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wow love this!

I wonder whose happier: someone who follows manifestation teachers and believes he’s a creator and has an individual will, or someone who believes he does not exist as a seperate entity and lives as an indistinct awareness, without any goals or plans, just watching life go by like a movie. In the second case you dont lament your past because it couldn’t have been any different and you don’t need to manage your future because it’s all pre-determined. The energy is that of Suzzane or Lisa Cairns - peaceful, airy, humble. In the first you are always in a state of extreme responsibility since you are powerful and every single decision matters. It also feels powerful, energetic, arrogant, proud, extroverted - like Bashar’s energy.

Teachings of non duality are the most beautiful art form. I’m not interested in creating any other form. These ones have such profundity and depth within them that no other form has. So life changing, actuallt valuable.

It’s useful to compare non-dual enlightenment experiences of formless heaven to the state of regular life and think: hmm, in heaven it feels like there is no me, no center, just pure non-dual existence. Comparatively, it feels like now there’s this energetic center that appeared and is actually built on nothing, it’s an illusion and is actuallt frantic and lacking, egoistic and dense. When that is seen then the way back is clear - to let go of this feeling of a false, seperate self and to dissolce back into the Self. But its not only intelectual — intelectual side comes first and then integration should go on for years. Even the I am practice has to be let go of. It has become a habit to contract abstract, non specific, non dual awareness into indicidual consciousness that has a center and a will. Consciousness is the illusory decision maker that has to be undone, and when it happens on a deep energetic level, then it disaolves forever. Hoping to achieve that in a few years, but in the upcoming months alone I expect significant shifts into deeper and deeper levels of peace since the center is dissolving.

It does feel like this has to be integrated — the energetic seeking patterns of the little self are still in play and have to be calmed down in time just naturally by appropriating this understanding. The idea is that it will just happen naturally — there is finally no one in control and this has to be integrated. The feeling of control still arises as an energetic habbit and has to dissolve by remembering that there is no one in control - whenever the feeling of control arises, like a clinching hand, it has to be let go of. That’s the integration part.

Now I see where the resistence comes from — no one wants to be told that not only do they have no power to manifest, but that the feeling of any control, even internal, is an illusion. With this realization I feel so indistinct - no specialness at all. But there’s also no contraction, well, there is some cleaning up to do still, but overall the peace is on another level. How could you not be peaceful when you know that all that ever happened and will happen is just a pre-arranged script and the you who thought is in control of your life doesn’t exist? No self left to do anything, not even to be mindful — total return to non-duality — there is no choice in non-duality — no one to choose and nothing to choose between. Finally I can say that I am in a non-dual state, but unfortunately I had to lose my self. Haha.

Haha, after this contemplation went to sleep and dreamt of a stupid priest driving a car and hitting other cars and running from cops, but I took control of the car and stopped it and the insane priest went to jail. Priest is consciousness who thinks it’s in control and always makes mistakes and me taking over control is oneness taking away control from consciousness. Then I got gifted a pendant with a beautiful blue saphire and a key — symbolic of getting the key to awakening.

Coming back again to the deepest question of all - does the decision maker, aka consciousness even exist, or are Jesus and other spiritual paths just humouring the seeming decision maker until he, the consciousness, realizes that the whole process of forgiveness and meditation, trying to observe and not judge was just a preliminary step, still within the illusion of the split mind, for the split mind to realize that it is an illusion and does not really exist? been reading Ken and he says yes, consciousness is the decision maker and it is an illusion — the first illusion that arose after the seperation. And I feel it - I feel how being aware of awareness is still a contraction, it’s still a dualistic, split state, and thus illusory, since truth is non-dual. This decision maker is the final illusion to break, and then there’s nothing left. I consulted with chat GPT if conaciousness, the observer is the final illusion to break according to advaita vedanta and it said yes, and the teachings of observation are like using one thorn to remove another thorn, and then both thorns are discarded. And this is even more destructive to the ego than the realization of the inability to manifest, because now it means that it’s not that you don’t have the power to manifest but there’s no you at all — this decision maker is the split mind and the one to discard — and of couse it will resist this with all of it’s might because that is death of the seperate self and the return of non-duality. Ken and Jesus say that forgiveness is still fiction - it operates within consciousness, but it’s a preliminary step that leads beyond seperation. Buddhists use vipassana to inspect objects in awareness, and then the final vipassana object is the one doing the vipassana and then it is seen that the one observing is the illusion and that is the final realization that disentangles the illusory self. The “I am” consciousness is the primordial seperation, the first and final illusion. Nowdays most teachers preach that the I am is sacred and is who we are. But it’s consciousness - it’s being aware of oneself, so there has to be a split - an observer and an observed, even if the observed is your own awareness. The one who is observing is the illusory entity that makes duality appear.’ so all practices lead to this conclusion and after this realization there is no need for practice - there is no one left to practice. Now it’s all just oneness without a seperTe entity in the middle that has a choice. Now it’s truly just a movie appearing without anyone in the middle to choose or decide anything. So basically what Lisa teaches and that asian lady on YT. https://youtu.be/HxvCz4wwxJs?si=43BqFdkf4Ri4g0Fr

New age teachings be like:

