Maru

I dont know. Your experience seems even more intense then mine. And mine were not this intense before i started tripping on tryptamines. It is also a strange type of trip. I dont have the feeling of fading away which i have on psychedelics. Its made out of thougts and spacial awareness. But the euphoria is so strong that it makes me look at my ego as some sort of defensive outer shell that is there just to counter other ego's. I am aware of my ego but at that moment i am not indentified with it. Its so strange. That sounds amazing. I do enjoy them and i have tried all sorts of psychedelics, they were all amazing experiences. But raising my baseline seems difficult.

When i eat surtain tryptamines i get horrible headaches after the trip. Its bad enough that i avoid taking those psychedelics all together. It happens when i eat mushrooms, 4ho-met and DmT(oraly with rue tea) Does anyone know what could be the reason for this? I kinda love mushrooms so it makes me rather sad that taking them comes with the worse pain.. It also makes eating mushrooms feel unhealthy.

Iv just been wondering, Is het possible to experience not being conscious of anything? I have fainted in the past and the the moment i was unconscious was as if it never happened. Sleep seems to be the same. I'm ether conscious of dreams or it is as if it never happened. I don't even know what to think of death.

But can i experience unconsciousness? I mean i have been unconscious in the past, but i am only conscious of it because there is a gap in my memory. I am talking about direct experience now from perspective of my ego. Not about all the things in the universe outside of my ego which i am unconscious of right now. In that sense you could say i am more unconscious now then conscious.

I think so. What else would i be? A figment of your imagination?

I live in the Netherlands. And yes. Its like a hedonistic pleasure dome out here. Its boring as fuck. Camping is something you can do. I did some volunteer work at a campsite for food and just lived outside from early spring till early summer. I slept in a hammock and spend most my time goofing around in nature. This was in 2020 so due to corona my options where limited, I originally wanted to go to Sweden and camp out there in the woods and live like a dirty bum for a month or so. You get used to being dirty and outside rather quickly though. It just becomes the new normal. Comfort is relative.

I can agree that work is horrible. Not so much the work itself but the amount of it. Western society has turned work into this obsession. I wish people would just calm down a little.

It is kind of silly. Why did I not think of it before.... No thanks. Life is amazing.

Its a nice idea. The idea I will always be conscious and the worse that can happen is that I forget.

You could make tea and add lemonjuce to it. Then plug the tea.

Why would you want to microdose it? Its such a short lasting drug.

I have experimented with smoking bong with 0 tollerance. I get so absolutely overwhelmed by euphoria that i end up thinking im connected to everything and that im some sort of prophet who has to lead the world to harmony. In that state of mind i am like no thx i dont want to, and i tell everything to forget it ever happened. So i can go back to being poor little me. I dont know what weed does with my mind, its very confusing. When i mixed it with ketamine once i thought my life was a tv show and the universe was watching it. And that this tv show never ends. Then i thought i would die if i did not drink a glas of water... So... I dont know what to think of it. When sober it just seems like dellusional thinking

I have taken mdma in various ammounts. Never had any headaches I have also taken 1p-LSD about 6 times up to 300ug. No headaches. Al-Lad, no headaches. Smoking dmt. No headaches. Eating 5meo-mipt. No headaches. It is very specific to eating psychedelics that are similair to mushrooms. And it is not a sharp pain. It feels as if my head is swolen. Paracetamol does help if i can keep it down. It is just a mystery to me. Ill probebly try plugging 4-ho-met to see if that changes anything.

Yes. I am aware. Iv experimented with vaping DMT. I could not find a method to get enough inside my lungs without me coughing it out. I tried all sorts of pipes and a E-mesh vaporizer. I did get a good hit of it twice, and it was scary as hell. Not so much the peek of the trip, but how intense the onset is. it went from 0 to 4grams of mushrooms in 5 seconds. I did not have a breakthrough but my perception of reality got to a point where it is hard to describe. I have not tried vaping anything after that. The combination of it being painful on the lungs and how intense it is kind of scares me. I have not tried 5meo DMT for that same reason.

Yes, After those headaches that was the conclusion I sort of drew, but I had some of the most meaningful trips on mushrooms and DMT, so its hard to accept that they might not be right for me. 4-AcO-DMT is illegal in the Netherlands, so that is not something I can find easy online. Is DPT something you would recommend? I read some dark reports about it, but in your last video you seemed positive. In the Netherlands it is easier to find then 4-aco-DMT.

Dont think that would work with mushrooms. And you said normal dmt did not plug very well. Thats what my first thought. But when i tried drinking more it had little effect. And psychedelics like LSD, AL-LAD and 5meo-mipt give me no issues. Smoking dmt also gave me no issues, but i hate smoking it. It feels horrible on the lungs. Iv tried to stop resisting it, but its difficult. If the pain is not to bad i can do it, but these headaches are some of the worse pain iv experianced in my life.

Iv been doing psychedelics for a few years now. And this year iv started messing with 1p-lsd. Of all the psychedelics iv tried it gives me the least amount of bad side effects. Iv been working my way up the dose like i do with all psychedelics. 60ug more each trip. About half a year ago i got to 240ug. Thats the dose where for me it started to feel really intense. In a good way. I remember laying down on my bed and closing my eyes. And i noticed i could barely sense my body at all. If i did not move it was like i was a hair away from being nothing. The visuals i saw were these 2d fractal patterns. And i got this strange sense that i was this pattern. I just laid there basking in the moment being a fractal and it was amazing. It had this peacefull euphoria which was very nice to experiance. Now 2 weeks ago after half a year i mustered the courage to up the dose to 300ug. The trip was fine, but it felt in a way less then the 240ug trip. I could not get back to that feeling of becoming a fractal or loosing the sense of having a body. Anyone else had an experiance like that? Im not sure what to make out of it. Im guessing i was close to something, but not quite there.