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My guess is that meditation calms both the mind and the body on a physical level. So normally when you go about your day you might be heavily engaged in your thoughts, but when you sit down and meditate you are trying to observe your thoughts neutrally so less engagement in them so they can calm down from that. And it calms the body on a physical level and stress can be stored and maintained through tension in the body so staying still calms that down and can dissolve that tension

I’d say sit down for a while and really contemplate what it is that you want. Also don’t have pressure on yourself to be passionate, being less passionate (which I have been lately) is another way of living, it might be a more relaxed mindset and approach to life, nothing wrong with that. Doesn’t mean you have to settle for mediocrity you could still pursue something beyond mediocrity without having a burning desire for it, at least having some interest, that’s what I do as I struggle with feeling that strong passion too. So you could take upon something without feeling that strong passion, to at least be moving in a more desirable direction in life. Sometimes we might fear that we are getting too old to succeed in life or if we’re not passionate enough we won’t have enough motivation to succeed but that’s to me just unnecessary suffering for the most parts and could come partly from ideals from society about what’s the ideal life etc. So deconstruct those too if you have them, so that you can find for yourself what you truly want regardless of what feels like a hindrance and what society says. It seems to me some brains are more visionary than others. Doesn’t mean you can’t be if you don’t have this type of personality but I’ve always had a vivid imagination naturally and some I’ve talked to just don’t seem to naturally. You might have a desire for something you feel would boost your ego, you could try to identify that. Like maybe you have some idea of some self image of being a certain way that seems cool to you. Like maybe being rich. That could be a part of your vision and doesn’t have to be dismissed as just ego stuff

Perhaps you could date several women and keep it on a dating level until you find someone who you think is compatible for a relationship. Also investigate which you probably already have the reason to your resistance to fully committing. Maybe there’s some “fear of missing out” playing a factor. Maybe you feel more secure being distant because then you can’t get hurt and deep close bond might seem a little scary becomes it comes with being very vulnerable. Situationships seem to me to be a way to get all the pros of a relationships without feeling particularly locked down and responsible to the other person that a relationship would entail. It could in some cases mean the person isn’t mature enough yet to handle a relationship . Or as you mentioned growing up the relationships around you can model for you what a relationship entails and leave a bad imprint

It’s not really possible imo to accept everything some things are so inherently suffering that the only way to escape it is to try to reduce it. That’s the reality of humans. We are wired to not wanna suffer. Maybe some superhuman levels of mindfulness is possible in some cases but then that would require tremendous practice. But even then there might be still an aversion to great suffering I don’t think one can truly ever overcome that. Humans are wired to relate to others, themselves and the world with attachments which necessitates the appearance of suffering . Like how we get attachments to people or performing well . It’s physical and mental self survival. One way in my experience to almost completely eliminate mental suffering is to dissolve the many layers of mind, dissolve that mental self

What is awareness? It sounds like duality to me. Awareness being aware of self and being aware of something. The self possesses awareness of itself and other. I think that’s the conventional use of the word. Ive been wondering this too. Such a thought can be scary when it feels like you’re stuck in eternity experiencing itself over and over. But “experience “ is only possible in duality, when there is a self having an experience. Without the self I assume there would be nothing, not experience. So in that case you’re not trapped in infinity, because who would be? But when there’s a sense of self it’s like you’re trapped in experience, in consciousness

Ok I’m sorry. That’s why I wrote “I thought”. Because I have a vague memory of reading about it that when you pluck them in nature you need that quantity

That sounds so good. Yea it seems in Asian cuisine they eat a lot of pork

I’m an omnivore too 6 damn haha😹 When I eat plants I prefer not to eat those mock meats though

Good Pork can be tasty not gonna lie.

Before I tried the pina colada I’ve gotten drunk several times and vomited . I seem to be kinda sensitive I know I like entrecôte I’d eat that , cola can be nice in small quantity I find it too overpowering . Pork or something 🐷

Ok that’s cool. I have gotten drunk without getting a hangover too Haha there was a period in my past I looked it up. It seems there’s no way (through diet for example) to increase breast size noticeably. So basically the option is a breast surgery but I wouldn’t do that. I sometimes get an urge to live alone. I’d keep it so tidy, I’d fill my fridge with healthy food, etc …

That’s good it has all passed control Problem how? That he didn’t get drunk or what? Understood I’d have a whole laboratory if I lived alone. Jk

I’m down to try stuff too but yea obtaining it in the right way is most important Beliefs shape our reality yea… We share a place in each others subconscious Hahah I’d like that food siddhi too Is that how you describe the hypnagogic state? Don’t be scared of it it’s fun to explore I want it all😼

Ok then good that I learnt something from you

Ok I’m getting lectured here😹

Ok didn’t know that’s cool but wouldn’t the psilocybin dose be too high to reach that amount of opioid though so it would be toxic as you say

Didn’t know, so in high doses you get some opioids do is that what I’m getting at here?

Ok I just spoke from my weak memory I don’t remember exactly what I read

It is but that’s language. I get that nobody can experience it

Ofc nobody experiences no self. It’s just language

I have a weak memory of reading before when I was interested in picking magic mushrooms outside somewhere that you need about 100 or something to get enough psilocybin. But I’m not fully sure

It was a fun lucid dream

I had a dream last night about solipsism. In the dream I thought to myself how the other characters are figments of my imagination, and I went around and told them that. That’s what I think solipsism is, like a dream, where you are the only conscious being

This feels intuitively true /conceptually true even though I haven’t “experienced” full no self I can’t tell for you if this is coming from a place of true realization or intuition/conceptual understanding which it is for me In the latter case I think it’s a good idea to be honest with oneself when it’s purely intuitive /conceptual so as not to get it confused with the “real deal”

I just googled it and it says this February the government decided it is to be considered illegal lol 😑