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Yes, I contemplated this myself, we're all born at different times and typically all at different ages and unique points of view, however we all share this present moment,

@GreenWoods Did you give up? Haha

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@PurpleTree Yes, an itchiness around the cheeks, somewhat going red, whole body tingles and burns up ... am I explaining shame? I think so, I can imagine it now hahaha

@WokeBloke I can catch on with this; but death, I'm certain, will be the real wake up call, where this dreaming ego cannot go into, which may not be possible to experience while alive and halusinating as your encapsulated ego; therefore yes, "god" may forever evolve into infinity, but not exactly the ego due to its finite limitation, because it wouldn't be life if you had godly superpowers and teleported around the cosmos, so all for good reasons, too, I assume, and so to awaken into infinity one's ego must die ... Although to an extent there are limitations as an ego, I don't know if its possible to awaken so much so one can begin walking on water or moving mountains at a command, or levitating like in a dream ... and I have heard stories from Sadghuru about meeting a native American Indian man who flickered in and out of existence due to some teleportation glitch they'd accidendally slipped himself into ... and I have heard stories where people bend spoons with their minds or spotted monks levitating over farms in Eastern areas ...

Are you talking about suicide? And I don't know if it is possible to fully awaken in this life-time, or maybe it is; although, I think that'd result as a physical death - Therefore, you're in this dream for some important reason/intention, or your predicament would likely be otherwise if this were not so - Unless as God, you kind of dared yourself onto this rollercoaster called life, so really you're stuck here until you finally die gracefully, Anways, personally I'm lazy these past few days that it somewhat hurts, haha, I'd better actually get done some cleaning and study,

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I have often, and there's been times where I've felt a vicious circle between guilt and shame, guilty because of the shame, and then shameful because of the guilt, and cannot look people in the eye, head sunken low, feeling awful and dirty about my being amongst others, and a weird sense of embarrassment in social environments with a desire to isolate myself, I even meditated and envisioned myself sitting in a corner alone and I had this weird fixation on why I wasn't normal and a worry perhaps I don't consider about others' well-being as often as I should do, instead of the selfish fixation on myself. Contemplating - why am I so focused on myself in a peculiar manner and unable to put it into proper words or explain it to someone wiser for better understanding and integration. I recognize this sensation of shame as mentioned, and it’s been on my nerves at times because I can't identify where exactly it is coming from, what impact it has on my life and ways to go about changing it, so as to look beyond this awkward fixation that lingers over myself and the weird feelings I have lurking within - And then the sensation, too, perhaps it is a waste of my time dealing with it. The shame perhaps inhabited years of inwardly fixations that don't help with social environments I am intimately connected with in all given moments, Yes, and I think this feeling also has a low vibration to it, so its not exactly the highest and most vitalizing energy one could potentially experience, and if others feel guilt or shame the way I myself do on peculiar occasions, is it sort of common for humans during our day and age, I'm unsure about how others deal with it if at all; hence sharing insights in this thread will help clear up such questions ... Polite regards,

Of course you'll want to ruminate on these gold nuggets, fasinating ! I found this to be the case with Course of Miracles to which he recommended, haven't yet finsihed, and that book alone, with so much to take in, sure does change prespective from lets say the animalistic chimp brain and more towards an articulated spiritual way of being in this world, fasinating ! ? @Pax And I just realized you also have a fasination with David R Hawkins, I've recently been contemplating a bit about a few of his teachings in particular, as of these past few days, and I've watched one online video here and there over the week but kind of haulted on the books and videos maybe a month ago, because I've been recently devouring Actualized.Org lectures ... I haven't yet found clarity about what I've suddenly been contemplating as recent, and I find it to be important - it has to do with the keniesiology testing and its ability to detect truth from falsehood - For starters, how seriously (or playfully; because I hate taking anything seriously with a sense of determinism or military attitude - I think military pride calibrates kind of low, and if pride gets stripped off a person, they'll then fall into shame of the sorts, which is much lower) ... anyways, say I write music (as an example), and I want to publish a fantastic song which could be synonymous with Michaelangelo's ceiling art - So to create and produce this song from a truthful angle, from an angle of bringing forth outstanding human qualities into the artwork like winning gold in the olympics for a country, instead of a desire for fame & money - I'd want to play with this kenisiology technuique to the best of my ability before I die and as a result fulfill my love for making music to the best I can, Right? I've been on the fence how seriously (playfullly) I should impliment this amazing tool into my life; because it is quite ghostly to hear about others in the world of 7 billion people using it - Not a lot lot of people really decipher between falsehood and truth at all during their somewhat mundane lives, not really, although I imagine it'd be beneficial for the rest of us if more folks did do so, Just sharing some of my personal contemplations these past few days, I can't die not testing it out to its fullest advantages - Doc would check if vegetables were ripe when grocery shopping, and he'd use it to come up with red hot in-the-moment desicions, As he'd say, the path through this lifetime is straight and narrow, many animalistic and lusiferian distractions tempt us; however, again, how seriously should I take this in my day to day life, and the art I throw myself into ... (Likewise this question can go back to yourself, how often should one act on desifering between truth and falsehood and to which degree of sincerity,) Thanks !

