Christopher03

Hello everyone I have been lurking on this forum for awhile now. I was afraid to post but here we are I’m 20. I was bullied and heavily shamed growing up in a third world country. I am now in a better place, but I have been very stuck in my life for the last 5 years. I suffer from social anxiety and poor self-image/esteem. I got through highschool barely talking to anyone. Now I just stay at my parents house. I didn’t go to college. No friends. No job. Never had a gf. I am currently taking baby steps on bettering my condition (meditation, reading, exercising) but the main reason why I am stuck is my social anxiety. The fear of being judged and humiliated or looking dumb is too painful for me. If I could just be socially free it would make a night and day difference on building my life. To those that have overcome or had any experience with tackling this anxiety any recommendations or tips it would be really appreciated. Much love

Thank you for the responses @thenondualtankie Whenever I’m out for jogs I try to look and smile at people I pass by, especially the elderly walking their dogs. Sometimes it ends up in small talk. I feel like I could be more proactive on initiating conversations though but it is a start. @Asia P Yes that is definitely the case.. I’m working on being less judgemental and negative to myself. Lately when meditating I am becoming more aware of my negative thought patterns and I try to replace them. But when I am out and about I guess these thought habits still happen unconsciously. Do you recommend any books or resources on this? @shree Thanks for the suggestions, I will check him out. I struggle a lot on forcing myself to converse with people. My mind talks me out of it for most attempts but I will keep trying.

I am eating at least 4-5 whole eggs a day trying to bulk up. Are there gonna be negative consequences on my cholesterol levels? I am 17 and fairly active

He for sure is super mega wise and conscious. Not sure about "fully" enlightened though. At the end of the day it doesn't matter to know if he is or not, its been emphasized here multiple times to not let this work be about him. Focus on u

Thank you We appreciate ur effort

Powerful advice bro. thank you

@flowboy How do you get out of this trap? I can't seem to just take the plunge and commit myself to taking a shit ton of action. Especially in my socialization. It frustrates me because I know I could be doing and accomplishing so much more, but at the same time let myself get stopped by fear of judgement and humiliation