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So much easier said than done.

I tend to sometimes close my eyes and observe my mental activity. I can see how you’d suggest doing that for longer. I wouldn’t say I’m contributing to it but I’d have to write much more to explain that so I’ll leave it for now. Have already written about it don’t wanna spam the forum with it. Connected vs disconnected might not be the best terms to describe this. But what I mean is that I feel disconnected from my mental processes (this is also the how depersonalization is described on Wikipedia) so it’s like my thoughts are somewhat quiet, there is quite a bit of space between them as in time between each thought, and my thoughts aren’t coherent so they’re more random “bursts” rather than following a line of thought. As if they’re “far away” from me. A “connected” “normal” state id assume is with louder more clear thoughts, that follow a line of thought rather than mostly being just random “bursts”. As if the thoughts are “closer” to the person. Don’t know if I’m making sense

Ok then we on the same page

That was so random. If being high is nice then it sounds good

Indeed he is an extreme example

Is it? I’m thinking of David goggins as prime example of this

Physical suffering is to keep us alive yes. Mental suffering too in a way

Embracing suffering is the hardest thing one can do. We are wired to our core to avoid it at all costs. I’ve been experiencing this dilemma lately.

So much easier said than done

Feeling disconnected from yourself, as if you almost don’t exist. Feeling disconnected from your thoughts, so that you barely hear nor see them. As a consequence, feeling disconnected from reality and the world. Barely being able to enjoy anything. Having no emotion. And this being the case no matter where you are, what you do or who you are with. This is your normal state. Basically having nothing, not even yourself; no life, on the deepest level.

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What are non serious suicidal thoughts? Suicidal thoughts not intended to act upon? I have suicidal thoughts daily

I feel my mind is blank sometimes and my thoughts aren’t coherent, it’s like there’s a lot of space between them but not in a spiritual way, if that makes sense so yes I’m a bit of a exception to that . It’s like a disconnection from my own mental processes

It’s on my mind a lot I feel I have a clear sense of how it works and what it is. In short it’s a kind of severe disconnect from/within myself

That is true. One could be not average though if one suffers from some mental condition, so not average doesn’t necessarily have to mean above average .

The most average people ironically become special in being so average maybe

I wouldn’t say it’s about feeling different or special . Just feeling separated as a separate self. And that is a shared experience that everyone has unless enlightened. Im not talking about that here. I assume the average person has almost constant thoughts yea

Yes

The alternative is just being yourself and approaching when you want to. But since your “being yourself” sucks you can’t do that

Lol

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lol I just showered what a coincidence

This doesn’t feel spiritual tho that’s the thing

Lol thanks

39: I can’t really describe how dead my experience is. Imagine walking around and you barely feel like you exist at all. So disconnected from yourself you feel. You’re disconnected from your thought processes too so you barely hear your own thoughts. I hear people around me speak and the way they speak and act suggest to me they have a richer experience of reality than me. They aren’t walking dead zombies like me. I wonder how it is to be them. I don’t know how long I can stand living like this. It’s not even living it’s barely existing at all.