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I have thought about this too, why do I find it frustrating to sit still for long? One thing that comes to mind is that I have impulses. And to resist those impulses seem to cause a certain friction in me that can feel frustrating. Like I’m going against my natural flow, meanwhile following the impulse is me going with my flow. It can be the most simple impulse, like the impulse to look around me at the enviroment rather than having my eyes closed. It can be the impulse to say something to someone, the impulse to move my fingers around. I think it’s very biological, those impulses seem biological . So us humans are made to be active. We have active minds that are made to get input from external enviroment, to get no input except your own breath and the black under your eyes feels off.

Everyone cannot be ultra mega super mystic…

Sorry. I made a general joke i didn’t expect him to joke about me in particular

I have had fanatic will to break through myself but with the goal of finding a sort of authentic better version of myself. It works to break through significantly but it doesn’t lead to complete breakthrough Might not be easy to understand as I find it’s a rather unique experience

Infinite load.

I went through a lot of untangling too. There’s a lot of layer so it takes time

You have the right to your preferences I might take it back idk

And that means?

That’s so petty lol

I have had no problem finding guys it’s just I’ve got my issues preventing me to date at all In the past I used to refuse to date until I became the best version of myself, like I couldn’t enjoy receiving love and feeling attraction the way I was, like my sexuality was on hold until then

I read it again and it sounds like I’m saying two people LOLLL

I know I just said something silly Mr nobody

Maybe you should start a YouTube channel and pretend to be a radical non dualist

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Two ways to go about this is one you go through the hassle of finding someone or two you go through the hassle of transcending this need, which one depends on what you desire

Having kids is for normies

If nothing takes the form as something, and is formed exactly like something, then it will be as if it exists actually, that’s kinda how the self is. Seems absolutely real. So the experience of gaining something can be there

I think it’s more accurate to say most are quite closed . I’d say it requires a kind of openness to resonate with the idea of no self. But maybe that closedness could be called a type of stupidity, because you’re stuck in your little bubble, so yea in a sense I agree with you

So 90% or more of people who believe the self is real are stupid to you? Also I never claim to know the self isn’t real, I just intuit it kinda

Do you feel this type of intuition has had a change in your life?

That can def lead to mystical experience. I want to try milder ones too. Good luck!

I have the impression that other psychedelics are more hallucinogenic/visual, and perhaps emotional (releasing trauma etc) . And I was not looking for that because I don’t feel like I have repressed emotions or trauma. I was looking for an radical ego less experience and it seems 5 Meo is one of the best at that. When I said it showed me fears I didn’t know I had I meant that it showed me that I found the ego dissolution uncomfortable (it wasn’t really scary because it was a small dose). I was scared of taking higher dose because I was afraid it would feel terrible. So that’s the fear it exposed I still wanna try psychedelics again despite it being potentially a bad trip, I wanna take that risk and see if there’s any value in it for me. So I do have a certain interest in the nature of reality but mostly if it’s not a too horrible experience How about you?

Because I’ve been going through things and wanted an escape. And I was curious too It was uncomfortable but I’d like to experience it again and go deeper in it. To see if it has any value for me.

I agree a strong desire is key . With a few exceptions of people to whom it has happened spontaneously I tend to focus on myself and my own nature but it’s for sure a deep path to go down to unravel your delusions, if they’re there…

Maybe that’s why I intuit it because I’m closed but not super closed. It’s like a more subtle ego