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how would that help? what I mean by self centered brain is one that has constant attention inward onto itself kind of, that default won't change

what im talking about is the experience of separation being so thin the world looks almost 2d flat. That is severe

im not the only one who speaks of attention on the self, I think ive heard Rupert spira talk about it too. yes it perpetrates the illusion, but it makes you dissolve to *almost* zero like it happened to me. The neurological mechanism of self-attention does that in my direct experience i understand what doesn't fit into an existing paradigm and can be quite confusing but it is based in my direct experience

i didn't mean full dissolution, I meant almost full, and between those is an infinite difference

Thanks for the feedback

My original post

@Schizophonia I don’t know why I wrote it. Felt a little awkward about it wanted to delete. Was it comprehensible tho?

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The self centeredness of my brain that is driving this ain’t changing . I’m saying the forced exercising is built into my brains design from birth

I don’t know what you mean by reconnect externally. What I mean is that the exercise builds connectedness inside the brain and makes me more connected to myself for a while. I notice always when I start to disconnect but I don’t feel there is anything I can do about it because it happens in the brain. I can’t experiment with different drugs due to living at my parents house. I do eat chocolate and coffe but it doesn’t make a difference. I do feel the disconnection affects the flow of dopamine that’s my theory so when I’m not as connected to myself the flow of dopamine is not optimal. thanks for your reply anyways . No one really understands what I wrote which is okay.

Because the self is this tension in itself . This anxious activity that is trying to maintain itself kinda I notice some people who claim to be doing good but then they do something like bite their nails which suggest that they have stress they are unaware of. So happiness can be unawareness, with enough awareness there’s almost constant suffering it’s the nature of this ego A woman on insta I follow (@carlabezanson to give cred) she said once “I exist therefore I am anxious “ and I think it sums it up pretty well

Thanks for your suggestion. I will continue with my doctors and we will see what we do, because why not I won’t loose anything. Unfortunately this is due to the self centeredness of my brain that I was born with and not mental illness

its like it feels more comfortable to just complain and be bitter than to grow oneself

I mean maybe it’s easier to fit into her criteria than to develop yourself on deeper level and become charming and emotionally intelligent etc All he needs if he doesn’t have it already is blue eye contacts, save some money for limb lengthening surgery and get into finance trust fund and he is all set by his logic .

It’s like he drew his conclusions from this video

You are so right!!

Isn’t the self resisting those things tho so that’s the suffering

No

I agree with physical pain I guess it would take serious practice to be present in severe pain. With smaller pains that’s a different story it can be tolerated to a degree

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I agree that presence is key to dissolving those mental stories. That is what self awareness is in a way

I see👌🏻I can draw a few parallels to my own experience

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I don’t know it in my heart🤷🏻‍♀️ it is still mysterious to me how it happens for people that they get enlightened permanently