CoolDreamThanks

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  1. “He who has given up sense enjoyment for the sake of God is already 3/4th’s of the way there.” -Sri Ramakrishna Not sure if it’s a real qoute by him but seems right based on what he teaches and very inspiring.
  2. This not-giving-up-sense-pleasures mistake is even apparent in A Course in Miracles community and teachers. Jesus literally says at the end of the book that you do have to give up everything you value here, all the pleasures of the world, every single thing. However, even Ken Wapnick, in some of his books, advocates that Jesus doesn't actually mean that you have to give up specific things, but only judgments in your mind. So that's a silly thing to say when Jesus literally says you have to give up pleasures of the world. And Keith Kavanaugh, another popular teacher who I followed, says that you don't have to give up pleasures. But again, this is how the West interprets the teachings. Even though Jesus says you have to give them up, they don't like it, so they omit that part. And that's why their spiritual progress will be very limited. Ken Wapnick seems so scholarly, so intelectual - no way he makes mistakes right? Wrong.
  3. Julian Lee, the author of The Bliss of the Celibate, talks about how in the West most teachers actually omit the basic teaching of Brahmacharya from their teachings. They take some parts they like and omit others they don't. And the author says without Brahmacharya there is no true spirituality. He says how many teachers advocate for Tantra and that is actually hurting spiritual students especially men, making them weaker and unable to achieve the highest goal. I think Lisa Cairns would be included in this category. In the previous interview she said she has a lot of sex with her boyfriend and in another video she talked about Tantra in a positive way. I think she is not a true teacher. She simply attracted me as a teacher because of how beautiful she is. She also thinks there is no free will which is not true. So she has many or multiple things she is wrong about that hurt and even make the spiritual progress unavailable to men at least to reach the highest goal.
  4. Okay, first night seems good, dreams were better, I think somewhat sexual, but as the author said you first will heal the conscious mind it lust and then the unconscious mind. I think abit more energy too this morning. Feeling slightly stronger will I think. Did some cleaning of my apartment which was overdue. Will put up some things for sale today and do more cleaning. Change of diet, so will eat perfectly sattivic today - rice with vegirs, peanuts with vegies, honey, vitamins and some exercise plus yoga. Life free’s up to become healthier in many ways when sense pleasures are dropped. Will also do some work for my job today or and tommorow. Need to do this task well, quite important to seem valuable now as one product is going bankrupt.
  5. The author also talks about how, just as I intuited, you incarnate into a form that is a reflection of how pure you are. The more sex-addicted you are, the more uglier the form you will incarnate to, and in the end you might even lose the ability to incarnate into a human realm. Hollywood actors that use their sexuality on camera degrade in beauty in one lifetime. I think I saw this in this lifetime. I know a few examples where women who use their sexuality actually became very unpleasant looking, like that model with the, I forget her name, but they look very unattractive when they're older. So that's the karma you incur for abusing sexuality. He also says not only your body but your world turns darker when you arent pure. You can even get diseases in that area, gaps in your aura that allow lower-astral energies to attatch to you. I did have a disease there from promiscious sex and it’s difficult to get rid of, it’s probably on the energetic level or the astral level even. That ultra promiscious girl probably fcked me up on various levels. Need to regain my purity and my health. Never doing that again. This life has to become a life of purity and awakening. Sex never again. Female companionship never again. Solo monk mode until the end of time and back into eternity. Only platonic friendships with meetings once a month or once a quarter with men. Females are so dangerous for me to be around. If life sends someone I shouldnt reject, but keep it completly platonic, not sexualising her, not looking at her body, just a friend.
  6. He also says it’s almost impossible to maintain celibacy whilst drinking coffee. Uh oh. Okay, stoping that. Also stoping all sugar and junkfood. Eating a very sattivic diet of rice and fruits and nuts and vegies. Meat increases harmones and is definately not good for Brahmacharyas. Also no competetive sports and video games, they agiatte me and somehow lead to wanting. Overall my advanced pc setup is hurting me. I should sell it and just keep my work laptop. It’s enough. I realied this before and sold like 4 PC’s in the past. Then purchased again and again.. the trap of sense pleasures is hard to escape. Not sure if I should aell my pc. Feels bad in the heart center which says that’s not right. Okay, keeping then. I’m often very motivated to let it all go and fail… And if I made bad financial decisions and have to repurchase my equipment I lose alot of cash. Another trap for me is fashion. When I dress well I feel attractive and like I deserve sex. Why shouldnt I use my looks to get attention? Nono thats very unwise. Selling all my designer clothing. Another big one for me is perfumes, selling them as well, same egoic trap connected to sex and attracton and female attention.
  7. The author also talks about how activation of the kundalini energy before you have subdued your sexual desires can actually increase your sexuality. That is what happens to people on drugs. Drugs invigorate the kundalini, and people on drugs who have a lot of sexual thoughts become sexual maniacs. They lose all control. It becomes just completely unbounded, that sexual desire. I've had this in my experience where my friend, female friend, said that if we take drugs I will definitely want to sleep with you. And she said that she actually wants to do that with me. And since then we haven't met. I think that ruined our relationship. But in my own experience, when I take drugs, when I take psychedelics without preparing myself with at least a month of celibacy, that psychedelic experience is like I spend an hour or so just fantasizing about sexuality or masturbating. I just become so engulfed in it and I can't really surrender to the bliss. I am grabbed by the sexual desire. So yes, that's very important to see how you have to remove all sexual thoughts, all sexual desire from your mind until you can ascend to enlightenment. It's impossible to not be celibate, to have sexual thoughts and come back to heaven. It's the core practice.
