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@Carl-Richard Rough estimate, maybe a minute-a few seconds honestly. I wouldn't want to get wrapped up in quantifying the moments of silence. As that encourages more thought identification. "Look how cool I am, I can stop thinking for 5 minutes!"

@Gregory1 hey I'd advise not to do behaviors like that, that stuff will get you banned. Not saying it's about you or anything, only those behaviors. Resposting something 3 times is a cause for concern, stay well my friend.

@Aaron p just do it for fun and curiosity. Psychedelics don't have to be super serious life shattering things, notice that those are only narratives. Like why can't a trip be like viewed the same as a nice vacation, you'll see some cool shit, and come back. That's it.

So much inspiration right now. Riding bicycle, yes let's do it!

@Vincent S we're all in this together ??.

@roopepa true ?. When we observe the breath deeply, it's like watching the entire moment being breathed into existence.

@Carl-Richard I wasn't counting ?.

There is much relief present. Tomorrow... meditation for 1 hour. It will be done! Ultimate challenge no more self referential journaling!! It will be done! Everything is Possible!

@Phoenix11 yes definitely. I find the key being meditating for longer periods of time. Meditating for an hour isn't about being better or anything, it's just that when you meditate for longer, you increase the inevitability of surrendering to the moment.

@Vincent S yea that's how funny life is.

@Vincent S there is already victory! A tiny crack with light shining through it is evidence that it'll soon break completely!

@Gregory1 hey I'm good now, thanks for the warmth and kindness ?.

@mandyjw thanks for the tips, I'm just going through these intense emotions today. I got a million excuses and things I can say bit I'd rather keep quiet as it's just a waste of time.

I'm feeling depressed and confused right now. I just wanna be happy that's all really, many fantasies occurring right now of leaving society and becoming homeless. People don't understand that it's hard for me to even think coherently, I'm just confused a lot of the time. Like right now I'm feeling emotionally overwhelmed and no gimmick has helped, they're always turned into neurotic patterns. ? Feel like giving up, I don't have it in me, whatever all the spiritual peeps have, I feel like I'm a zombie. Can barely get any work done or do anything. I get suicidal at least twice a week, I think I should just kill myself and get this shit over with. What the point of coping if it's the same cycle over and over again.

@Gregory1 I'm depressed ??. I'm getting through it, feel like I'm going through a spiritual flu.

I've seen this same exact post before. Are you okay?

@Judy2 I can see how that would work. It's all behavioral really, ego is more of a behavior than a thing. A behavior is still a thing (think) though ?.

@Nahm I'm confused ?. I don't know if Journaling is worth it if I'm gonna keep typing self referential thoughts. I desire assurance ?.

@Nahm so self referential thoughts and beliefs are connected somehow. That explains why most people need to believe in something, like it's a vacuum that's always filled. People move from one belief system to another. How can I journal and express if I have to use the word I? It's kinda hard to journal without talking about me.

@Nahm how does one believe in a thought? This is puzzling ?. Like what is the action behind believing something? The thought arises "hotdogs" what happens after that you'd call believing in that thought?

The right way to go is people taking responsibility and being their own authority with what food feels right for them. When we don't do this we turn diets into ideologies, hence vegetarianISM.

This morning I woke up feeling pretty okay, felt some food in my stomach but I notice my digestion abilities have improved. Digestion feels smoother now which is nice. I dont know what im doing, I dont know if what people tell me is true or not, Im not sure anymore, but it does feel good. I just wanna live a happy and wealthy life. Thats all I care about really. I dont even know what the problem is, I just dont know anymore, I have these moments of confusion sometimes where I am just overwhelmed. Im feeling overwhelmed thats for sure. Im overwhelmed with all the stuff I got going on, overwhelmed with the vast amount of advice Ive received from different people, is it true for them? Is it real for them? I feel like im about to blow up! So overwhelmed, so many bills to pay and stuff. Its so intense, aaaargggh. The emotions can be felt exploding out of the heart center, it feels relieving. Emotions are a powerful force of expression, they are powerful vibrations of existence! Expression doesnt have to be through thought, in fact thought doesnt have an impact on emotions, aha! Thoughts can be crafted in such a way that they kinda move out of the way of emotions and create the appearance that thought is causing emotions to feel better/worse. Emotions are more powerful than thought, sure thought can be inspired or rather filled with the power of emotion resulting in beautiful dreams. That was my biggest complaint with emotional scale stuff, it always felt off to believe that thoughts come first and then emotions, no! Emotions are primary! It feels much better to recognize the heart center, and feel it exploding with expression silently. I mean wow can you imagine the burden of thinking that you always need to think loving thoughts? Thought loves to take on the burden of things, but nope when it comes to emotions the emotions express themselves! Id say in the beginning of emotional awareness thoughts can help, but why not just silently express emotions from the heart center directly? The nature of emotions IS expression anyways they want to be ex-pressed or pressed out, emotions are like radiation. First we recognize the heart-center, then we see how the heart-center charges thoughts. Emotions come first! Im already feeling hopeful in this recognition.

Today has been an interesting day, no real freak outs but also feelings of doubt are present a lot. Ive always been skeptical of stuff and the LOA and emotional scale stuff is too amazing honestly, like my whole life ive been told that theres gotta be at least a lil bit of suffering, and know im realizing that its all easy, what the fuck!? What is cool is that its all about thoughts and what thoughts are focused on, thats literally it. I brought up my porn habit to a friend and he helped me remember that its the thoughts of porn that actually cause it to surface. Quick thought experiment: Im imagining what itd be like if there were no thoughts of porn, if the mind was wiped completely from all thoughts of porn. Clearly, there would be no more issues with porn, because literally it doesnt exist in the experience of this powerful Being. So its all thoughts! What thoughts pop up? What are the roots? -Thoughts of porn, and the one who is addicted to it. -Thoughts of junk food, and the one who is addicted to it. -Thoughts about having to stay with family, and succumbing to peer pressure by eating their food instead of staying true to what I want! Nothing wrong with these thoughts, but I have the power of preference, and these thoughts help point to what I truly want. Im gonna convert these desires with the light of awareness. The new thoughts to replace the unwanted, this is what I really want: -A beautiful and cool girlfriend to spend time with and build a connection with, I still want to enjoy sexual stuff but I prefer human connection over a screen. I welcome this girl into existence! Universe, hand craft this woman with your infinite intelligence! I summon you! As for the other thoughts those will simply be let go of, I already have so much burning desire for the real estate mastery and wealthy lifestyle. Any time a thought doesnt feel good, that IS the message to let it go, aka to recognize that letting it go literally erases the issue completely. Surrendering thoughts is the gold, I gotta admit ive been stubbornly holding on to the things. Dropping that arrogance, and just letting them go, letting them go. Stopping the beef with them. When someone does something fucked up, theres that reactive behavior to hit them back, thus prolonging the pain/conflict, no more beef with thoughts, letting them leave the room. Im ready, I can FEEL it, its clear that what matters is feeling better, and there is great feeling in letting thought activity go.

@mandyjw Lol! Oh yes, need comes from a sense of lack, and lack gives more lack to you. So you got what you felt lol, which is lack. Yea im just gonna have fun and go with the flow.

I wanna be de illlusioned for sure ?. Thought is a bit flimsy, do you notice a neurotic pattern of trying to stay positive in your experience? I notice when doing emotional scale stuff that as I move up, thoughts arise that pertain to the lower emotions and I get confused. ?