Sugarcoat

I’ll check them out Who’s live event you went to? That’s so cool did you feel a resonance ?

I have wondered that too Im weirder than you I swear😝 But we do have a few similarities My mind can be very blank I actually live a very simple life. I just work, exercise, look at my phone, try to eat healthy, get 15 k steps in a day. Idk if that’s “leisurely” but I just described pretty much all my life to you. I don’t force myself to do things I don’t like. That’s one of the reason I don’t do hardcore practices like meditation, I could and I have done but I don’t feel a strong desire for it, but I’d like to try more psychedelics. I feel alien there too alcohol doesn’t change me it just kinda makes everything different in my perception but I can’t explain it i don’t think those thoughts because I like to dance! But yea humanity is strange! Its not very healthy and fresh no😆

People seem to be in the flow at the club vibing and I’m just outside it

Out of them I’ve watched jim, Tony and roes i like jim i like Lisa cairns too

Haha some time I will. Ok lol

What’s some speakers you like?

Cool because my reflections get me nowhere it’s just my mind spinning around. I need psychedelics

You write well here atleast

Some talk of the self like it’s a concept , some not. I don’t think it’s a concept at it’s core . If you “think” you’re the complete experience then yes it’s on concept level but for the self to actually dissolve and then there is only “this “ left sounds like a big shift to me. For you to “be everything” there has to be a breaking of boundaries, so to me the two things seem the same, when there’s “only this” like non dualists say, and the openness you talk about. We have a different view of the non dualists. Maybe depends on who you listen to. Some of them I resonate with some not

Maybe randomness doesn’t have mechanism. Some say there’s nothing behind what’s happening creating it Why is it important for you to know? I like the questioning aspect, but I’m at peace with not knowing

Ofc

It can be simple. But don’t confuse mind for the real thing

Yea as you say the trick is to know it for real

I’ve also been thinking about making lasagna at home it’s so banging!

77: Life can be so simple sometimes. Right now I’m just laying on my couch and chatting away. Feeling calm and peaceful. I am glad I went to the gym today and got my steps in. Sometimes I dread the gym but I remind myself it’s always worth it. Even the pros can feel this way. But kudos to her for still going after it