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So that’s not gonna happen right .. Good I have a main bank account and a main debit card. You’re not confusing the words debit card and credit card right? Because they are different I have another bank account with a debit card that she doesn’t see, that I don’t use anymore so it has no money on it. I could use that. But then the question is how am I gonna transfer money to that bank account from my original account, it’s gonna show on the transactions and she might ask “why are you transferring to that other account? “ To be more clear, she’s not able to see my transactions by herself, it’s works in the way that she asks me if I can log into my account , and I log in and let her see my transactions. The reason I don’t say “no” which I could and have the right to, is that she would get suspicious and it would maybe cause some tension at home. So I just let her see it. They have lost trust in me since they found my drugs in my room. I wanna say thanks for the suggestions! I appreciate it

I could potentially change my mind about my opinion about the ban against buying real sex. My first priority is for the safety and right for the women in it (and the men in it ofc, but most prostitutes are women). So whatever supports that the most I’m for. I think banning porn online goes against the freedom of people to consume what they want. But yea it’s unhealthy ..

Now I’m curious, are you white?

Understood. There are even guys who are bitter towards women despite getting sex, it’s probably when it’s in a imbalanced way as you say, if they deceive women to get sex that can be rooted in misogyny . They could be desperate because it’s important to their self image to have lots of women. That’s also low development

No need to tell family ever if you think reaction could be bad. But sure you could test it with little bits here and there, your sister didn’t have a good reaction so that wasn’t good but now you now more surely that they don’t approve of it….I don’t feel a need to tell my family luckily. I’m content with keeping it to myself. I’m also a quiet person so I generally don’t feel a need to tell things. So yes I won’t be open until I’m fully independent. Do you live alone? It’s not important just curious Thats good you managed to do what you wanted despite being conditioned thinking it’s taboo! I don’t know so much how credit cards work I read they don’t have a bank account tied to them so that means when my mom logs into my banks website she won’t see the credit card as a third account and wonder what that’s for right?

I cured it, thanks

It was this condition called abdomino-phrenic dyssynergia. It’s when the body coordinates the muscles wrong. The diaphragm is supposed to go up (relaxed position) when you eat to make space for the abdomen, but with this condition it goes down instead (contracts) so it pushes on abdominal content creating the bloated look. It’s more common than we think but it’s not very known. For me it didn’t matter what I ate, plus I’ve always eaten relatively healthy so it wasn’t the food type. It’s not quite known what causes it. In my case I have a different spine curvature which affects the position of my ribcage, I’m pretty sure that contributed or even caused the problem. That combined with stress and fast eating and overeating.

I’d have to come up with a lie, maybe I could say I’m sleeping at my friends house. But honestly I’m done with all that hiding I wanna do it when I live alone. Because occasionally my mom checks my transactions too lol

I swear. I started really low. But yea a trusted trip sitter would be ideal. I want to try common psychs that you mentioned yes. Someday probably when I live alone I will.

Yes but my parents found it and threw it away lol.😅 And I live at home so I don’t wanna risk it and try again. I did 5 Meo lol (maybe not the best idea for a newbie like me) and dmt . I just did a little bit of it, because I was afraid to take a lot. And my technique of administration wasn’t the best because I’m a newbie so some probably got lost But one day when I live alone I’d like to explore it more!

That’s such a mature grounded response. I’ve wondered to myself how it works for men when they desire women, when they feel desperate, seems to be several factors at play, but as you said development level probably plays a role.

Yea i agree! It’s like a spectrum of degrees

I agree. So you think that it can go both ways, that both are traps? Some people think they are experiencing non duality but are just intellectually knowing it on a concept level (their mind making them think they’re actually experiencing it) , while there are others like me who think the opposite: that they are trapped in duality and that it’s so “obvious” that they ARENT “experiencing” non duality. (I do think like this as I’ve said not gonna lie) I lowkey feel like making a post about it. Asking people if they think the latter is a trap.