  8. Listened to around two hours of this book on celibacy. It's amazing, very inspiring, introduced a lot of nuances I haven't considered before. Based on his evaluation, I am very much on the wrong path. In the past, when I was on a psychedelic trip, I viscerally, intuitively felt how ejaculation was a wrong thing to do, how it hurts me. Now, knowing that chakras do exist, this makes even more sense, because I'm wasting the energy and sending it down to the lowest energy center, whilst enlightenment is the accumulation of energy at the highest center. The book also talks about the astral realms, how you can't enter certain realms and hang out with certain company, which, as it requires for you to be celibate, to be pure, that also seems to be true. He also talks about spiritualities that don't advocate for celibacy, like Tantra and Leogura, are perverted and actually will cause the teacher to incur bad karma. That's why Leogura is suffering so much in his health. The author also talks about how the more you desire to become a teacher, the less you should be one, and those who don't want to become a teacher should be ones, but they should be called by life naturally, you should never attempt to become a teacher.
  9. Actually, I'd better not. Haven't heard of Anandamayi Ma or Ramana Maharshi or Ramakrishna or Papaji having a cat. Probably best not to take upon myself such a long-term responsibility when I don't really know all the consequences.
  10. Cats are so zen. Maybe I should sell my pc setup, get a cat and mimic how she lives. I’ll just read books but besides that I can pretty much live 90% like a cat.
  11. Decided to abstain today and took a nap. Dreamt of an ex classmate which I found fooling around immaturely and pressing buttons he shouldn’t. - symbolic of finding my immature side pressing buttins I shouldnt?: sexuality. Then from that scene I found myself in a cave, a perfect cave for meditation — no bugs, the ground covered in sort of a moss that I could sleep on. also symbolic. Now I found that listening and reading to teachings from Saints about celibacy helps me to not do it. But if I’m serious about it I shouldnt do all other things that are close to it - junkfood, vidoegames, youtube. I do feel ready I think. Everything else seems meaningless and I’m tired of it. Cant find any interesting content, video games seem boring. Junkfood even tasted pretty bad today and felt how it’s making me sick. Ok, Trying to live a life of Brachmacharya
  12. Interesting, in the book Swami says that if you practice brahmacharya you can't even dream nightmares. Nightmares are the effect of blasting off. hmmm
  13. Love that Jesus' teachings are the same as those of the Saints of India - let go of the world, let go of sense pleasures, this world is an illusion, a dream, simply meditate and come back Home.
  14. Lust really is at the core of bondage to this world..
  15. I'd hypothesize that people look exactly as who they are because when you incarnate you incarnate into a body that is representative of the mind that you enter the incarnation into. So if you had a promiscuous mind in the last lifetime and did not purify yourself, you will have a slutty face in this lifetime. If you were meditative and pure, you would incarnate into a kind/pure body, like Lisa Cairns and Anandamayi Ma. I think we can mostly see a person's intelligence in their face as well. So, if you developed wisdom in the previous lifetime, you will have wisdom. But I think you can also punish yourself -- if you were intelligent and misused your intelligence in the previous lifetime you might incarnate into an autistic/retarded body next lifetime as a karmic punishment. Anyway.. Just thinking.. Was watching porn and got into a contemplative mood - why do all promiscuous girls look promiscuous? Like you can see it in their face what's in their mind. It's just that that's universal - you can see who everyone is in their faces. Maybe.
  16. Working sucks so much.. Even though I'm in a good position it's still not ideal. This is a huge motivating factor for letting go of the sense-pleasures and falling into meditation, where I dedicate myself fully to God and he lifts me above my karma to where I live a life of freedom, where my needs are met with working only a few hours weekly.
  17. veery good resource https://selfdefinition.org/celibacy/
  18. “Freedom, Sancho, is one of the most precious gifts bestowed by heaven on man; no treasures that the earth contains and the sea conceals can compare with it; for freedom, as for honour, men can and should risk their lives and, in contrast, captivity is the worst evil that can befall them.”
  19. There is really no content left to consume. I mean something that's truly interesting, profound, entertaining. What I've been doing in the past few months was playing video games and watching a TV show or YouTube videos on the side. Because neither of these are that interesting in themselves. But if I combine them, I sort of feel occupied and satisfied. But now it just feels like there's nothing really valuable or truly entertaining to watch. Everything is so stupid, so trashy, so violent. Wish I could find another good tv show like shits creet or smthng. But just in general I’m just moreso distracted than ever truly entertained these days. Which is good, getting tired of this useless content and seing no value in it helps me to let it g, combined with the cost if pc and phone making me tired, sick and dreaming nightmares.
  20. Was watching the show Preacher this last week and now had a dream of my guts being ripped out. Hate when this happens — dreaming nightmares based on the shows I watch. Characters were mean and selfish just as in the show. Another morivating factor to stop plating this game of sense pleasures.
  21. Forgiveness is very much about realizing it’s not personal at all. It’s just them, who they are, it has nothing to do with me. Someone is rude? That’s literally just them being miserable and expressing that. Nothing to do with me at all. That liberates.