I was feeling somewhat down about this whole thing called life, and then I remember Leo said to a 37 year old he'll reach 60 and look back and realize he's had plenty of time to follow through with life wants like a relationship or starting a business or learning an instrument for example, and this has calmed me down a little, Anyways, this will be excellent, I love David R Hawkins and wish there were long lectures available, but I think I must purchase them at some point, plus his books are somewhat short and fasinating, I'm guessing these to be bullet points from the book you've read, which I hope to eventually get around to, Thanks in advance,

Hello, This will be a quick post, but it catches up with me often, if not daily, its that I'm almost mid 20s now and an utter virgin, I've questioned about my own sexuality but overcome it, and even shamed for it in the past which were never accurate accusations, although I was somewhat confused, unfortunately - I helped friends lose their v card, and I once had money and resources to meet women, but unlike my old friends who got laid multiple times and women would even seek them out, and never myself, I get extremely frustrated - I once had my own home, a nice car, and a lot of money due to hard work between school hours, to which it is all gone after my parents divorce, father's death, mother spending 30 k of my savings on divorce fees and finally my best friend ending up in a mental ward due to his heavy drug addiction (I became friends with him to start an innocent YouTube channel but he got hooked on weed, acid and then the harder stuff) and this all happened within maybe 2-3 years, and during my real lows this best friend would play serious mind games during my grieving and tried to tempt me into cocaine and I was alone and said no, and I was suicidal, and extrememly lonely and no girl really was compatible - and after getting kicked out of the house because my brother and his gf owned a dog which the owners didn't like and I now live on my Mum's sofa, I failed University in order to prioritize moving out (some months ago) before I was blacklisted for 3 years to not move into another house, but that Uni degree I now need to start a career I can no longer pursue, and I am virgin, and sometimes it gets on my back and I need solid advice for the love of God, Guys overall its been dog shit and I haven't yet killed myself, okay, and I'm a virgin, My question is, for those chads out there, is sex worth it? Am I missing out? Do I simply focus on myself and look at this more in the future around 30? For the love of god, its been frustrating me like an overgrown sort of American Pie, I don't know, thank you

I recommend watching comedians on YouTube, laughter is the best ?

@fopylo Maybe you don't require respect, maybe respect yourself ... and don't get too involved with others so that they can make anything too personal, kind of like leaning back with a good hand in poker, and when they say something, look them in the eyes and say exactly what needs to be said, no matter what it might be, ask them why they think its funny to say words you don't like, and continue this habit, practise getting right to the core of how its making you feel and communicate it with solid boundaries, begin developing those boundaries, even if you need to cry either in front of them or in the background, or you need to laugh with them or laugh them off, I don't know how you'll react, although developing emotional boundaries may help and communicate these boundaries so its obvious with continual practise, Just a suggestion, correct me if I may be wrong, my other suggestion would be to hang out alone until you make new friends, but I'd do this and then with a stern attitude believe it or not the bullies would recognize they're projecting their own ugliness onto me and I'd communicate it verbally until they gave up or felt embarrased to a degree around others, and if they don't care, still, maintain your boundaries, respect yourself, stand up for yourself how you'd like someone to stand up for you, Some examples, don't give the power into someone else's hands so that you're powerless, your survival doesn't depend on them either way, so if they dislike you in the end of the day then you'll still be safe to see another day most likely,

@Preety_India ?

It does become tricky dealing with someone who's not completely present and not properly playing the social game everyone else expects to be played, or at least not even putting in enough effort to correctly socialize like everyone else and contribute to the overall family and community they're a part of. Taking care of oneself is important, I personally put waaaay too much on the line for someone who played mind games and would steal belongings out strangers cars, become gay for drug money, and cut himself always creating spiritual rituals to become possessed by the evilist spirit available, I can't remember its name, but he'd cut himself and all sorts of things, even creating distance was hard, he'd ask me to dig up graves to find cartel money because he became fasinated with the drug shows on Netflix and tried to persuade me there were treausres hidden in people's graves, and I'[d say no but he'd persists and that'd piss me off, somehow he'd sneak into my house and bang on my bedroom door high and asking me to go out and buy him more drugs, haha, anyways, this is interesting, probably a lot harder if interms of it being a close and beloved family member, he'd start punch ups with his dad and draw schitzoid symbols all over his bedroom walls, Great kid from the start, too, lives in an amazing house, great family, was employed and interested in studying, I worked with his older brother, us three always went to cinemas and all sorts of friendly events around the location, but yeah, Interesting insight here, does have a peculiar effect on those associated with the person going through a challenging time of sorts, yeah, But then again, I question, too, if they're right from their point of view,

@Emotionalmosquito ?

