halfknots

Yes

I received coaching certification in the addiction and transformation space with an emphasis on psychedelic prep and integration. Send me a DM if you want to talk shop.

I am full of shit! And to a degree that I might never fully appreciate. If the particular shit I am full of helps OP realize and orient with the truth of their felt experience, that's the kind of shit I'm happy to sling.

Respectfully this is a dog shit perspective. The so called "ego backlash" is OP encountering more of themself, which means more opportunity for embodiment, insight, observation, expression, inquiry, reprocessing, integration, and love.

It's all part of the unfolding

Yes, a powdered sugar like texture is normal For small doses, volume (scoop) may be more reliable than weight (scale) due to the scale tolerance and margin of error below 10 mg.

The colors are for enticement. There's more to it than that. Once to accept that, and humble yourself, and be open to the experience as it is, more will be revealed.

I've had subtle reactivations while driving, and I personally know several people who have had intermittent reactivations all day, every day, for weeks. They chose not to drive for obvious reasons.

This argument consistently fails to even consider the environmental and ethical impact of synthetic. Synthetic is more deeply abstracted than natural. One has no idea of, and would struggle to accurately model, the impact that purchasing synthetic 5-meo-dmt has. Natural there is, ideally, zero abstraction. You squeeze the a toad and set it loose. There is room for both natural and synthetic.

This is not an either or situation. There are reasons to use synthetic and there are reasons to use the toad. Especially if you live in the right part of the world the toad is abundant and it is a beautiful opportunity to get to connect with the natural source of this incredible transformative medicine / teacher / tool

My first batch looked exactly as pictured fresh from the vendor

Generally speaking salts such as 5-MeO-MALT HCl are quite stable. That being said, ideal storage conditions are a cool, dark, dry, airtight space.

Much of the 5-MeO-MALT vs 5-MeO-DMT conversation seems to make the mistake of conflating certain qualities of the route of administration with qualities of the molecule. 5-MeO-MALT and 5-MeO-DMT have the same ROA possibilities, with the variable being whether you have freebase or a salt form. Additionally, it isn't as of one is for breakthroughs and one for more subtle work. That is entirely dependent on dose and ROA.

Heptane

Not so. Cocaine by and large is extracted from coca leaves.