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Is not behaviour based. How can it be when life is a dream? i simply must enjoy my hedonistic pleasures without guilt until they are no longer needed because you have trained your mind to be in Spirit so much that you always feel full, nothing else is required to fill you up. Until something is required - do it! No sacrifice is needed, just an underlying intention for all corcumstances is to simply BE and Observe them more than act. So free. Nothing to do, nowhere to be. a gentle awakening Got a cat for the weekend, here she is meditating:

an amazing resource that has been helping me with no pmo. might help u too. just dropping by. good luck.

I want to awaken quickly because I really want to avoid hardcore suffering that this world can cause, especially at old age. There’s no knowing what desease I will have when I’m old and how much I will suffer. I also don’t know jow my next life would be if I didnt wake ip in this one - because of the duality of existence, if this one was good, next one might be hell. Althoguh unlikely because of the level of consciousness, but still, the idea is that delaying is not wise and not loving towarda myself — it’s best to cut of myself from this cycle of suffering quickly.

So letting go of lust and no pmo is good, but the other dopamine addictions will also have to be let go - which is pretty much the whole internet, so I’l have to let go of music, anime, movies, comedies, shopping. But if I do let go of it all, then the reward is becoming enlightened and living in endless bliss forever. I’ve done it for months already, I know the benefits and enlightenment is true and that I can do it. But I wi probably relapse, or maybe not, but I have to try.

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That’s why in ACIM Jesus says (paraphrasing): you think you are gifting me flowers, but in truth, you are putting a crown on thorns upon my head and blood courses down my face. Blood drenches my garbs as deep as the flowers you gave cover my garden. it’s impossible to gain pleasure through bodies, throught his world, and not be rewarded with the equivalent measure of pain. this understanding is freedom.

How truly lonely it is at the pinnacle of spiritual evolution. There is no one to talk to, no one understands you.

Wherever there is light you will always find shadows. Wherever there is easy sex there are STD’s. Wherever there is a soulmate there is a deep deep heartbreak. Wherever there is psychedelic medicine and bliss there is also going psycho and destroying your nervous system. where there is porn and video games there is lethargy and lack of motivation. wherever there is lust there is the end of connection to God. Life is literally an ebb and flow of the waves of duality. Pain and pleasure. Excitement and dissappontment. Relationships and heartbreak. Bliss and misery. the only way out is to trascend these dualities letting them all go and focusing on the non-dual Spirit inside, which, when it’s the only thing left - brings us back to Heaven, where there is only infinite explosion of magnificent love for all eternity. That is the purpose of my life.

"Be passersby"—considering the duality of the universe and the fact that it's impossible to seek pleasure through the body and not find pain in all areas of life, the best thing to do with life is to pass it by, focusing on God instead.

The parallel between Lithuanian and Sanskrit is astounding. Here's a poem, once again, about life being a dream, which shows how they are closely related: Kas tvam asi? Asmi svapnas tava tamase nakte. Agniṃ dadau te śradi tada viśpatir devas tvam asi. Kas tu esi? Esmi sapnas tavo tamsioje naktyje. Ugnį daviau tau širdy, tada viešpatis dievas tu esi. It's saying - Who are you? You are a dream in your dark night. I gave you a fire in your heart. Thus, God our Lord, you are.

A poem in my native language about life being illusory. It's from a young poet Vytautas Macernis, around 22y/o: Gyvenimas – tai geidžiamas apsigavimas! O kaip norėčiau padaryti jį bekraštį Ir juo keliauti kaip amžinasis piligrimas, Ir niekad niekur kelio pabaigos nerasti! Kaip gera jausti viltį, laimę ir paguodą, Kaip išganinga, jų netekus, laukti ir kentėti! Gyvenimas daug atima, bet dar daugiau jis duoda. Gyvenimas naktis, bet jos skliautai žvaigždėti. Galbūt jisai iliuzija, kuri vaidenas; Gal nieko čia nėra, tik šiaip sau rodos, Bet nebūties pirminis taškas juodas, Išplitęs kerinčiais vaizdais, koks tyras menas! Aš jį regiu ant savo sąmonės ekrano Ir negaliu atsigėrėt, o Dieve mano! Šarnelė, 1944.II.24

Wow, did no PMO for barely a few days and already feel amazing -- more energy, less brain fog, even more meditative, overall clearer, more alive. Amazing. Want to continue indefinitely, incredible benefits.

so timely:

If I let go of lust can I be friends with someone whose life is all about lust? I probably can, but I don’t want to. Ideas are infectious, and I am barely holding onto this pure lifestyle as is, I don’t need a negative influence in my life. Bye. this always happens when I decide to let go of the Matrix - friends that were with me when I was involved in the Matrx lose all appeal and I want to disconnect from them as quickly as possible.

