Inception

Post #26: Sex I'm revisiting the physiological need for that sweet sex. It's been years since I last got some, and years since the last time before that. Safe to say that I've had a drought for a long time. I guess you could say I've been neglecting this need... Which has left me with a huge shadow. Perhaps I will get into why in a future post. Also, I don't want to go about getting it in a roundabout or pay-to-win manner. I want to learn the game, not circumnavigate it. Make sure to integrate your humanity before you transcend it

Hi, this is gonna be the place where I: Journal Write poems Think out loud Personally I like twisting and turning my mind inside out. My profile is based off of the movie “Inception” by Christopher Nolan, which I highly recommend. And the same goes for his work general. You’re welcome to comment when relevant.

Post #25: Catharsis You're gonna need more than meditation to heal those wounds.

Post #24: Purple Purple is so mystical...

Post #23: Too rigid Trying to be a bit more feminine, doesn't mean anything goes though

Post #22: Weird Things keep getting weirder. Reality keeps turning out to be different than how i expected it. What a strange world we live in, when you come to think of it. I still don't get it. I don't understand Leo either. Maybe I'm not supposed to? But what I do know is that I love coffee. Just the thought of it makes me happy

Firstly in 1996 he rejected a prestigious award (EMS Prize). Secondly in 2006 he allegedly denied another award (Fields Medal), even after 10 hours of persuasion to accept it, about which he allegedly said: "[the prize] was completely irrelevant for me. Everybody understood that if the proof is correct, then no other recognition is needed." He was allegedly also quoted as saying: "I'm not interested in money or fame, I don't want to be on display like an animal in a zoo. I'm not a hero of mathematics. I'm not even that successful; that is why I don't want to have everybody looking at me." But the most noteworthy thing about him is that he denied a 1 million dollar prize (Millennium Prize) in 2010, because he considered it to be unfair since he didn't consider his contribution towards solving a conjecture to be greater than that of another mathematician. About which he allegedly said: "Emptiness is everywhere and it can be calculated, which gives us a great opportunity. I know how to control the universe. So tell me, why should I run for a million?" Allegedly he's quit professional mathematics because he's disappointed with the ethical standards and lives in seclusion. Talk about integrity and wisdom. What do guys think? Do you think he's got some mystical knowledge?

Post #21: Note to self I’m still a slave, and I will be for a while. Everyday is an internal struggle towards freedom.

Post #20: Santa Claus You can't find yourself for the same reason you can't find Santa Claus.

Post #19: You don't have a life There aren't multiple lives, there's only one, and it isn't yours.

Post #18: Oneness There's many lies, but only one Truth; many detours, but only one Path; many disorders, but only one Order. Multiplicity is illusion, there's no plural.

Post #17: Understanding Above all i value understanding. The most valuable "thing" i have is my understanding of Reality. The quality of my life has been directly proportional to my level of understanding. Anything other than the pursuit of understanding is either supplementary to this endeavor or a sidequest to pass the time. And there's only one "thing" to understand, only at ever deeper levels. "Education is an ornament in prosperity and a refuge in adversity" - Aristotle

I've also noticed there's a lot of ego games. The devil will sneak it's way into everything...

Post #16: There's no place like home! The more I realize the collective level of consciousness of Earth the less I'm surprised it is the way it is today. In fact, it be surprised if it wasn't the dumpster fire that it is.

I know of SD stage green communities like ecovillages, but are there any SD stage yellow or above organized communities, outside of actualized.org? I'm mainly thinking of physical communities, but feel free to share non-physical communities too. Also, questions for @Leo Gura: How come you live in an SD stage orange community (Las Vegas) with your stage of development outside of game? Have you considered moving to a physical community with a higher stage of development? Have you've considered starting your own physical community?

The main message they give is to approach a lot, the specific number is arbitrary. Also there's a limit to how many you can approach a day without being "that guy" even within a big city, unless perhaps you live in NYC.

How come you lost touch with your group? Sounds great, but it sounds less like an actual stage yellow community and more like fragments of stage yellow situated within close proximity. Is this correct? I'm currently looking to move to an stage green ecovillage, which should have most of the above.