One thing that can cause non ideal breathing is a distended belly (what’s usually called bloating). Something that contributes to the bloating is the diaphragm being contracted (being down) and pushing on the abdominal contents. This makes breathing more shallow as the diaphragm is not going through as complete of a range of motion. So if you wanna improve breathing it’s crucial you get rid of any abdominal bloating. I used to struggle with bloating massively and managed to cure it and I feel significant improvement in my breathing

Yea because women are much less likely to catcall etc so the type of attention they give is better, women don’t pose as much of a threat to men in general

It’s helpful if you’re trying to lose or gain weight, to get a sense of how much to eat. You can lose weight without tracking simply by reducing portion sizes in comparison to what you usually eat and perhaps reduce meal frequency which is what I’m doing . Tracking calories can also help if you’ve already lost /gained weight and reached your goal weight, and now are trying to figure out how much to eat to maintain weight. I think it would be cool to one day reach a point where you can somewhat eyeball amount of calories because you’ve tracked so extensively for a period, I doubt I’ll ever reach that point but it would be cool, makes it easier to control your weight.

Oh I misinterpreted what you said earlier, I thought you meant it’s not obvious for other people that ~I~ have a sense of self, as it is obvious to me, but you meant that’s it’s not obvious for them if THEY have a sense of self. To that I would say, if you stop someone on the street and ask them “do you feel like you exist” I think 99% of people would answer yes to that question. I think for most people it’s obvious that they have a sense of self. That’s why I wrote how I don’t get how it’s not obvious for people and how they deceive themselves with thinking they have “reached”” non duality “

Hahah sorry

If reality is absolutely without limit, undivided, no separation actually exists, isn’t that a limit of reality? That it can’t create real separation and limits. Just a thought.

You can’t really judge women’s suffering by just observing them a little. I don’t know what you’re basing it on, but I can mention some things, women are more likely to experience chronic pain. Women might struggle with getting a guy that wants a relationship. Women might get sex but they might get bad sex, porn centers men’s pleasure and men can sometimes focus on their own pleasure or go over women’s boundaries, women suffer harassment and rape more than men. Women might get more attention from men but it’s not always good attention. Women might feel they’re doing unfair amount of household work in comparison to a man (if she’s not a housewife) they might feel like they’re being like a mommy to their man (I’ve heard this from some women). Women might be better emotional intelligence wise than men and feel like men don’t meet their emotional needs. Woman have pressure on them to be pretty and they obsess over appearance, have eating disorders etc Im not minimizing men’s suffering, men have some areas of struggle for example loneliness that is greater than women’s. But in general both sexes have suffering, can’t really say one suffers more like that. I understand you feel burdened by your struggles, I have my own struggles too that I feel burden me. But I’d say it’s not fair to turn it against women, that’s just extra frustration, it’s not helping your issues to compare your struggles to women or hold on to this idea that women have it easier, whatever it’s based on, even if let’s say women did have it easier , what does it help to compare and resent? It’s not productive. It’s a way to not directly deal with the problem at hand Btw I am a bit surprised this topic didn’t get taken down because of the title. But I’m glad it didn’t, I would like for this forum to be a place where we can openly discuss topics even if they come off as “offensive” or controversial.

Awesome work keep it up Maybe Leo says there is no best state of consciousness because there are an infinite number of them. I don’t know that but I think he has said so

Exactly.

Ofc, it’s my own self I’m talking about so ofc it’s not obvious to anyone else

Cool but jokes aside it’s very hard to embrace suffering I’ve been trying to

There could be various reasons for this. One is that we humans are made to be active in nature, we are not really made to be inside much, so it’s natural some get seasonal depression or feel low when inside too much. It could be fomo, fear of missing out of activities you’re imagining you could do outside, or comparing your life with other people, or what’s possible for you. It could be you’re not very comfortable being alone with your thoughts, the inside of your apartment doesn’t give your mind enough stimuli, so whatever is going on inside becomes more obvious and it’s not comfortable. Meanwhile in the past when you played games that was a lot of stimulation to distract your mind. Just some thoughts It’s healthy to be outside I like to take long walks that’s something you can do so you get the recommended daily step count.