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There is really no content left to consume. I mean something that's truly interesting, profound, entertaining. What I've been doing in the past few months was playing video games and watching a TV show or YouTube videos on the side. Because neither of these are that interesting in themselves. But if I combine them, I sort of feel occupied and satisfied. But now it just feels like there's nothing really valuable or truly entertaining to watch. Everything is so stupid, so trashy, so violent. Wish I could find another good tv show like shits creet or smthng. But just in general I’m just moreso distracted than ever truly entertained these days. Which is good, getting tired of this useless content and seing no value in it helps me to let it g, combined with the cost if pc and phone making me tired, sick and dreaming nightmares.

Was watching the show Preacher this last week and now had a dream of my guts being ripped out. Hate when this happens — dreaming nightmares based on the shows I watch. Characters were mean and selfish just as in the show. Another morivating factor to stop plating this game of sense pleasures.

Forgiveness is very much about realizing it’s not personal at all. It’s just them, who they are, it has nothing to do with me. Someone is rude? That’s literally just them being miserable and expressing that. Nothing to do with me at all. That liberates.

https://www.facebook.com/share/r/1CGwXcqR4P/?mibextid=wwXIfr haha true. Addiction is not just in the mind, it’s in the chemistry. There are withdrawl symptoms when going from a sense pleasure lifestyle to a God-centered one. This whole life is one big drug addiction and breaking it is not easy, but required for awakening.

Solipsism is peace. It means there is nothing you need to do or change. Nothing means anything. You never did anything wrong or right. Nothing ever happened. But if you only keep solipsism at the conceptual level, then yes, you will feel unfulfilled. Realizing life is a dream is only the first step to ultimate peace and liberation. The second step is to go beyond concepts to a place of Peace inside and live from that Peace until that Peace dissolves the dream and you enter Mahasamadhi.

I still feel so sluggish. It takes time to rebalance the chemicals in the brain that became unbalanced because of the inappropriate sleep schedule. Ruining sleep is such a bad idea. Other things have an effect too, ofc, like spending a lot of time in front of a screen, eating fatty processed foods, not exercising. That's the cost of not living a sattivic life. Feels like living underwater. Drowsy.

Satori (Japanese: 悟り) is a Japanese Buddhist term for "awakening", "comprehension; understanding" The word derives from the Japanese verb satoru. In the Zen Buddhist tradition, satori refers to a deep experience of kenshō, "seeing into one's true nature". Ken means "seeing," shō means "nature" or "essence".

Why did I fail my life of Purity before? Probably not enough wisdom and spiritual maturity. Didnt see clearly the cost and consequence of choosing to be in the world. Still had hope in the world. Didnt see that all roada of the world lead to despair. Still believed in manifestation.

Another profound benefit of being totally commited to God is that it lifts you above your Karma. When I live a life of one mindedness I am so blessed. I dont have to work. Nothing bad ever happens. The universe supplies all my needs. Not one seeming difficulty melts way before I reach it. I need take thought for nothing except the only Purpose I would fulfill. Amazing. Grace.

. one of the fastest effects of god dedication is what happens when I go to sleep. When I live a life of Purity I begin to enter the first stages of Heaven in my “dreams”. I meet Saint Mary and become One with her, drowning in bliss. I fly through incredible celestial realms. I dream of walking through nature filled with heavenly light. And when I live a life of sense pleasures I only dream nightmares inspired by the nonsense I did during the day, the tv shows I binged and video games I played

why? When I live a sattivic life I feel sattivic and I begin to taste Heaven. God begins to visit me and I drown in bliss. When I live a life of sense pleasures I feel drained, tired, empty, with interspursing moments of pleasure. Its my choice - a God-dedicated life or sense-pleasure life. Everything has to be sattivic, from the way I dress to the way I speak, think, eat, what I watch, listen to, where I spend my time. Everything has to be sattivic, God-oriented, harmonious.

In terms of a sattvic, Brahmacharya, God-dedicated life, here’s my plan: Read scripture daily (got kindle today) no more tv shows and video games and porn some funny stuff or cat videos are ok, like 30mins a day. Get a cat (maybe, pray for Divinr Guidance for a yes or no) listen to music, sacral yoga helps dancing, walking helps sattvic food sattvic thoughts ———- Did this many times already. Helped my spiritual progress. Then fell back into sense pleasure lifestyle. Still addicted to the world. But suffering keeps opening my eyes to my wrong lifestyle of Godlesness. Synthetic joy does not satisfy. Not fulfilling my purpose, feeling empty. When I dedicate myself to God I feel profound sense of Purpose. Living out The Ultimate Destiny.

