Maru

I have experienced fainting and having a blackout on to much space cake. And i sleep every day To me it seems as if i am never unconscious, my consciousness just skips forward. If there is an infinite void at the end of life, then where would it come from and how would you be conscious of it? Does unconscious really exist? I once went wild camping in a hammock in a pitch dark forest. In absolute middle of the night i woke up, and there was no sound, no light and because i was hanging it sorta felt like floating. Its the closest iv been to absolute nothingness and it was a really strange sensation. But blank sensory input still seems to have static.

What do you mean specifically by understanding? I mean you can understand things by using your mind and language to "know" things. But you can also sense things directly and be conscious of them. But Both have limits i guess. Reality seems far to multidimensional to be known in words. And my senses seem way to crude to sense all of it. It also seems possible to boost your imagination trough for example psychedelics, but i find it hard to judge if this imagination can be used as tool to know how it all works. I think i remember Leo saying something like "to truly know the spoon you have to be the spoon" Maybe i remember that wrong, but it makes me think of another thing. Things seem to have an inside and an outside. And i can only know myself from the inside and everything else from the outside. How can i truly understand everything and everyone without being both all the insides and outsides at the same time? Is that a state that you can reach as a lil earth monkey? Just some thoughts

Are you not the same? You seem awfully confident that you know better somehow. Just like everybody else.

I think the suffering makes the moments of blissfulness more valuable. After a long cold drab winter, a sunny vibrant spring seems like pure heaven to me. I also don't believe from my experiences on LSD that the universe is an controlling force. I always seem to think that "its all me" But as you said i have no direct control over anything. Yet somehow things always seem to turn out the way i want them to be, for better or for worse. Its kind of mysterious.

I once smoked a huge bong rip of weed. I became so high that i saw i was imagining it all and everything connected to me. I was the first to awaken i was the prophet. I was the savior. All minds connected to mine as an all containing hivemind Then i became aware that this would imply the end of the game. So in all my wisdom i decided that it would be best for every being to forget it ever happened. Of course i remember. So technically i was first Then again, i am ego so it was just ego having an egotrip.

I find it very confusing out on these forums. Maybe my definition of what ego is is wrong or something. To me it seems like allot of people just repainted there old ego with some fresh spiritual paint. Reading this topic is quite funny though. I say leave the sex doll and get a girlfriend. Iv got one and we don't match perfectly but its fine. I still love her.

Supposedly you can force 1 pain away by experiencing a worse pain. And so people with intense emotional pain can then supress there emotional pain by harming themselves. This is called auto-mutilation as far as i know. I used to be in a therapy group with some other people who had borderline disorder and they seem to do this sort of stuff allot. So i would say if you auto-mutilate at least visit a therapist for some advice.

It hurts my mind thinking about it. What does "me" even mean when the PoV you have seems to identify with whatever its contents are. I once took LSD and my PoV was just a geometric fractal dancing in 2dimentional space. I was totally convinced i was that shape till the moment i opened my eyes.... Its really strange.

Your doing exactly the same though. It confuses me that you blame people for things you do yourself and then somehow fail to see this. I did not add questionmarks behind my sentences for no reason. They were ment as questions to you, not absolute statements. I just wanted to try to show you that the opposite perspective of your own exists and might be valid. You know, try to open your mind to the opposite. Is that not the reason why you have a discussion? To break the illusion that black is better then white or visa versa.

I guess the only truth to any word is the sound it makes as it leaves your mouth or the mark it leaves on whatever surface you scribble it.

@Razard86 You sir confuse me. Are you not just as much ego as we are?

I always think its kind of funny that the so called atom, the basic building block of chemistry is 99.9~% emptiness. Or so the science people say. I wonder what percentage of that atom its non emptiness is also empty when you start cutting it in even smaller pieces.

You could be right. In the end i am just speculating based on my bias. We would have to go and try to make that AI. Make it in a way that imitates the human experience and see what happens to it. Cameras, microphones, pressure and heat sensors. They do exist. I would say the tricky part is how do you give your AI a form of consciousness that resembles that of a human. Instead of that of a rock. Would giving a computer senses, neural network and memory be enough? Then train it with language so it can translate it senses in concepts?

