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Yes, this happens all the time. This work is called awakening for a reason. You are starting to see who is living in a dream and who is for real. That includes you most of all. Have compassion for yourself and that will naturally spill over to others too. What is changing is the way you see things. The external world has not changed at all so you can't get angry at it. Realign your awakening awareness with it. Some old ways will fall away to make way for the new. Growth is always the hardest thing for the self when we have to admit that what we were portraying before may have not existed in an awakened state.

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@Ayla Each grain of sand = one thought of the mind.

When Leo started this forum he referred to it as a "sandbox". What is that sand we play in?

@Mal Trust me, your not going anywhere. This is a long process. It's not like you will suddenly disappear or something. You may have experiences of no-self that are very strong from time to time. But than in no time mind is right back reclaiming it's territory. It's much harder to hold to the experiences of no-self than to be self .

@Mal You are experiencing no-self from time to time? Is that it?

@Actualizer @Mal This could answer that one.

@Mal Spiral dynamics serve a place within minds conceptual framework and has the power to assist in crossing the threshold into liberation. A ladder for mind to climb out of it's hole one rung at a time.

@Leo Gura , is that your way of saying "Don't expect to be farting rainbows"?

@ChimpBrain This explains some of the science about HRV. The moniter trains one to control their parasympathetic nervous system.

@ChimpBrain If you could try one out first, you should. It is meditation because you have to place awareness on the breath and get into a rhythm. If it is accurate, which I presume it is, my heart coherency was way off and my breathing rate was too. It's portable but I don't wear it all the time. Only when doing a session. I just got it so I'll have to use it more to really get to know it but I could see how it would be useful. I tried a 20 min. session with the emWave first and than I did a regular meditation after. If your mind wanders from the breath or you get distracted, it will let you know immediately so you really have to get into a "zone" and stay in it. It has a audible signal too that lets you know if your in a low, med, or high state of coherency so you can close your eyes. I just wanted to try it out and let some family and friends try it too that may otherwise not do daily meditation. So far I don't believe I wasted my money, it's pretty cool. I read the reviews on Amazon.com too before I bought it. It got good ratings by ppl. who meditate.

@ChimpBrain I just got the emWave2 + Heartmath. It's interesting. You have to sync up breathing, mind and heart to get a high coherency score. Low is red , medium is blue and high is green. It feels like you get into a "zone" of concentration or equilibrium when it's held at a high coherency . If I get distracted, it drops off to red in a heartbeat (no pun intended). It is showing me how my mind, heart, nervous system is reacting to everyday stimuli that I would otherwise been unaware of.

@Displayname Check this out, sweet!

@Displayname You are re-thinking your original direction. Do you feel like it's not working for you but your working for it? Myself as a home builder , I gotta say go with the affordable housing. Maybe that's just me because that was always my personal passion. Creating and designing safe and affordable homes that a family can live in. It's wonderful and fulfilling to see that transformation happen before your eyes. When the job is finished and you drive away the last time knowing that a family will spend many happy days together in this home. No regrets here. And housing is changing drasticly too, tiny houses, earth housing, portable housing, container housing, even a house that has a greenhouse built around it.

Keep going. Any meditation is better than none. Just stay with it. " Meditate for 20 minutes twice a day unless your very busy- meditate for an hour" as the old saying go's.

It sounds as if your looking at this as if a "you" will be in a place that is infinite. That would be a very bleak picture from the perspective of mind. A hell of sorts because "you" are in it. Such a place exists only in the mind. Mind or "You" exist within time and space. Existence, from the perspective of mind is also happening within time and space. Infinity has no time or space or "you". That is what makes it infinite. Maybe you had a brief glimpse of infinity, I don't know. But it sounds like your mind than placed itself into that picture after the experience? That is what doesn't fit. Your mind is trying to place it's familiar constructs of time and space (and you) into a field that has no time or space or "you". When "You" become totally non-existant, that's infinity. **I refrained from using the term "eternity" because that implies time. That is a religious idea of an afterlife and something I personally could never except when I was growing up. I don't care how much one likes harp music, you wouldn't want to have to listen to it 24/7 for all eternity.

@All_Around_Me That's cool, languages, multi-lingual.

@All_Around_Me Your gonna do just fine! What is your passion? What comes to you with no effort?

@All_Around_Me Meditation and self inquiry are fantastic tools for finding your life.

What a great place to hide it! Where nobody would "think" to look.

@WelcometoReality That one found me this morning and great way to start the day.

Great exercise. Looking deeply into duality. In your statement above you explored both options. Good choice.

@tomasCZ @tomasCZ The seed was planted even though your mind was not willing to except it and suddenly everything settled in of it's own doing. The mind searching for it will never find it. It always alludes the mind. You found the key by not looking for it. That is the key.

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@vizual I was just reading your post and something funny hit me, "Put a leash on that dogma"