I can never tell people what to do for their spiritual development. I'm meeting a friend tomorrow, to whom I recommended about a year ago to do a two-week solo meditation retreat and then take psychedelics. Now, do I think that this could be helpful to him? Yes. Do I think that it's realistic? No. Will he do it? No. Is it a part of his destiny? Probably not. So you see, I don't really know what's best. Or even if that would be good or beneficial, it's not even possible for him. So I should never really suggest these big changes for people in their lives. I don't know. It's best to say just sit down in silence, try to feel things out. I have no idea what you have to do. I don't really have a clear idea of what I have to do. It feels like there is a destiny, there is a grace, you can follow that grace, that type of stuff. But I can never tell people what to do, like, what is their path, and so on. I can say what helped me, maybe give some general advice, but not a very specific thing to do or what their path is, and so on.

I guess Ananda Ma would say its ok to use internet for sattivic purposes, she generalizes the sattivic concept to everything we consume.

So Anandamayi Ma and Andrew Tate agree. Nice I mean not really, but Ananda Ma does advocate that the wisest way for society to function is for men and women to be celibate, learn spirituality and then embark in marriage if needed. But also.. that will never happen. This is not a place of perfection. But the wise ones do learn, through suffering, that hoes aint shit, everything here dissapoints, and the only salvation is to keep withdrawing from the world back into God.

As Jesus says, each thing you value here is a chain that binds you. An advanced teacher of God has no sense of sacrifice in letting go the pleasures of the world. Is it a sacrifice to let go of death and despair?

Ananda Ma also said that it's very important upon death what your state of mind is. She said that the habits that you have upon death will determine the next life that you will have. She said but do not be fooled thinking that you can live a life of sense pleasures and then upon death be meditative and avoid rebirth or have a good life. No, a man is a creature of habit. You have to dedicate yourself fully to God in this lifetime so that on death you are pure and you don't have to come back. As long as you have sense desires you will not escape death and rebirth.

Evening Reading Summary of Ananda Ma's Book A woman asked Ananda Ma why her husband died. Ananda Ma replied that he died because he was an obstacle to her enlightenment. God takes away everything that is an obstacle to your enlightenment. When you are suffering in life, he is also teaching you, like a bitter medicine, that you are doing something wrong, that you are engaged in sense pleasures and they are limiting your spiritual advancement. In terms of karma, Ananda Ma says that you always reap what you sow, but there is nothing above God, even karma is just a part of the illusion, so if you dedicate yourself to God fully, God can wipe away all of your karma.

I'm reading Ananda Ma's book and basically she says if you keep God's name in your mind, which means you're silent, you're connected to that place of peace inside, then that extinguishes bad karma. And as long as you are engaged with the world, you will have suffering. My experience shows that this is true. When I dedicate myself to God fully, I live a life of effortlessness. God arranges life so that I can spend all my days in meditation and I have to do very little work.

God is my only partner. In Her arms I am complete. She heals everything in me. I need nothing else. Her Presence is total perfection. Absolute Divinity. And She is Me.

haha so entertaining! I'd somewhat even agree, I'd just say don't try to change anything, don't be angry at the world. Just have fun with hoes and be careful not to get into a relationship with one. But if ur smart u wont, it's obvious when a girl is a hoe, you can see it in her face immediately. The face reveals so much. People are open books. Is it a good idea to only be open to a long-term relationship with a virgin? Probably not. Like Lisa Cairns wasn't before she got in a relationship with her current partner and rejecting her because she isn't would be foolish. Also, good luck finding one haha

Actually, not really true. In the past these songs attacted emotions and stories of my ex. I felt them deeeply and now it seems like those emotions and stories are mostly gone. I can just enjoy the beauty of the music.

https://open.spotify.com/track/7JLPGkv5OfJmq9h2l37ELK?si=uJz68XM4SQeqPtAEYroqCw&context=spotify%3Aplaylist%3A1ZX7ZLBumf2GXtUgtaaTgO Love listening to this sing and ruminating about my divine ex. Some would probably say it’s not an enlightened thing to do haha. Maybe..

Keeping up a consistent sleep schedule is so important. I feel so bad and I’m so useless when I haven’t slept well. Have to go to bed same time everyday. I’ll stop using pc/phone at around 23:00 and then meditate and hour before sleep or read scripture.