Who's making the decision concerning what 'you' want out of life and what to do? Life is just happening. Basically, an illusion created within your mind to rationalize what is. Every path is perfect, every path leads to what is already here .... Who we really are .... THAT. Let the illusion melt into your heart. Grasping for understanding just causes anxiety and suffering. Everything is revealed when the fire in your heart is so strong that you'd rather die than to be kept from the Truth.