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Watching from a safe distance.

Some woman should do the opposite experiment: walking around naked and seeing if she gets approached. lol

I got evaluated for autism but didn’t meet enough criteria for the diagnosis. Autism apparently needs to show in childhood, and I didn’t have the symptoms in childhood so that’s one of the reasons I didn’t get the diagnosis. Doctors write in my journal that I have delusions. Imagine being so outside the norm, having such unique experiences that it’s labeled as delusion. That’s my situation. It doesn’t bother me though. Autism has certain criteria. And when you’re properly evaluated they look to see if you fit those criteria. Maybe you just fit enough criteria to get the diagnosis (doesn’t sound like it according to your post, don’t know what the hell you told them about yourself that made you fit the criteria). Then it’s a valid diagnosis. But then it could be debated if someone could fit criteria for a diagnosis but still not have the diagnosis. But then it’s a question of, what even defines the diagnosis? Is it something that could be observed in the brain? Is there such a thing as an “autistic brain”. If it is, then that’s a very reliable criteria to fill. In order to answer wether your diagnosis is reliable or not, you’d have to research the autism criteria, what defines it, what the science behind it says, and then secondly you’d have to see if the place and psychologist that evaluated you follow the standard science properly.

Solipsism is silly. Why would you be the only body with a self illusion in it? Why would reality be limited to only one self illusion and all others are just empty. Makes no sense.

Ok I see

How is infinity recognized as such? How is nothingness recognized, how is “no limits” recognized? For recognition needs something that recognizes and something that is recognized. It needs duality. Or maybe it’s the duality that makes infinity obvious because it stands as a contrast. So when duality collapses it’s in that collapse that infinity is recognized, without it , it wouldn’t. I don’t know. Just random thought

I promise I’m conscious 😂

So maybe I just need to sleep less. I’m like opposite of insomniac I can sleep for 10 hours

Peak insomniac Valentin on sleep deprivation day 4 reaching for some quick energy

Yea I see. You have a lot of self awareness. And i think what separates you from the most is that you have a strong desire to break those barriers and see the truth. I think that desire important on this journey.

I personally think that there are exceptional cases where awakening comes easy or spontaneously to someone. But those are extremely rare, maybe they are genetic freaks. But I think the average person would need extreme amounts of work. Like extreme amounts of tripping and meditating etc. So even if you’re doing the work it might not be enough. I find for myself that in life it’s important to have a strong desire if you want something, so that desire guides and fuels your action. I think @Salvijus has talked about desire. Maybe it’s a more feminine approach. But if you have a super strong desire for something then it’s easier to make yourself do the work and go the lengths required. Most people lack that strong desire.

I read the post. Really good. That’s why I’ve felt like no amount of contemplation does anything for me, because it’s just going around inside my mind, it’s on a mental level purely for me.

We lowkey have similar experience. Because I’ve also done a TON of introspection and I still haven’t dissolved myself although I have came close. It’s like I can’t peel the last layer of self. So I’m wondering the same. It’s like a miracle needs to happen…But I do think the key is in seeing through the self, because it’s like it’s the barrier to non duality

Yea but I think we’re all entitled to wanting to see true infinity, no matter what situation we are in. I don’t think you need to be in the best situation in your life for it to be worth it to strive to see infinity. It’s like it’s the one true longing. I think it’s a good idea to strive for both a good life on the human level and seeing infinity. One doesn’t have to exclude the others

Standing between you and god is the illusion of self. And your self is your psyche. Can you bring your attention inward towards your self and your psyche. Can you observe it closely, that’s first step in the dissolution. But most don’t pay much attention to themselves, their attention is out on the world. The self is kept alive through UNawareness

This reminds me of when I almost completely dissolved my self. The world had lost almost all its 3D depth, it was almost like flat. Lacking substance. That’s why I say the self created depth perception

I guess you had plenty of moments of unlimitedness to come to this understanding Because there’s nothing casual about what you’re saying. Maybe it’s simple to you, because it’s what you’re all about, but it’s actually very radical. You’re talking about the fundamental structure of reality, how reality works at the most base level. That’s something philosophers and scientists all over the world ponder and struggle to answer . Maybe you’ve unlocked the key to that understanding, you must be/open yourself to reality directly to understand it.

Yea..

I don’t know if the self is purely mental. But it creates the sense of a real physical reality too. It’s like the base appearance, maybe the base illusion, then everything else comes as a by product of that.

I don’t get it lol but it’s okay. The title made me laugh a little. Like what is this forum😂😂 One thing I can say about 3D is that it’s the self that creates the perception of 3D in my experience. So you feel like “I’m here”, and the world is away from you “over there” so it creates the perception of depth (3D). You don’t see 3D with your eyes, you only see 2D, but 3D is like a different perception

That I can stand behind

So reality is limited to my little perspective yea sure

And asked the bartender for “one with everything “

I’m wondering the same

I see Maybe it exists apparently but not really I understand . It’s one way of defining solipsism .