Wow, that's very interesting, it looks like something from another world. Can you elaborate on the work that needs to be done? Turns out It's designed by a guy called Roger Anger, how ironic is that I know, but I'm just wondering if it mustn't be soul crushing to rub shoulders with people who are so far apart from your own stage of development. At least that's my experience, which is why I'm seeking a community of higher development. I mean birds of a feather flock together, right? I don't, so I wouldn't know, lol, but I get it what you're saying. What's the stage of development of the community you live in, and are you satisfied with it? I just remember him talking about considering starting something in one of his videos, and since he already had an non-physical community (actualized.org), I figured he must've been talking about something irl. Could just be a misunderstanding though.

Post #15: Intentions for an intentional community I'm tired of living in a SD orange society of sleepwalking bots running on auto-pilot, so I will be seeking out an SD green intentional community like an ecovillage to live in, where people are at least a bit more conscious. I want to make this happen in about a year.

It certainly can be at least. If there something I've realized it's that life is an inner journey not an outer one, but the "outer" journey can certainly aid in the inner journey.

By being active on this forum (among other things) I've made more progress in the past week than I've made than in the past months. I never knew that the forum could be this potent. I kept getting very profund insights spontaneously. But I feel like I flew too close to the sun though, as I could feel myself and my reality getting gradually more unhinged, because my life was changing too much (for the better) too fast. In a sense I kind of knew that amount of progress would be unsustainable, but I just kept riding the wave. I don't really regret it, because it absolutely felt right at the time. The end result of this was that last night between the 13th and 14th while I was about to fall asleep I had what I would call "glimpses of insanity". All I remember while being in these states of consciousness is that I understood something that I really didn't want to understand. Like I perceived "it" for what "it" really was. I had no idea what it was that I understood, all I know is that I did and that i didn't want to. It wasn't something visual (although my visual field was kinda blurry), it was existential. Like a direct transmission of pure, raw and uncensored understanding. I was no longer my self, i.e. my state of being changed. It was truly horrifying and I remember begging and pleading to return to the comfort of ignorance. This happened multiple times with each glimpse lasting for less than a minute, but feeling more like 5 minutes. Looking back I've had these glimpses before, but much less in intensity and only while semi-sleeping so they weren't as obvious and easier to forget. I also remember thinking about illogical thinks as though they made perfect sense. In the "State Of Consciousness Is Everything" episode, Leo pointed out that we're assuming that we can do this work while maintaining our sanity (sense of reality), and thereby implying that it's not (necessarily) the case. Now I get what he means. The illusory nature of what I call reality is becoming increasingly and painfully obvious. If I don't watch out, someday something will hit me so deep that I will no longer just intellectually, but instead fully and viserally realize that it's all an illusion, i.e. wake up. Right now the illusion still seems like reality at heart. What we call sanity is actually a pretty fragile when you think about it, now I get why we have all the deception going; It's to keep the tightly walled garden that is our reality from dissolving. I really take my hat off to Leo; How he's still able to remain sane with his level of understanding is beyond me. I'm even surprised how (most of) the long-time followers are still sane. Anyways, the main takeaway from this experience is that I need to chill for a moment, and take my foot off the accelerator. So I will be going back to logging in max. once at the end of each day when I've taken care of my survival concerns. Also I'll try to stay closer to the ground so to speak, both with with the kind of topics I'll be discussing and how I'll be discussing them, i.e. I'll be spending less time in spiritual section... I've been contemplating psychedelics for a while now, but now I'm convinced that they're off the table for me for at least the foreseeable future. They also don't seem necessary as I'm able to trip plenty without them. I've spend most of the day grounding by going for some walks and doing practical stuff like cleaning, and I'm already feeling much better, grounded and stable. I've also made an effort not to enter the forum until now (24 hours), but I'll admit it was hard not to, which just goes to show you how addicted I've gotten recently. Take care everyone, and cherish your sanity while you still have it. Insanity is no joke, i.e. it's real! “The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the light into the peace and safety of a new dark age.” - H. P. Lovecraft

Not sure if this was an opening of the third eye, though. There weren't really any visual effects associated with the experience, it was more like a change in state of consciousness. What the difference between the three scenarios?

@Bazooka Jesus LMFAO! That's most people on this forum, including me That was comically yet oddly beautifully put, lol.

There 's no location, so you're no-where, kinda freaky when you think about it: "Wherever you 'go' there you are". Yet it's absolutely inevitable.

Post #14: Awakening You don't awaken, you're awoken from. Nobody wakes up. Somebody is the dream.