Sugarcoat

It’s very weird what I’m going through. Like even too weird for this forum . But to give a clue I’d say it’s similar (not exactly those things) to a kind of severe depersonalization and a severe compulsive behavior.

Im doing somewhat okay now. I have two different parts of me, one that has given up and is suicidal, and one that has some strength to keep going. So I kinda oscillate between the two

Yea

A lot of men’s so called “raw truth” is riddened with identification with one’s mental position and underlying emotion

Just have more sex?

That sounds fun

They probably slept like that because they had no option, but you have an option, most would probably prefer more space so you have the choice to be close vs having your space not just forced to be close.

Ok…

I get your point but who wants to forcefully cuddle every night. Everyone needs some distance

You mean truth right?

It was a joke

Another reason to stay virgin and single

No problem

At least you know what you like. I think for many men looks is number one factor.

Yea

I was also thinking of commenting on that but I think you said enough. Women like to look good in general it’s so deeply engrained in us and our self image it goes beyond men and sex

Beautiful

In the moment I only have one friend so don’t have much to go off of😹 but I can’t remember that we’ve talked about our periods don’t know why we haven’t though or maybe I just forgot about it. I don’t have a secret code no. In Sweden one can say “lingonberry week” or something I’ve heard but that isn’t too hard to understand what it means

That’s one perspective. But I don’t see it as how self works. Greta Thunberg taking responsibility for the whole climate isn’t extending her sense of self out to it, she’s still identified as little limited Greta

Thanks

What you mean by responsibility for all of life? How far does one’s responsibility stretch?

Exactly. More scientists should study this

I feel ready too

In my case there wasnt resistance, because it wasn’t a ~total~ loss of self, that I’ve only kinda experienced on psychedelics. On psychedelics I felt uncomfortable yes so there’s always a risk of chewing off too much at once.

That’s true that’s what I want to. But I experienced an almost total loss of self which felt like an almost total loss of reality so it inspired this text.