I am quite happy that there is allot of normal people. They do all the things i deem boring and uninteresting so i don't have to. The world needs a balance of both. The normal and the abnormal both have roles in this game of life id say.

I would not be surprised if it is possible. In an infinite universe i would think that its not a question of if, but when, where and how. 1 million years ago an LCD TV here on earth would have been totally impossible. There was nothing here capable of imagining it. Yet here i am looking at one right now.

There is also great beauty in your jest. It made me smile.

Reading this made me giggle. Was this true happiness? or was it the junky kind?

All these spiritual ideas or "teachings" had to come from somewhere. How did the first teacher get his insights to awakening or enlightenment? Where did the first teacher find his wisdom? "seeing the beauty of the way things are" Do you need a teacher to figure this out? Or does a teacher just make it easier? Is awakening really a matter of hard or easy? To me it seems as if its more about really wanting it. I can think to myself i want to be awakened right now, but that is in itself self-deception. I don't want to BE it, i just want to know it. But knowing it is not the truth is it? That's my thoughts, hope you enjoy them

@RMQualtrough i define death as a point of no return. If they came back, were they really dead? I am not saying there is reincarnation, but your asuming the universe is a liniar mechanism? For all we know you might just be god imagining the whole universe and i am just you playing wordgames with yourself on a forum you imagined

So i use various types of drugs out of curiousity. Weed is one of them which i am the most comfortable with. Probebly because i pushed it to its extremes more then i have dared with other drugs. I have mixed weed with ketamine and mushrooms in the past. Those experiences were so intense that I fear combining high doses of weed with anything that softens the ego. Iv also experimented with taking huge bong rips of weed with no tollerance. To see if i could get weed to become psychedelic. Now i cant seem to get any visual experience out of it. But i do get a very intense euphoria out of it. Yesterday i decided to vaporize allot of haze. I had little tollerance. I smoked a bit half a week ago. But it was clearly not a problem. I got into this radiant euphoria again. It felt as if i was overflowing with love. And because i was so loving i could see how selfish i am and other humans are. My imagination just went all over the place. I imagined other versions of this world i wanted to try out. I imagined an utopia in which individuals were totaly open and nobody had secrets. I remember nearly bursting out i tears of joy. Now being sober again i just wonder what do i make of it all? It sure cheers me up allot experiencing these states of extreme bliss. But it confuses me allot. I remember playing a game a few weeks ago while high and i could imagine that it would probebly be possible to project consiousness into a game and experience it as if it was real. Its strange. When my imagination becomes so convincing that I think it is real. It sort of makes me wonder. Maybe imagination is all there is. Has anyone else done weed in high doses and experience these sorts of strange states of mind?

If you are infinite you try everything cuz you got nothing better to do.

@Terell Kirby that is your perspective. Iv used many drugs for both pleasure and spiritual reasons. Iv yet to addict to anything. And it is not as if i never do any other psychedelics. Iv tried LSD, LSA, mushrooms, 4ho-met, 5meo-mipt, al-lad and dmt. Yes weed is adictive. But LSD is adictive too. From my perspective LSD feels allot better then weed. So it would be more adictive to me.

Your not dead if your being kept alive in a frozen state. Your just unconsious. If you dont like shrooms then take LSD. ?

It is. Especialy if your mind has good synergy with it. Iv known people that go paranoid if they take to much, but for me its just pure bliss. But the same could be said for any drug. I could totaly loose myself in LSD if i would allow myself to. Its just as amazing in its own way as weed. The fading into nothingness and the slight erotic skin sensation being the only thing left you feel while experiencing nothing but strange fractal paterns is pure bliss aswell. I could do it every weekend and it would probebly never get old... But i wont ? ill suffer like the grumpy ass i am.

Uhm. It depends on my mood. The intervals are often 2 weeks or a month. Or longer. But this week i vaped some twice. I dont smoke allot. And i dont always take big hits. But this weekend i just had an urge to just blast my ego. I guess i needed some selfreflection.