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Lmao what did I just read. For me it gave crazy akathisia and more suicidal thoughts , doctors had hope in it but it turned out no good for me. Btw they had schizoid personality disorder as a hypothetical diagnosis for me hehe

On abilify I felt like I was in a delirium at times

@MarioGabrielJ create it 👍🏻

Ofc I’m all in for the negative posts

Yes

@Keryo Koffa ok 👍🏻😆

@Keryo Koffa you seem to be able to create anything at this point

@Keryo Koffa Leo should hire you to be some editor or something

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Ok I see 😅

Too late 😆

I agree for the most part. I can’t access psychedelics for now but meditation sure is always accessible. I wrote before how hating existence helps in dissolving identifications, that’s something I’ve experienced so I agree with you there, and about how looking inward is important. My suffering nowadays is of a different nature tho, physical. So it doesn’t quite apply. Although I don’t know if enlightenment could free oneself from that too.

Agreed

Is that an ocd habit for you?

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I’d prefer that too. It was kinda ocd of me to do it but it was meditative and a challenge

I had one or maybe two toilet breaks but it wasn’t too hard . I’ve done crazier things like two repetitive movements nonstop for 15 hour straight from 5pm to 8 am in the morning. Only taking breaks to go to toilet

@Schizophonia my max amount meditation was on winter break 3 hours a day I tried. That’s when I had my little breakthrough where I saw how my spiritual paradigm was just a mental construct so I stopped . Maybe ironically the meditation helped me to see that I don’t know

I see your point.

I used to meditate everyday for up to an hour in high school for over a year and a then stopped as I saw through my own spiritual paradigm. Not saying meditation has no value but for me it didn’t do it.

Me too

Idk. I just know I wanna die

You could be a lone wolf but have charisma, doesn’t need thousand approaches but each to their own.

i don’t get it

@Keryo Koffa I can’t with your edits 😂