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oh i see...

@Raze thanks for the links:) i'm not 100% sure if hyperacusis is the correct term in my case, since noises aren't painful per se. they just make me anxious depending on the context they occur in. the same thing can happen when i see people twisting their thumbs, for example, which is super random and i feel kind of bad for being this easily annoyed by stuff. i'm also not sure if my panic attacks are real panic attacks. they do have me sobbing uncontrollably and hyperventilating and when that goes on for too long my hands go numb, but there's an element of relief or willingness to that. like i'm almost glad to let it all out and there's no fear about the way my body reacts because i know what's going on. idk if me feeling that way disqualifies it from being a panic attack ...can anybody relate?

you can download individual episodes on spotify and listen to them on your walk. this way you won't need internet access.

aaah....struggling with that profile picture again. I'd love to have one, just to prove to myself that I can. But it's so difficult to select one that I'm happy with, and then I get lost looking back at old pictures. It's so stressful when I get started thinking too much about my appearance.

@Leo Gura okay:)

@Leo Gura Okay I'll check it out:) Is insane consciousness the same thing as God consciousness, or simply a different dimension of consciousness? Sorry if this is a stupid question, I'm just trying to understand (at least conceptually) how the two are related.

@Leo Gura Thank you for your reply, this makes sense to me:) In the video, you also say that every day hundreds of people are admitted into mental institutions and insane asylums because they are experiencing God and cannot cope with or contextualise it. I am very curious to hear where you got that number, or if that is merely an estimate you personally came up with?

Thank you for the new episode, Leo! I am very grateful for your work and it seems to be connected to my own journey in so many ways. Lately, I have been watching some of your older episodes and it all ties together really neatly:) In the video, you actually touch on something I have been meaning to ask you about, which is the intersection of "insanity" and awakening. For example, one diagnostic criterion of borderline personality disorder is an unstable sense of self - which made me wonder because...isn't that normal in the sense that everybody's sense of self is constantly fluctuating, and ultimately illusory? But then we somehow use that to diagnose an illness in some people and pretend like it would be normal to have a fixed, rigid sense of self...which is a little backwards and it is the opposite of what you teach. At the same time, it is reasonable and even important to acknowledge an inherently unstable self-image as a lack of health and holistic well-being in a human being - especially since the ego is most likely still rigidly identified even with the shifting, unstable self-definition, which is antithetical to awakening and true self-realisation. A good friend of mine @Exystem explained this to me by saying there first needs to be a grounded, well-developed ego before someone is ready to do spiritual work and deconstruct the self. Is that the same explanation you would give? I am also asking because, to me, my struggle with mental illness is somehow infused in my spiritual journey and was intricately connected to an ego death I had in 2020, less than a year after I discovered your channel and first learned about the possibility of awakening. If I had to give my personal opinion, I would say that mental illness can be destabilising and very much antithetical to awakening, truth, and self-realisation most of the time, but sometimes it can cross that boundary-line:) and go full-circle, getting so absurd in its instability or desperate attachment that the ego can push itself to its own fault lines, if that makes sense. It's like mental illness can definitely impact my state of consciousness in the negative sense, but that itself can sometimes be revelatory. (which is of course not to say I'm advocating for that, it's simply the dynamic I have observed in myself) I'd love to hear your thoughts on this! @Leo Gura

@integral it's okay:) thank you

@Yimpa i had green tea, does that count?

@integral yeah i felt a bit stupid when i realised that it was probably the caffeine...oops

@integral so you're mainly allergic to perfume?

i think i may have had too much caffeine today...maybe that had something to do with it

yes i mean i have of course tried that, but that doesn't block out the noise entirely and sometimes that makes it even worse for me