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i really liked Alyssa Grenfell's reaction video. she used to be a Mormon missionary and said it's quite realistic that the missionaries, being desperate to find someone who's willing to talk to them, would believe the lie about the wife being at home, and naively enter a stranger's home. my first impression is that this type of psychological thriller is much more appealing than the kind of horror movie with weird supernatural stuff going on. looking forward to watching this soon, if i find someone who can sit next to me and hold my hand...

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realistically, i'm not sure if i can go:) but i hope you'll have a wonderful time there🙏🏻

@Salvijus are you there rn?

@gettoefl okay:) thank you @Michael569 thank you:) i appreciate it and hope you're well, too.

@gettoefl (: you don't know that:) you don't know me:) i'm a stranger on the internet, a few pixels on a screen.

yes i get that. if you know how much of a battle it is, doesn't this help you understand how it must be for her though?

i really like Jimmy Carr, but he's quite brutal wih his jokes.

maybe you can try to find a tutor from a higher grade?

@mmKay i'll check it out, thank you:)

this is the first time i hear someone say it actually worked for them:) tasting honey while asleep is a cool idea. i experimented a bit some years ago and only got to the vibrational stage but never past it (starting in a waking state). then i've had a few experiences just before waking up in the morning. they were weird dream-like states but might qualify as out-of-body experiences, i'm not sure. usually these take place in my room and i think i already got up, then realise my body's still in bed. supposedly electricity doesn't really work in the astral realm....do you know if this is a reliable clue? i've had times when i checked my phone and it had died, or i couldn't see anything, tried to find the light switch and it was deformed....does this ring any bells for you, or is it completely unrelated to OBEs?:)

the "good news" is that everybody feels that way, to some extent.

@Yimpa(:

yes of course, and ultimately those are the changes that may end up having the biggest impact all i said is if it's something you're struggling with, sometimes it can be helpful to get things moving by focussing on the things that feel more manageable. especially if you're struggling with depression. sorry if that's bad advice.

i think i can relate a lot the idea of "healing" and "health" is associated with a lot of guilt for me as well it's hypocritical of me to say this since i resist it a lot myself, but...the only place where peace can be found is underneath those feelings of sadness, guilt, and regret keep looking♡ ....or i guess stop looking so hard and let it be

you'll probably make the best progress with your life purpose when you aren't all too anxious about it:) although of course that's easier said than done.

i think it's so interesting how this is a phenomenon across generations and that so many people have had this specific dream. it's also pretty amazing how the body can produce a physical sensation out of nowhere in the attempt to connect it to the emotions present in the dream. yeah i can imagine that it made you uncomfortable. if it provides greater security, there's nothing wrong with using the stalls though.

Hey, thanks for sharing. it's really weird but bathrooms are a recurring dream theme for me as well. i guess this is somewhat archetypal symbolism associated with feelings of shame/similar. out of curiosity and if you don't mind sharing: is this merely an idea in the dream, or can you feel it physically while you're asleep? when you wake up, is the sensation gone? interestingly, this one also happens pretty often in connection with the bathroom theme. generally speaking, school is very special in how it shapes our relationships with peers, whether that's in terms of first shared positive experiences and bonding, or in terms of challenges of relating to one another. in this context of relating to peers outside of your family for the first time, (plus perhaps the onset of puberty and changes happening to your body), it's a struggle to try and fit in....to make sure there's nothing weird about you (or your most basic bodily functions) because if there is people might not accept you and exclude you from their social group. i heard somewhere that it can be a symptom of anxiety to be overly aware of your bladder and to go to the bathroom more often than you would need to, "just to be safe". it's something i trained myself to do as well. actually i don't think you have to do anything about it. the dream and emotions related to it are completely neutral. you're already doing a good job observing the impact they have on you.

ingesting drugs while feeling the way you feel at the moment is, in my opinion, likely to backfire. perhaps it would be better to focus on the basics first, stabilise and make your body feel safe? finding a mental health professional to speak with would also be a good idea. also, is there any chance you could reach out to friends or your family, ask for a hug? any chance you could send a text and let them know you're not doing well?

sounds like a good idea:)

why do all the good things always have to be ruined by all the other things that only ever go massively wrong why don't i deserve better than this why does no one love me why is everyone better than me why can't i be perfect why does it hurt so much why can't i be beautiful?

yup thanks everyone, i appreciate all of your contributions to this discussion ♡

@Vercingetorix @cetus yeah i'm listening:) thank you

@Salvijus i mean you're not wrong. still, i find it hurtful when you demonise what i (and many others) are struggling with by implying it's simply selfish attention-seeking behaviour for the sake of it. it might be "insane" in the sense that it implies a lack of health on my part, for sure. but it's not insane in the sense that it can't be understood or happens without a reason. there is real pain at the root of this. what do you think needs to happen to a 14 year old to suddenly think it's a good idea to take a knife and start cutting her thigh? and when people tell me now that i'm not even allowed to say i feel hurt...what am i supposed to do, other than to keep showing it? saying how i feel when i can sometimes barely get the words out of my mouth is progress. reaching out to people rather than staying all on my own....sometimes i can't do it, and when i do, it's brave. but it's true that i probably can't authentically explain this position for as long as i'm still affected in the way i currently am.