Judy2

In your series on Conscious Politics, I found your position on gun regulation interesting, as I am European and biased in the opposite direction. Essentially, you talk about drastically reducing access to guns, but then you go on to reassure (American) listeners that their weapons will not be taken away completely and they may still use them to "defend themselves". This seemed to me like a cultural adaptation you may have repeated, instead of really thinking from scratch and asking if weapons are even necessary for the average citizen. It was just a half sentence and not an elaborate argument you made, but I found it striking when I listened to you.

you should ask them all at least a hundred times using different accounts, then cross-compare lol:)

Sundays are annoying. I've tried my best to make them more fun, and usually that works until I hit mid-afternoon and I feel bored and lonely again. Throughout the week, I am so stressed with appointments, but Sundays are just... blank. I've been on two walks, listened to a new podcast twice, done my laundry, studied, read, revised some French on Duolingo, embroidered, polished my nails, cleaned my kitchen, cooked lunch... and I feel empty. Had I set a time to meet some friends, I probably would have felt stressed and uncomfortable because of it - but I feel lonely as is and wish they would make time for me on the weekends. It's not for a lack of passion or interests that I am so bored. Things are just difficult to coordinate, and I can't be a cook, dietitian, cookbook author, language teacher, and psychology student all at once...so while I do have to decide on a few things at a time (because of conflicting schedules and the physical distances between appointments) ... somehow, between all this, Sunday afternoons are still so sad and empty. I could go to a café, and maybe I will next Sunday, but this would be another appointment to stress over.

i finally pushed myself to keep reading my French book, and it's almost quite romantic....except that it's set in the 1930s and the love interest is called "Hans Krüger"....so i can't quite take it seriously, especially when i practise reading aloud.

wives poisoning their husbands used to be a lot more common when divorce wasn't an option yet and women had minimal rights, i.e., there was no other escape if a marriage was abusive. same with infanticide (=mothers killing their own children), which used to be more common some 150 years ago due to social structures that condemned unmarried single mothers rather than supporting them. nowadays, when these things happen, it is likely (not always) due to pathologies of the individual. although, apparently, there are still a lot of women in prison who killed their abusers in self-defense and had to go to jail for it.

okay. i mean a certain degree of change (i.e., development) is to be expected.

would you mind describing these changes? just out of curiosity.

i'm also an INFJ. i had expected it to change, but when i ask ChatGPT to type me based on our conversations, it says i'm still the same as i was when i first took the official test on the 16 personalities website.

i am surprised to find that i feel so much better, overall, now that the new term has started. the lectures give me something meaningful to do - more than i had hoped for, actually? - and, of course, it is also nice to see my friends again. yesterday was an incredibly stressful day, though, because i had to coordinate so many appointments and set up my new schedule, but now that everything is figured out, i can settle into it and actually start to enjoy the lectures and seminars. i know that in the weeks leading up to this, i have spent so much time thinking that it is a big problem that i don't have a proper job yet, even though i am already 24, and i sometimes regret having started over with a whole new undergraduate degree...but at the moment, it does feel right and meaningful. and again, i feel taken care of when i'm just sat in front of somebody and i have to do as i am told, and that's it. what a beautiful life. i can keep looking for a second (or third) job, though, while i am at it. one of my two jobs pays really well, but the problem is that my hours are limited and very irregular....so i have been hoping to expand in that area.

even if you are not hiding and are being authentic, some very distinct personal patterns can show up, though, right?

ok:) i get that a lot, too...very annoying.

@Carl-Richard i have had several ego deaths (sober and not) and it hasn't really helped with the neuroticism, since they tend to be isolated, temporally condensed experiences. a lot of the work i have had to do to stabilise has felt quite unspiritual. OBEs are so previous:) have you experienced them again after your trip?

@LastThursday okay, cool:) because of the decrease in conscientiousness, i am guessing you don't have children? sorry if i'm wrong😅 it's funny that you mention a decrease in neuroticism because this is consistent with the literature, but i'm not sure how that actually works. are you just coping differently, or are the emotions themselves less intense/pervasive? in my experience, there can be some changes in my openness/neuroticism, if i really push myself, but eventually i will come back to my baseline. maybe with 80 i'll be more chill:)

@oOo interesting, so you are basically saying that personality is the psychological equivalent of genetic diversification (don't know what the proper term for this is but you know what i mean). personality is genetically determined by about 50%, and then there are also epigenetic and environmental influences.

i agree with the first part, but then if you compare certain individuals, across situations some act vastly different than others. sure, as individuals we deviate from our patterns every now and then, but there are patterns.