Judy2

yes, that's also what came to mind for me when i started reading your post. i guess both are valid. LSD feels a bit like the opposite of being drunk - it feels almost like you're too sober. but i believe sleepiness is a valid state as well and comes with its own insights - particularly because cognitive function is impaired a little bit, so that can open up different channels.

yes, i mean i am aware of the times of the day when i do consume caffeine:)

no, there's no mold. it's generally ventilated pretty well, thank God. however, my heat keeps cracking at night and i can hear it when people in the surrounding apartments flush their toilets and so on. i asked the landlord about the heat, but nobody wants to take responsibility for it and apparently they can't do anything to change it anyway. i also don't have a couch or anything, so unless i want to sit on a chair all day (who does that?), i do spend some of my free time lying in bed even if i'm awake. for example when i read or listen to audio books.

aaaah....i'm not sure i want to, for now. but you're technically right:)

i don't know...maybe this is tricky because motives can be mixed. there can be unhealthy aspects intermingling with authentic, healthy desires for self-expression. self-expression should ultimately be a good thing, i believe.

yes, i think i used to do this in the past. most of it happened in my private (offline) journals, though.

@UnbornTao just out of curiosity, what counts as daily exercise in your books? i go to the gym on three days a week and jogging on one day, but i need some rest days inbetween. although i'm not completely inactive during these....i still go swimming, cycling, or at the very least for a walk. does that count?

is it an option to inform the authorities so they can keep an eye on her? a mental illness is not an excuse to threaten people. if this is related to her illness, she may need treatment for that...but she shouldn't have a free pass to simply insult and threaten everyone around her.

@gettoefl thank you:)

thanks for the list:) i have a couple of objections to each point but maybe they are irrelevant.

unfortunately i've conditioned myself to believe i need caffeine to give me energy when i exercise

okay, thank you for explaining...i will try my best.

yes, somehow naps increase the likelihood of having vivid dreams and sleep paralysis....

@No1Here2c do you recommend a specific technique? last time i tried to meditate, i just set a timer on my phone and waited.