Manifestation teachers basically tell you you are a God and you can have and be whatever you desire. Who wouldn’t want to believe in that? That’s the core of the ego - that’s how ego tricked you in the first place to dream this whole universe of madness. Manifestation works only enough to keep you chasing for more. But it never works as well as those teachers promise. I had periods where I was perfect at manifestation - doing exactly, to a t, what they said - and I did manifest a girl and an opportunity to earn more money. That girl was extremely materialistic and stupid and the opportunity to earn money required me to be a total slave, and it wasnt even a million dollar opportunity. Thwn I thought ok maybe I was materialistic, let me drop it all and just meditate 24/7 and maybe I will meet an amazing angelic girl. I met a girl who was into spirituality but I didn’t like her at all. She had no wisdom and no true beauty, just another confused new age thinker who sees herself as special and advanced. Then I began to manifest a very specific girl and it never happened. Of course.. the things you truly desire never manifest, or else you would get them, see that even that carries the nature of this universe, which is pleadure and pain, and you wiuld drop manifestation and all hope and awakwn. The trick behind manifestation is to never let it truly happen, or else the mind sees how uterlly helpless the search for happiness in this world is and awakens. But if you keep lying and saying oh you just made this mistake and other mistake then it will keep tryjng and trying it’s whole life until it dies, forgwts that scam and gets scammed in another lifetime again. As Jesus says, since the time time began this world did nothing but dissapoint you. So in the end, I tried every technique, I was even managing every single thought, was very appreciative of everything and happy for months, and I didn’t manifest a single extra dollar or an amazing partner. But I’m glad I tried it to the extreme - exactly as they teach - to disprove their teachings. yesterday I also was talking to someone with a very low IQ and she was talking about how bashar is definTely the truth and so on. basically every spiritual amateur is just a manofestation believer — that’s how ego traps immature minds into living endless cycles of birth and death. Another confused spiritual novice, who of course believes she is creating everything with her thoughts, said she has a hamster and the hamster is very active and runs around alot. She said she had a thought it would be great if the hamstwr wasnt so fast and running all over the place. In some time her husband hit the hamstwr wirh the door and it’s now crippled. She told me she is sure she manifested that and cried 2 days because of it. What a great example of the suffering the belief in manifestation brings. She also said she tried to manifest abundance and she said it did work but she manifested abundant problamems, because she wasnt specific what abundance she wanted. It’s amazing the lengths the ego goes to to trick itself into believing it is powerful and controlling everything. Jesus says you see only the past. The script is written. You have no control over the world. Even thoughts you have are past thoughts. The only choice you have is to return back to Silence and to awaken from this dream. But you have absolutely no control over the dream because it’s already done - it’s the past, you are watching a movie. not sure who this is but he/she explains it perfectly: https://miracleshome.org/publications/serenity_prayer.htm David Hoffmeister says the same thing - he laughs at manifestation saying: lol, Jesus says it’s all a pre-areanged script, the movie of your life is already written - what manifestation is there, then? It’s all done already. And if you try to manifwst and something happens which could be attributed to manifestation — which is how confused egos make themselves believe ij manifestation - it would have happened either way, no matter if you manifested or not. So ACIM is basically for the advanced spiritual students who have enough wisdom to see that nothing here works and now want to escape this universe instead of attwmpting to rearrange it.

Your Desires are Manifesting Everything and everyone you see around you are manifestations of your desires. When you have no desires, you don’t see anything at all. Try now and see for yourself. Stop the mind and its desires and see if there is anything left to see. When there is a desire, the eyes start working and they start seeing things which become objects of desire. The seer and the seen are maintained by the desire one for the other. When the desires are not there, there is no seer and nothing to be seen. If there is no desire, you can’t see, you can’t hear, you can’t smell, you can’t taste. Try it, just for a fraction of a second. Make your mind be absolutely absent for a second and see what happens to all the objects of desire that you used to think were real. This one second will give you happiness and love. It is bliss, perfection, happiness, enlightenment, wisdom. Call it by any name that appeals to you. Actually, this love, this bliss, has no name at all. It is just emptiness of mind. Nothing is there any more. We arose from emptiness and sooner or later we will return to that emptiness. In the interval, we think, have desires and suffer the consequences of them. But don’t think, ‘I came from emptiness and sooner or later I will return to emptiness and be happy’. That will not solve the problem of your present suffering. Instead have conviction, ‘I am in emptiness right now. Emptiness is my nature.’ This conviction is enough to give you bliss, love, and freedom.

The most beautiful video. Same teaching as that of Jesus, Ramana, Ananada. The miracle comes to a mind that stops an instant and is still. all questions answered in silence. your understanding has little contribution to awakening. only silence is worth the effort and brings us back to God and out of the dream

Papaji also says it’s all just a dream and to be careful not to get caught in sense pleasures. And to awaken just be silent. Same as ACIM.

It’s also obvious that’s the case just looking at others. the more recognition, happiness, fame, money someone gets the harder the fall. Shaytards family is a good example — went from heaven to hell, like with all things here. Where does that leave the ego when this is realised? I suspect it would resist and puke against this, because if this be truly understood and applied, then it’s days are numbered. Everything here is dualistic. Female male, happiness depression, money no money. raising above it all is the only true happiness