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This was a reason Shakespeare's hamlet didn't jump to his death to commit suicide - Wether it is better to endure the pains and injustices of the human condition or risk the unknown of what happens after

Also I think the fear of death is a part of the game of god discovering itself, for example discovering you are eternal life and death was just a fiction as a what if - that's another fair decent idea. Or some spiritual teachers are backwards sometimes saying some will not rest after death so it doesn't seem to be the same experience for everyone which makes it confusing. Or its sophistic as Leo says so it's only you and others don't die as you think it to be

@cetus How? Enlighten me. Because I can't snap my fingers and get divine clarity about life. If I'm homeless or starving on the street or having to die into an unknown afterlife from a painful accident then the idea of being here and now doesn't fix the problems of life or produce money or have a life saving saviour nor reduce pain and suffering

I'm not afraid what happens after since my personal research and spiritual insights point to heavenly realms and unconditional love as the ground of being on the other side - What prevents me from committing suicide is the brain damage and survival worse off if it fails and once you attempt to end the body you can't control the outcome - Also there is the problem of spirit guides or Christ conciosuenss avatars in the astral realms that could possibly dictate what happens to you next and force you back into another life or body or to come back in the broken body you tried to exit but honestly I want to bitch slap the spirit guides and get answers what the fuck is going on

I want out - Like if I'm infinite god intelligence then where is the exit button or do I have to commit suicide - spiritual teachers love to say oh you are awareness of the dream character, you are not the identity being played, but you are the conciosuness making this happen, and they say I am god and yet they do not explain how to wake up from this dream - I want out - Government assisted suicide should be legalzied for all time periods and cultures of human history and civilizations - I hate life.

There had better be a choice not to experience the infinite hellhell realms - I want to painlessly instantly wake up from being a human - never reincarnate and remain in heaven. Life is madness

Dude suicide and death isn't easy, you could botch it and survive disabled. You're trapped. Many sucide attempts fail. Besides, I don't want to reincarnate. Someone here said you can fully embody god and what dematerialzie? I've found no information how to awaken from this dream of life, if god is truely free and infinite then where is the wake up trigger switch?

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@Hojo I think what you're saying in your response is that the breathing is prior to identity? Leo says identity as a human and other people is imagination. Isn't breathing imagination too? I'll have to re-read it what you wrote. Idk how to become more conscious of the phenomenology of imagination and how I'm infinite mind doing that with life, without use of drugs or meditation - Like maybe I do self enquiry without denial that I am infinite mind imaging being in a dream as a limited human and other is imagination ... But that alone probably won't make miracles happen like I'm suddenly living a heavenly music soundtrack cinematic life

I have to ask Leo Gura how do you exactly become more conscious ... Without drugs if you're sober ... Like do you repeatedly become more aware of self inquiry into imagination or I am god or this all solipsism ... There are no Leo videos on how to become more concious without drugs or meditation and there isn't a video what even is imagination. I'm just asking I have these videos on repeat like how I had an Alan Watts addiction or Abraham Hicks - or is this me in deep denial afraid to awaken and lose reality to being this human life

Non-duality is popular with many teachers and it leans into solipsism in my opinion same thing, except non-dual is more spiritual for validating other people's lives as well as inviting unity conciosuness, whereas solipsism is probably narcissistic, existential and unpopular for followers to easily digest

I read insanity barrier broken while checking for updated solipsism forums ... And I have to say man I'm lucid in that realm and there are more barriers that can yet be broken it's never ending like alice face falling the rabbit hole it seems

@Shawn Philips but also NDE accounts also point out that the truth between beings is a type of honesty and knowing which can't quite hide lies or dishonesty - it's almost a spiritual telepathic knowing between spiritual entities so that you can't hide manipulation tactics but can see through one another's thoughts and intentions honestly and openly. So that level honesty surely can't hide manipulation tactics for reincarnation trap loops. Also the dying brain floods dopamine, serotonin, DMT chemical-like drugs and endorphins these being positive states not negative.

I'm now researching again into 5meo-dmt or DMT in general and might consider a trip in 2026 if I cross paths with the substance, I won't go overboard but I wouldn't mind an ego death - nor do I want psychosis states that leave me disturbed/unnerved afterwards. Unsure how Leo has derealization of identity and sees through reality or how others are imaginary and god realisations yet acts casual about it all, fairly sure I'd personally be a bit loopy if I broke through reality too heavily - and I've had psycadelics experiences which have changed how I function in life but an ego death trip might be interesting for spiritual insights. Might keep doing research.

I hope not I want to be a super free spiritual beings and never reincarnate forcefully - or is there a corresponding attachment of resistant which attaches me to come back - or did I agree to come to this life