hoping that this expression stuff really works out, it feels so good honestly. When thought can just....flow, flowing ever so smoothly. I notice the "blockages" the moments of writers block have something to do with the ordinary life as well, those "blockages" are there too. The moments of seriousness that plug away all the creativity, all the creative energy goes into "what do I want to create?" rather than creation itself, quite beautiful to witness this. That the infinite energy doesnt go anywhere, its everywhere and for us all! Focus, breathe in.... there it is.... the fantasies coming, floating like bubbles made of love, feeling nostalgic yet excited.. I love that feeling. Vaporwave is perfect for this, music that is ghostly, feels like a dream you never had, so nice, so perfect, an eternal genre that brings the light of nostalgia to every era. The fantasies coming, getting the mansions, the beautiful woman in my life, I had a dream about her, she was perfect and full of life, full of POWER, going to the beach on weekends, selling houses and making hundreds of thousands of dollars. Creating for its own sake, owning multiple properties, starting businesses for fun, forming business relationships that are fun and synergistic, I see them already, I got family/friends who come in my life like the perfect puzzle piece. I got this, I can do this, saying goodbye to the disempowered bum, saying hello to the powerful Bum with a capital B . I can do this, I WILL do this, it takes only focus which is a given, and aligning it with what is wanted. It can only be felt. What is wanted is not a vision, what is wanted IS feeling, aligning focus with feeling, Aligning Focus with Feeling, FOCUS IS FEELING. Two sides of the same coin, working together, focus and feeling are eternal best buddies. They are helping each other, what if this is the case with all beings and reality, what if reality is pure HELP. What if when accepted, the universe ONLY offers us help, every being that comes into existence is loving and helping me no matter what religion, world view, etc. I got people who are willing to share their wisdom with me and I accept it with open arms, I want to move out and live alone, I want to move out, get a girlfriend, and live alone with her, and get a cute friendly cat. I want to be eating healthy food and sipping on good ol matcha green tea and cacao drinks. I can feel the excitement for that life its so cool. Typing out what I feel/think is quite powerful, its perfect for the Focus aspect of life, ive struck gold with this tool and its free what the fuck! Journaling helps to hone in Focus which feeds feeling as it clears up space for good feeling to come out, and the good feeling creates space for thoughts created of and as LOVE and JOY, woohoo! So journaling is infinite, infinite like the snake eating its own tail YES! Journaling is awesome, meditation is all about taking the time to observe this creation and let it be what it is, meditation is like the baseline thingie, the thingie that allows us to see what we are without distractions, Journaling feeds meditation as it helps thoughts to be released, resulting in better meditation, better meditation allows for clearer observation, which allows for more subtle things to be witnessed, and therefore journaled/reflected on! The momentum only continues going up! Its easy and its a given! I can make a shit load of money, no I WILL make a shitload of money, Six Figures by next year thats for sure, ill make it fucking happen! Money! YEA! Paper, green paper with old men on it, more please! Beautiful properties, a nice penthouse with a space that is super modern and sleek, where I can have my green teas and read and chill with people. I want a special room dedicated to psychedelic trips! Where I can trip alone or with others! Man im so excited to do stuff, it feels good with thoughts are lined up and executed and reflected on, I notice that in order to "control" our thinking, we must sharpen our abilities to self-reflect, and journaling does just this. Poor self reflection means lazy thoughts, lazy thoughts paradoxically take more effort, "conscious" thoughts dont take any effort even though it seems like it may. Im so filled with joy my legs are shaking with joy, they wont stop its awesome, im awesome! I am completeness! I am joy! I have discovered the GOLD here! So grateful for the other "Angels" out there, those who know the power of Loving for no reason, thats the secret sauce! Im happy!!!! Why? I dont know lol! I can lift weights, strengthen this body, I can stretch, no need for can, I WILL I WILL it to be! I will stretch and feel relaxed in the body more, I will lift weights and feel the physical empowerment that comes with that, I will ride my bike in the mornings and get that nice cardio buzz. All things will be taken care of no matter what! I can get a part time job for during my real estate agent chapter, I will become a good real estate agent, a great one! I want to sell! I can sell! I can do it! A super charged Angel selling homes to people, HA thats funny. Sharing the joy I feel when I drive past homes with others, I love houses and their architecture. Im a fucking commission man from now on, Im getting that commission bread baby! Im gonna work hard and enjoy it, enjoy the shift, enjoy the freedom in my schedule to dedicate time to what I think is important, I will enjoy the Joy of making shit tons of cash for good work that I enjoy. I will do it! Im gonna dedicate at least 20 minutes a day to studying for my real estate license exam, thats the only "bureaucratic shit" in the way really, not really in the way, it IS the way, not in the way. All the people I need will help me and provide whatever guidance is needed, they have already been appearing and helping me so much! So grateful for the help, grateful for the people in my life right now and happy! I am not trapped, I am doing amazing, I am on the way to nothing, as this is an eternal marathon of LOVE, JOY, and CONSCIOUS CREATING!

