integration journey

I'm from Syria. I was born and raised there for 16 years and then moved to the US. My father is still there with some relatives

No wonder LSD is illegal 400 ug sent me straight to God and I finally figured out that you=me the most mind blowing things is that when the ego was gone, "I" was able to channel someone dear to me which mind fucked me for real. I actually spoke and became that person when I popped out of this dream I got insight into some shadow stuff of mine too The trip lasted more than 15 hours !! I saw so much and so much insight I'm not sure how to integrate, any tips? Every second of life is so beautiful. Every second is god. You are everything you were looking for. I'm mind blown

Hi After doing this work for about 3 years, I had some realizations and it changed me How do I develop a healthy ego from all this? Sometimes the ego is not there but when it is there, there is a subtle conflict. When I do Vipassana meditation, I can tap into the true nature of "me" but when I'm going about in life, there seems to be a conflict in some areas of life. I hope I'm not too vague Thanks

I have been noticing myself having people pleasing tendencies which relate to my shadow.. I love approaching but it feels like I need or want something from her that I don't currently have. I hate that feeling I have a lot of joy inside my heart and would love to share that with someone though, that is why I want to have a relationship. Any tips on coming off as non needy with her? Thanks!

Hi I'm looking for a retreat that develops mindfulness , body awareness or any retreat/workshop that has a masterful teacher in it in California Any recommendations would be appreciated. Thank you

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Just curious ? Is there a particular place around the world or in your area that that makes you feel spiritual ? I like walking in state parks I also would love to visit Nepal

Any idea or thoughts? It certainly creates fear

Maybe at the end, we get to "judge" our own lives and how we lived it and see if we fulfilled our karma so we can stay in the god head or we would like to come back here as another form if we haven't fulfilled our karma . But I'm just kinda speculating

Just curious ? I noticed that I'm becoming more and more extroverted and I noticed that my standards are high. Still no serious results but I did have a date and a kiss The coolest girls always say they have boyfriends I noticed. I want to get this dating shit out of my karmic system, it feels like survival. After I have an intimate relationship with a girl, I don't feel like I want anything else from life. After that, I just want to focus on the life purpose stuff and providing high value and creativity. I know self- deception will try to fuck with me and want another girl after the first one though I know someone will say focus on the life purpose now but after watching leo's series on getting laid, I felt this huge stagnant karma that I need to fulfill so I can move the fuck on

I'm from Syria and this is like a tough titty. Bashar Assad is the real and only terrorist in Syria

jerk off to release that needy energy. Go back to your center that way.

Hello I had a profound experience on BUFO ( first time) , I remember being in a mystical union with GOD and love, I can go on but it won't capture the beauty of the experience. I felt my ego coming back though right after, so how do you deal with that? I just need to integrate and bring the lessons from that non dual experience to the duality that we live in. It was a profound experience but then the ego kicked back in. It was very beautiful still. I learned that death is imaginary because I felt the death of me. I learned that I need to watch out what kind of information I consume.. I was laughing and giggling throughout the whole experience from the profundity of it. I saw a crack being opened in front of me too.. I felt that I was back home and that it was infinite it was beautiful and my words are not giving the experience its full value. its beyond words You are love Namaste

If you become aware of your nature after doing some of this work for a couple of years, do you keep doing self inquiry? for example, when I ask "what am I?", I know that I'm nothingness because I had this reference experience. I also have feelings/ direct experience of nirvana/bliss on a daily bases just being by myself in meditation Do I keep doing self-inquiry? When I ask that question of what am I , God is also an answer but I just hope it is not coming from a belief. Thanks

@Focus Shift your youtube channel is fucking awesome. I loved the dating video. I'm looking forward to watching more of your videos

Hi What do you look for in a facilitator of 5MEO? I don't wanna give out too much detail but I found someone who is a facilitator of BUFO and we talked and I will be going to a different US state to experience 5MEO I'm just trying to exercise caution.

how do you guys engage with a girl emotionally while being blasted with music in a nightclub ? I remember @Leo Gura said to work on your voice and tone I haven't been in a club for years and today I went to one, talked to some girls but every time I talk to a girl, she's like "ha" ? because she can't hear the shit I'm saying. I felt like yelling just so that the girls can hear me but that felt forced I prefer day game because at least I can hear the shit that is being said, and it's less cliche to hit on her and I don't know how to put my finger on it but it just feels better to do day game for me How do you guys manage loud nightclubs? I will try it again I was dancing most of the night by myself as nothingness, building state and I felt like I'm in heaven expressing my true nature in dancing spontaneously. Lol I can explain it in different ways. There was this girl that told me to buy her a drink for a kiss but I kinda told her to fuck off implicitly ( without actually saying that phrase) it was a college party and I honestly felt surrounded by kids even though I'm 23 Overall I felt good because I talked to few girls, danced so beautifully and experienced what's like to be in a night club after so many years. I had other insights while there but let me keep it short and sweet. and no I don't and didn't drink.

Anybody tried this course before? what did you think of it? Did you learn something new not available on his youtube channel? Thanks!

@Lyubov I just didn't want to force myself to the girl but I suppose you would call that a classic newbie mistake? I already felt good in the club just dancing by myself but it's a little bit of a paradox because I did want a kiss. but at the same time I wasn't like craving it. I just wanted to have some fun and I kinda did.

Has anybody tried those intensives? There is one later this year in the US, it's for three days but it's online and it's like 600 $ or something If it was in person, I would seriously consider it but I don't know if the online experience is as profound. Any thoughts? Thanks

@tlowedajuicemayne I got interested in enlightenment intensives after looking at @Leo Gura booklist. I talked to the facilitator of this intensive on zoom and she said she spent 13 years in a zen monastery and she seems to understand awakening and things like that. We talked for about 2 hours @Shambhu Thank you for the feedback , the facilitator told that from the past two years, there has been good feedback from doing it online but in person is of course better I think

So I watched the video on detox of heavy metals But I still don't understand how to order the test kit because I got the impression from the website where you order the test kit that it has to be ordered by your doctor for you. Is that true? What website did you use to order the test kit and did it have to be ordered by your doctor? Just trying to clarify if I'm using the right website to order the test kit