Telling a underdeveloped ego that life is a dream is a mistake. He will most likely laugh at you and scoff at the idea, but if you have enough authority and he accepts it, then if he’s not conencted to Spirit, then if he had low empathy before, now there will be absolutely zero. To be honest, I am the true dreamer, the only one, so telling others that they are dreaming is a lie. I shouldn’t do that. What I should do is say that this experience is a dream. If they ask whose dreaming say them, just to avoid conflict, because dream characters atrack you like agents in the matrix when you tell them you are dreaming them and they dont really exist. But overall, keep this truth on the low, it backfired to tell my dream characters that it’s their dream. It’s not in their script to awaken so when I say it they just throw the idea away or become arrogant dream characters, like Leo.

I noticed that when I'm high on weed or other drugs, in that state my mind is impaired but I don't know it. Only in retrospect do I see that what I said and did was stupid. I never want to be in that state again, ever. It's a degrading, unhonorable, disrespectful thing to do for myself. I will never do it again. It hurts me in so many ways. Because it has a positive side to it, and it is from this dualistic universe, it will have a negative side of a similar scope. And I love it, and I hate it, and I can't handle it anymore. It's a stupid thing to do. I much prefer walking, talking, and being wise, peaceful, having a sharp mind. That's what I want. I want to make wise decisions, speak wisely, peacefully. No more of this stupid, degraded mind due to drugs.

Hmm so wakingup requires a certain chemical coctail, but if I oversleep, then it gets out if whack and the body thinks I need more sleep and then the sleep chemicals can or seem for me, to seep into the waking time, so Im always tired. So if I overlaeep the feeling is that even when I wake up I’m still sleepy, the opposite effect to ehat I want. Spent 14hrs in bed. I know why that happens - fried nervous system, due to social media, porn, junk food, music, enviroment. i know it’s not possible to let go of maya quickly and all at once, it’s a life-long project, so I must have a strong determination aaand also be gentle with myself, allowing the addiction to decrease day by day, week by week. Doing it quickly will not work long-term, it’s a slow burn. I cut off porn, junk food and drugs for good, but I will allow myself to watch an episode of anime daily, just a bit of comedy on yt, and aome coffee at work 2x per week. Perhaps some healing music here and there. No more shopping for sure, got enough clothing to last my whole life, literally. If I need to release that wnergy once a month or something that’s fine as well, dont count it as a fail, just part of the healing.

Yesterday I decided to make my life’s purpose let go of the matrix as best as I can and immediately started dreaming my biological father. i think he symbolizes God the Father in my mind and it’s showing that this Is the correct choice, as in the dreams I playing, chilling with him on vacation. A re-connection of the Son and the Father.

When I letgo of the Matrix, after a month or two I begin to wake up in bliss. I guess my body is full of energy of dipamine and it just flows so beautifully. So a blisfull life is possible, considering it’s a life of stillness and naturalness,

So dopamine is wired to be released when we get a kill from hunting, build a house, etc. but now the whole system is fcked up because tou can be in bed and release as much dopamine as someone who just conquered a kingdom. So porn is literally having a harem on demand with new girls everyday. Ofc its addicting. Tbh I dont see hoe you can manage this wisely - I think the best way to go about this is to try and try and try to stay conscious and go beyond this addiction cycle in the matrix until you re-train your system and it allows you ti be focused on God. It takes effort and will. This human game wasn’t design by God, but by ego, so we have to learn how to outplay it and it will be hard.

So modern ascetisicm, where you enjoy the comfort but also detach is the highest form of self love, which might seem radical but only from the matrix POV, actually it’s coming back to our natural self.

So the whole dopamine system is related to motivation, so that’s the destructive side of it - it zaps you of motivation and makes you a mindless slave who doesnt even have the motivation or energy to unplug from the matrix. Not that it matters since its a maya, but it’s ultra important for the One to do it.

Yeh not going to clubs anymore, the stimulation there is other level, not only is there drugs booze and ultra loud music, but also soo much lust. A place of ultra dopamine release, and as a consequence, a big hangover and a destruction of the netvous system. Now you will need more druga more strimulation more sex to keep up the dopamine. Wow it’s literally programmed to destroy ourselves - this whole human chemistry and society.