Inception

Post 178 The smartest thing the devil can do is let itself be purified by the light of Awareness. This seems to me to be the only real practice. ”[…] but even so, enmeshed, entangled, you can still get out unless, poor fool, you stand in your own way” - Lucretius

Hi, this is gonna be the place where I: Journal Write poems Think out loud Personally I like twisting and turning my mind inside out. My profile is based off of the movie “Inception” by Christopher Nolan, which I highly recommend. And the same goes for his work general. You’re welcome to comment when relevant.

Post 177 If you’re smart you accept. If you’re not you resist. That simple.

Post 176 Satan’s days are numbered.

Post 175 From now on I’m making an effort not to get carried away.

Post #174: Venom I’m full of vile toxic venom.

Post #173: Free fall I’ve officially lost the grip on my life. I honestly have little to no idea of what’s gonna happen next.

Post #172 I just found out what my problem is: I’m a tryhard.

Post #171 She’s water and I’m fire.

Post #170 I’m going full self-improvement mode. Which means 2014 Leo Gura, Owen Cook, Gary Vaynerchouck, David Goggings. Let’s get it.

Post #169 The devil want’s to do the impossible; to get rid of itself. It fails and is frustrated. Yet at the same time it doesn’t want to.

Post #168: Futility I think ego will work, it won’t, it won’t, it won’t. When is this going to click. How many more years. It won’t work. I’m like that guy pushing the square block. Also I’m not taking any breaks. There are no breaks. Let go or be dragged.

Post #167 I’m taking a break from Actualized.org for now to focus on gaining stability in my life. Good luck everyone.

Post #166 Apathy is my new default.

Post #115 I want to become better at journaling.

Post #114 Life is designed to break the devil.

Post #113: Whitney Houston on the devil

Post #112 Correction: “10 times out of 10 it's the devil, whatever it may be.” It’s really that pervasive. Me making this post is devilry. The devil is incapable of anything but devilry. Obvious when you think about it.

Post #111 9 times out of 10 it's the devil, whatever it may be.

You wouldn’t believe me if I told you…

Post #110 Sooo i ended up in a psych ward. It’s pretty good here ngl.

Post #109 I just had a deep and intimate realization of my own selfishness. I’m so sorry to everyone and myself. I’m beginning to see that I’m not this poor, innocent and misfortune little thing. The suffering I’m experiencing is due to my selfishness. Karma. I will try to be better. I want those who care about to know, that I appreciate them.

Post #108 Some day before the 16/12 was sitting meditating and time sped up. Some day before the 16/12 I was in deep flow/wu wei, where it felt like time was speeding up. Yesterday (16/12) I had a very profound and deep and intimate DNOFTS, where I realized that there’s nothing I can do to let go of control. I was comforted by… I felt deep compassion towards myself. Yet I went back to being selfish as though nothing had happened. %control. Today (17/12) I had another deep DNOFTS, where I was resisting until I let go and felt a powerful sense of love. This lowered my selfishness. I was left debilitated by the damage of resisting. %Control. Also today (17/12) I had somewhat of an enlightenment experience, where I realized I was just a thought and there actually isn’t anyone in the entire universe. Shook me to my core. Also w… and emotions and

Post #107 I might have experienced more and deeper emotions the past months than I have in the rest of my life.

Post #106 I’m done with femininity. Also I’m done trying to act motivated. I’m really just trying to get by.