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Deeper than god? i created all the stages, it's it game over ? and i can't unseen what i've seen

Sometimes i feel like "ok, i'm god , i can relax and enjoy" but then is that i remember how i created my gf looking at her. Like i designed it my whole to life to this moment, she told me i was god and everything collapsed into me!!! Time, space, her,everything. i gave life to her, and everthing else!! I have 0 idea how to life just life next, everything lost all mystery and meaning to it, instead of pure bliss. I can't tell it to anyone, because everyone is me, just a fragment of my infinite imagination. I'm all alone.

yes i created all the deceptions and illusion to trick myself into thinking there are other! it's just me! and i'm afraid all stuff is what how to awaken, but how to deal with shit like that?

i can't sleep and forget...

So why i feel so miserable? i have no idea what to do next, it's all me, i'm after 24h after this, i'm still conscious of it. I can't eat, sleep, escape this. How to ground myself? i really need help. Any advice to forget... i got so conciouss that I SAW how i created my GF looking into her!!! i saw how i created my life, my "teachers", "you" everything,time,spacer,everthing!! how is it possible? there's no anserws right? it's just NOW?

Because even my "girlfriend" is pure fantasy. It's all me. I'm all alone. Right now i'm talking to me self, using my next self-deception as Leo. It was no fucking joke that there's no one to awaken but YOU. if i can't get less conscious, and forget, and can't enjoy it either what to do?

What's the key left? I'M GOD! I'M YOU. I’M DREAMING ALL IT! There's absolutely nothing outside me.

so it's just milions tools of self-deception? like this forum, you, and all of it?

yes, but it's pure imaginery. I really dreamt all of it. My parents. Me. I'm dreaming it right now talk i talk to someone, it's all me. how do i live this life knowing i'm everthing there is?

all the reality collapsed into me. Now, is it my next "self-deception, as *leo gura*, to keep myself into this dream?

Thank you sir, it was very good to read. Some of your insights were very familiar to mine, which i've already forgotten, so the recollection of that was pretty nice. Thank you!

Leo: "Your mom is imaginary. You dreamt her up. It's all YOU! Wake up!!! You are GOD!" Which of course may be useful to some, because it's so direct. But based on what i see on the forum, it's confusing for most people here. So if I were Leo, and if i cared a single fuck about people on my forum, i'd give a further/different explanation, cause the current one, doesn't seem to work

Thanks for the insight! yeah it's easier to grasp when you put in that way. I think i've experienced "no-time" on DMT, so i can truly say, that time is an illusion. To re-frame it, one can say, that it's like film reel, you see the movie which is your life, but without a time, and when you open film reel, every picture, and every scene, everthing, already is saved on it. Do you think it's good analogy?

I still can't admire it enough, how you've come to that level of realization, without psychedelics. Seriously, it's mind blowing. Some people are truly gifted! Have you ever tried some substances, though? What would happen to you, on psychedelics, with that high base level consciousness? That's what's always confusing, cause my "ego" corrupts this idea, but now, i'm aware of that. By "you" you refer to GOD, not my fake-ego-mind- identity. I'm a dream, therefore i don't exist too...

15+ times, so yeah, i think i need to get used to it, and trip some more. BUT it happens some-time in sober state as well, that i look into someone's eyes, and there's that recognition...it's me... it's like universe/god/me/ recognizes itself.

Holy fuck! that hit me like a thunder. You are god-damn right. You can't realize "part of God" it's like, you would find out, that you are just one piece of puzzle. Therefore, You would never know the entire fucking picture!!! So.... my "bubble" of consciousness is the whole fucking God. DAMN! But still, there's that paradox, that "other -me - self aka "other people" experience "their" bubble, and it can't fit well into my mind, how is it possible... is it different timeline? Different live? They are all me, but how?

There is! i've seen it a couple of times, and i still forget it every-damn-time when i come back from trip . I really believe i don't want to forget it, but ... i think it's self-deception as always.

Sometimes after psychedelics like schrooms/lsd it's super clear, that it's all a dream, that everything you see is you, that time does not exist. To the point, you want to go back to the illusion, because it's boring. But after the trip, you go back to the previous state, and a couple days later, the psychedelic trip is just a foggy memory. Does it influence your sober(base) consciousness state somehow? I've always thought, that it may give you some indications, like a sign, but to reach this high level of consciousness you must mediate, do self -inquiry especially on sober state. But Leo seems to say something different, that 200+ trips had a tremendous effect on sober consciousness as well. So what do you think?

Think about film reel. Your perception is that you see the movie going. That's the illusion of time. But what happens when you completely open the film reel? Every image, every situation, everything that ever happened, just stops. Everything already is, time is an illusion.

Think about film reel. Your perception is that you see the movie going. That's the illusion of time. But what happens when you completely open the film reel? Every image, every situation, everything that ever happened, just stops. Everything already is, time is an illusion.

What's the difference between those for 1,77 and 17 €. ? i don't see any information about that.

I tried to watch it on trip , but i got distracted every-damn-time i had some trips solo and some with girlfriend, and always those with her, gave me insights, that we are in fact one. Especially when eye staring, It's crazy! Thank you for your advices. And yes, our mind proceed world different, so it's always experiencing > words/concepts Thank you. I'll try not to stick with thoughts and concepts, and focus on direct experience myself.

Today i wanted to trip on 250 uq lsd, but i have existential terror. Solipsism really got into my head. The view that i'm the only one being, and others are just "empty suits" are terrifying. Why would anyone wake up to that fact? Or maybe i think about it wrong, from filter with my "ego", and it's not that bad while "ego" is gone. It's not that bad if i'm a dream too, and everyone else is a dream but my ego doesn't feel that way. Why would infinite GOD had only on POV at a time? It doesn't make any sense. I had some trips when i've realized, that other people are me. It's fine, but the realization that they are unconscious? wtf? should i give up tripping or keep pushing? i'm really afraid, but is it avoidance of truth, or something is wrong? What's good in awakening?

Yes, i had similar thoughts. But, i have zero idea, when should i push into the fear and conquer it, and when it'll lead me to psychotic break down. Is there any indication of that? I had 15 + trips and i was always scared, but this recent post on solipsism really got me hard. And that fear seems different. Very different. I think The Truth shouldn't feel that bad...and that wrong. True, we need ego's and that sense of distinction to survive and communicate with each other. I appreciate it always after trip

This topic got me. Somehow, after time, the great fear arose. This thought and mind - loops, when i mediate is a great pointer, that my finite-mind is about to "finish" itself, and i'm entering the God's head :-) This i prefer much better. But does it happen simultaneously? this topic got me :