@Vynce That is it in play, infinite creation does not discriminate, and if you desire to change your life then that is also it.

@gettoefl oh yes. Theyre made of euphoria itself . All of us are though.

@gettoefl Yep , like an eternal artist whos forever in love with his own artwork, which is him, he just keeps making it better and better. That feeling of "meh" is when he pulls out the eraser .

Because that would be ugly. A beautiful garden has variety and diversity. How boring life would be if it was just a bunch of non dualists, we need crazy people, they keep things fun .

Whats funny about the question "do others experience?" is that it assumes YOU are having an experience. Are you even experiencing? Is there a little bubble of sentience in that head of yours?

@blankisomeone Reach out and talk to people, accept love from everyone. Youre not alone in this, theres people everywhere that can help you and you can grow together. Dont let spiritual arrogance blind you from the obvious love your parents and friends have for you. I spent years in the isolated / suicidal spiritual ego stuff, it doesnt feel good and it doesnt work it just doesnt. I isolated myself due to labelling them as low consciousness and grew up bitter and lonely for a long time. Please consider surrendering that arrogance, that may be what leads to self isolation and then feeling stuck in life. You can certainly be a light in this world, you are already, share that with others. When we think that we are the spiritual people and everyone else wouldnt understand, we are unintentionally isolating ourselves from the wisdom and love that others have to offer. What friends/people do you have around you? What groups or places do you go to that have people there? What life do you want?

Agreed, I barely take it, maybe like twice a month.

I noticed this as well. It's because the separate self needs a belief system in order to perpetuate itself. Every belief system will defend itself from others, and if it's belief system is destroyed, it'll just fill in the void with another one. The new age belief system is still a belief system, there is really no better belief system if we are speaking about liberation, they are all the same. In fact many spiritual friends only hold the belief that we are all one and God and defend themselves from science and religion. If you're triggered by another belief system, that's only on you.

Wanted to share something that happened earlier this morning like at 3am. Been going through some spiritual stuff and chakras are opening. Woke up after a vivid nightmare and still saw it, then after 3 seconds the vision morphed back into my pillows and blankets. Third eye pressure was high and there was much confusion and fear. Had direct experience of a "negative entity" and it's not at all what I'd expected it to be. Since there is not two, there is no actual demon, it's more relational. Sat in meditation for some time with this entity, and recognized that as long as the heart center is vibrating at the "level" of vulnerability then the entity also arises and feeds off it, both are connected and playing cat and mouse. Recognized the true power of intention, and let the heart center radiate pure Empowerment which is Love. Recognized that this being has the power of true action, and any action this being takes has the same significance as stars exploding. The entity was loved to death ❤?.

Anyone ever tried this combination? The vasoconstriction from psychedelics and the increased heart rate is a bit uncomfortable, it's certainly tolerable but it'd be nice to mitigate that. I'm thinking of mixing it with L theanine to see if it creates a more calmer/mindful trip. The trip would be tomorrow morning, approx 4g of shrooms and 200mg of L Theanine. On the comedown I'm gonna have some cacao brew ?.

@Gregory1 hey! If anything comes up that can be helpful if shared I'll make sure to post ?.

@Vincent S no problem! I love suggesting health stuff to people. If it helps I use the Navitas Brand Raw Cacao powder (make sure it's cacao and NOT cocoa!)

@Vincent S cacao is a bit different compared to coffee. It has about 40-70mg of caffeine per serving but it is even more abundant in Theobromine which is like caffeines chill cousin. Theobromine provides a more mellow buzz and actually lowers blood pressure. So, a stimulant that calms the body ?. Although too much can create similar side effects to coffee. I think you'd have a better experience with cacao brew compared to coffee. I'd try 2 tablespoons of raw cacao powder mixed with hot water at first. Also, nice! Have a great trip.