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Beautiful. May I ask where you are? You don’t have to respond to that I was just curious

I’ve heard about him. Thanks for suggestion

Nonetheless thanks everyone for the responses, it is kind🙏🏻❤️

Exercise is something that builds connectedness in the brain and expands the brain, at least from what I feel. So it can make me regain connection to myself if it’s intense enough . I made another post about this but I don’t think people get what I mean. So that’s something that makes a difference to this

I sleep almost too much sometimes

Thanks for the suggestions 🙏🏻

On Thursday I’ll meet doctor and they’ll ask how my medication is going, I’ll ask what their plan is for the future with me. I’d have nothing against talk therapy .

@Keryo Koffa so you haven’t been evaluated for a diagnosis ? I’m asking because you write very uniquely . I do too, or I can do, they evaluated me and found no diagnosis except they say I have “delusions” .

Don’t understand what you mean here but it’s fine

Lmao what. Is . That. apparently anti psychotic block some dopamine in the brain. But the thing is I already feel as if my dopamine is “low”, so it’s like it’s only contributing to that. If pro psychotics do the opposite then maybe😂

Not for now. I’ve talked to therapist a few times but so far they’ve done an evaluation and gave me meds and asked me how the meds are going. I don’t know what they will do in the future when they see the meds aren’t helping me, so maybe

From my awareness I sense that I have very low desire, and I find my awareness is pretty much always inward instead of outward. Having it that way doesn’t strengthen the connection in my experience. I hope I don’t sound like I’m just negating everything but I’m just sharing my experience

I’m currently in regular contact with doctor. They gave me anti psychotic because my explanation for what I’m going through sounds so weird it sounds like delusions to them , and anti depressants . I’ve been on them for a while now, they make zero difference except make me a bit calmer. Two different anti psychotics made no difference I wonder if they will ever reconsider saying I have delusions

That’s what they said about me pretty much

I remember when I was a child. I had this existential anxiety, no matter where I was, what I was doing, (it was a bit better during the day to be honest when there is more outside stimuli) . It reminds me a little of my situation now, how I feel the same wherever I am or do, like I just came home from a month vacation, I felt the same there as here. Maybe I just function differently than others, because I can’t seem to be able to make myself enthusiastic. I can’t find a way to create that emotion in myself, can’t create any emotion for that matter

I know everything I write sounds unconventional so here I go again from my experience I don’t feel like there is something here that is being held back, like desire energy. I don’t experience any “blocks” to it either. All of that I’ve dissolved already. My lack of emotion and desire is due to the disconnect I feel from myself and my thought processes. That’s just my experience

I know I always write about odd things you mean I could just make myself enthusiastic?

It’s extremely low from my experience that’s what I can say at least

I can see what you’re saying

It doesn’t unfortunately 😕 I have zero libido literally

@Schizophonia mayo and beer cake *😂

@CARDOZZO thank you Cardozzo those are nice words

Right

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Id say it’s something purely in my brain going on