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Illusion meaning not real, doesn’t actually exist. I don’t know if it is, just asking you. OP says it is.

I see your point. I don’t know which companies do it, and exactly which method. But I’ve heard that organic and grass fed means the circumstances for the animals are better. And in Sweden where I live there are certain regulations around how to kill the animals.

Is the self not an illusion?

Contemplate that.

Why do you think killing animals is wrong, if it’s done in a quick and basically painless way? Such as with certain organic grass fed animal products

You’re strong for keeping yourself going through all of that. Great that it’s getting better for you and you’re able to help others with your story.

My guess is that my suffering would end

How can an illusion be so strong? Why is it so difficult to “see” the truth?

😂😂😂

46: 3 hour meditation finished. Looked at the timer approximately the same amount as last time smh… gotta work on this . It’s disrupting the flow.

Don’t know what you’re trying to say hehe but sure

Lmao. Hits home

I can’t do psychedelics for now that’s the thing. Thanks for the suggestions.

45: I’m considering writing down here each time I complete a meditation session to keep myself accountable. I’ve started to meditate recently again and built it up to 3 hours a day. It’s still new for me as I’ve only done the 3 hours maybe 3 days so far. So it’s still challenging. What’s most challenging is not looking at the timer. I do it quite a bit but I’m trying to lessen the amount of times I do it. If I ever manage to complete a whole session without once looking at the timer that would be amazing progress. My goal with this meditation is to experience some kind of mystical experience from it. That’s what I want to start with. Then enlightenment would be the ultimate goal . But for that I probably need even more mediation, 5 hours or more a day. I’m thinking of continuing 3 hours a day for a few months then perhaps increasing it, working up to 5 hours a day. In 20 minutes I’ll start my session and see how it goes.

This is a good read too. It’s quite long and might be hard if you’re not so good at English but I found it amazing https://maladaptivedaydreamingguide.wordpress.com/guide/

I did this in past too. I think it’s a symptom of other things. Rather than being so much of a problem that should be focused on in itself. Because it can be really hard to stop this habit if the underlying issues aren’t dealt with. It’s like you’re focusing on the wrong thing. Like it has been previously mentioned in this thread, low self worth probably plays a role in this. And maybe you feel inhibited in real life to express yourself authentically. Maybe you’re shy irl, held back. Your personality irl being underdeveloped. So this ideal self fantasy is trying to compensate that. So deal with those underlying things. Healthygamergg on YouTube has good videos on this. Search for the channel name then daydreaming and you’ll find them

My guess is that the scary scenario in your dream makes your heart beat faster signaling danger so you wake up. Also consider that you only remember a dream if you wake up after it. If you continue sleeping then you won’t remember it so maybe you have many dreams where you continue sleeping after but since you can’t remember them it seems like it doesn’t happen. Maybe I’m wrong

How does this have to do with the previous information?

I would chose god definitely

I don’t know what alien consciousness is but for me non duality is still the most radical. That is what you mean by “god” right

Non duality is still for me the most radical. What could be more radical than there being no separation, no self?

If non duality is not awakening then what is

I would like to have this too. I remember one summer I was so hooked on Leo’s content I watched all of his videos from the very first one. I should’ve made this list

Hehe

Thank you. I will try my best to stick to the plan.