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I read PON about the same time you did. I read about half of it and never finished it. It's not exactly a "feel good" book is it?. At least not to me. So many ppl rave about too so i had to see what I was missing. It just wasn't for me.

@Paul92 Did something happen that started this dark period if I may ask? Before that everything was fine?

@Paul92 Paul I'm going to move this thread b-c ppl are hijacking it and taking it off topic.

@Paul92 Don't feel that way. This will pass.

@Paul92 Maybe take a break for a while to get yourself centered. Do you have a park or nature area around you to take a walk in? It wil help get you grounded.

@Paul92 Here's a really cool practice for you if you wanna try it. It's super simple but has great results. Spend the day being aware that everything you see, hear, touch , taste, feel is God's awareness. God is seeing through your eyes.

@Paul92 That's a good contemplation. "why is there something rather then nothing?

@Paul92 Exactly! You are not Paul experiencing God. You are God experiencing Paul.

@Joseph Maynor That's between the mods and the member - not you. BTW-that happened some 12 hours ago and your just noticing it now? Good grief man.

lets have a reality check.............. Yep reality is still an illusion.

@bejapuskas I like Nisargadatta "All that arises in consciousness is illusion" short and sweet!

@Joseph Maynor Sorry quoted you by accident there.

@Paul92 Sorry about that Paul. Please proceed.

What truth? Too late now. You put a huge elephant in the room and now your saying ignore it?

@Mikael89 Why in God's name would you think for a moment that makes me happy? In fact I quoted you word for word just for full disclosure which I'm totally for. If I knew what you are accusing the forum management of doing (hiding suicides) was true I'd be out of here in an instant!.

@Mikael89 That's news to me. All the time too? And it's being intentionally hidden? Better come up with some real proof or you'll be looking at some serious warning points for spreading nasty falsehoods about the forum.

@moon777light Your most welcome. The practice of Zen mind is beginner's mind. The innocence of the first inquiry—what am I ?—is needed throughout Zen practice.

@moon777light "Drop all desires even the desire to attain enlightenment during meditation" This book would be of great help to you. Zen Mind Beginners Mind http://www.arvindguptatoys.com/arvindgupta/zenmind.pdf

@Rilles "The soft overcomes the hard" - Tao Te Ching. Zen Mind Beginners Mind was one of my first books. http://www.arvindguptatoys.com/arvindgupta/zenmind.pdf

That answers the question "what remains when it feels as if nothing should remain?"

What is that which remains when it feels as if nothing should remain?

Then it became this?

Did it feel like this?