Ethan Marnewick

Oh i see, so it's a game of purifying my beliefs that hold me back from realising my true nature. And then awakening will follow spontaneously the more i meditate and purify my beliefs, correct?

How do i prove to myself that i am the coffee table without the answer being to just take in everyone else's beliefs and then to hammer it into me?

If i am my coffee table as much as i am Ethan, then why do i experience Ethan and not coffee table? Why am i not a coffee table that tries to find out what it is versus being Ethan that's trying to find out what he is? Why am i aware of Ethan in default and not coffee table by default? Thanks

I had my first Awakening in 2016, and the gist of the realisation i had was that there was no such thing as "i" and that i didnt exist, all that exists was one thing and the idea of difference wasn't real to me experiencially. I had the awakening through doing self-inquiry without knowing what i was doing, i never knew what i was actually doing through pointing my attention to the awareness i experienced would walk me to "god" I meditated and asked myself "who am i?" "Not what the spiritualists think they exist as, or the religious people, what actually am i?" And i became very present at some point, and all of a sudden i thought "what if I don't exist?" And i couldn't find evidence for "me" by looking for it in my experience. Then its like i disappeared, i knew i "was" but i didn't exist either. It's difficult to explain but anyways. After a few minutes i opened my eyes and boom it happend. I realized how asleep others were and laughed for hours multiple times a day at how hilarious it was that i was walking around as a zombie prior to the awakening and how others are currently walking around as finite "in a cage" beings. Make note that i had no beliefs, ideas or any explanation of anything spiritual or metaphysical prior to the awakening. I was a brand new baby trying to find out what i was. I never read any spiritual books, no Leo Gura, no Eckart Tolle, no ideas. And i found god like a fucking crow onto my windshield going 200km per hour on a freeway, blood splattered all over the fucking place changing my life forever. So my real question is: There are multiple realizations to be had, you're never "done" Awakening. Is the self-inquiry "method" powerful enough to eventually lead me to all truths that can be known, or all realizations or "Awakenings" that could be had? Leo listed 30 common Awakenings i think it was, on his channel, is self-inquiry sufficient for the rest of the truthes that can be known?