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"My thoughts won't stop." "This is so damn boring." "I can't tell if it's working." This was me 5 years ago. Around this time, I was a stressed, anxious dude working in a corporate environment, which only made me even more stressed and anxious. I smoked almost everyday, and I worried all the time about inconsequential things (like what people thought of me or times I failed). Years later, meditation has helped me let go of anxiety, worry less, be more present/confident (among many many other things). It's been so valuable that I've been trying to learn as much as possible so that I can one day teach this stuff to others. These are things that have helped me make meditation a regular practice in my life.

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Thanks everyone for the openions.

I fear I am developing a bad habit. So I've been trying meditation on and off for the past little while, but I just can't seem to get into it So today I figured I'd give it another try. I got a few minutes into it and my mind wanted to wander more and more, so finally I thought fine, we'll take a short break and take off the leash. It was ecstasy. I felt like I was a kid again on a road trip just staring out the window, thinking about anything and everything as countless hours of farmland rolled by. The odd thing is, I had some profound thoughts during this time, much like the kind people post about here. I continued this until the end of my meditation session and it was great. Is this a bad habit? Are those profound thoughts a red herring, my id making an attempt to seduce me? I fear that if I go too far down this path it will become harder to do actual meditation. At the same time, I sometimes question if I'll ever really get into meditation because I often find it a chore :/. Letting thoughts pass and focusing on your body is tough for me