@Barbara This is like the Abraham Hicks teachings - to first move towards a desire, you must first feel good, you can't feel bad and move towards meeting a woman, the good feeling must come first and then move towards meeting the woman - Which is close to what you're saying here ... Except I've found this to be hard, especially if you're knees deep in a problem, feeling bad about it, and then you must first learn to feel good in order to finally get what it is that's been missing and making you feel bad to begin with - Making that flip can be frustrating - Not just that, but what you resist persists, and so are you meeting a woman out of desperation, or out of a good feeling place? Abraham Hicks teaching over the years frustrated me, and I'm still a virgin after 4 years, and its been a somewhat mind game, I'm just saying, haha, I think you're mirroring Abraham Hicks teaching for example, although that switch may be difficult if you're drowing in the problem,

@flyingwhalee Understood, I love this forum because I can be honest and others are wise within this community of shared interest so as to share their points of view, too, so that I can then adapt with a clearer outlook, (I hated the reddit communities and the other spiritualist's don't have forums like this one except maybe a fan made Abraham Hicks or some social profiles available). Anyhow ... I somewhat relate to this man's feeling of being left out, and I'm sure it fluxuates where he feels bad one day, and then the next he knows why he's a virgin and there's perhaps a secret good intention behind why that might be - I know I have a secret good intention, perhaps, which is to protect myself as well as the freedom to be innocent and focus on myself almost whole heartedly, hence joing actualized.org or other communities of interest like hobbies I seek out to connect to, and it probably helps without a woman involved or potential children or marriage to the wrong person due to the woman's looks and not coming through it successfuly and eventual divorce, I'm interested in Op's genuine reasons why he think he is a virgin, I'd be interested, Thanks,

No way, I think I'd contemplate killing myself, too, if I'm a virgin by your age (personally, I'd feel just the same myself), I'm a 25 year old virgin and so far I've experienced Hell and almost daily misery, I now live on Mum's sofa, I laugh at my predicament (typically laugh cry daily for the past year and a half or more), and to believe things will get better isn't living in the present moment - Life is a giant mind fuck from what I can gather, sure, at this moment you may feel miserable, and then tomorrow everything may make sense and you'll feel great, perhaps after a meal, or finding out there's a new Spiderman film trailer, or the release of a favourite video game remastered ... but deep down there's a sensation as if everything is wrong, as if everything is pure chaos and there's no amending it and the only possible answer is to die - and now you realize that to finally die you must wait, slowly, gradually, and until then you will resist, and you will go into death with a build up of depression, regrets and continually questioning suicide, Sorry, I'm 100% a nihilist at this point, and I'm a 25 year old virgin, I've lost heaps, gone through betrayal, and now I'm a fish caught between two rocks flapping away ready to kill myself - I mean why pretend to go on if you're eager to die, because I'll mess up the whole social game, EDIT - Ignore my nihilist advice, Leo makes more support than myself, and some other replies ... But could you respond to myself if you're still alive as to why you're a virgin from your point of view? Maybe I'll relate, thanks - And be completely honest with me why you think you are a virgin, thanks

Edited, Thanks eveyone for the responses, I've found them helpful for changing my perspective, and I think its excellent because it almost feels like people are sitting with me discussing something that's been in my chest and unsure who to talk to about it, thanks!

Lol, I get this sometimes, maybe look at a blank wall for an hour or nap? Lay down listening to an audio book or podcast about a topic you find interesting and then go for a walk, cook a meal and so forth,

@Leo Gura I was going to go through that self-development route, too, haha, although I instead socialize around town when grabbing coffee for example. I experienced for myself, to an extent, the finite illusion I imagine to be myself as a human on a speck planet - Understood, too, how I won't necessarily drop the selfishness for survival purposes, perhaps, Thanks for the talk ! Actually obtained a fresh perspective on this interactive forum,

@Haloman My god, so inspiring dude, thank you, may never have found this alone, I'll continue on the road towards self development, I'll continue taking care of my diet and business and health, I'll invest big time in my hobbies, YES