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@Epiphany_Inspired I'm looking forward to seeing the movie "Collateral Beauty" soon. I hope it's a good one! Will Smith is the main character who looses his daughter at a young age and than he loses his love for life. He starts writing personal letters to Time, Love and Death to cope with his loss and they answer him with the truth of it all.

@Epiphany_Inspired Have you read the book "love is letting go of Fear"? I remember a quote but it's been a long time since I read it so this may not be exactly word for word. "Love is the only true reality while fear is of mind".

Something remains that is undeniable. Maybe it it's all just pat of the illusion. But like ashes after the flame is gone there still remains traces of what once was.

@abrakamowse I honestly don't know brother.

In 2016 you discovered something about yourself through meditation that the masses may not generally realize because they most often refuse to look. Explore what is you that is happening within reality. Take all the time you need. It's intriguing and at the same time a total paradox of the confines of mind. Welcome to the New Year and a new realization that you are not what you where last year.

We are all given a finite amount of time to say what we need to say. Choose carefully.

@Epiphany_Inspired It is so very easy when we let it all go. Why do we chose to make it otherwise?

@Epiphany_Inspired No, thank you. That bought me into a place of total love and acceptance.

I love you too.

@Epiphany_Inspired I love you. Yes, it is a process. Hang in there with every fiber of what you are.

Easier said than done though.. I mean. something of me remains. What the hell is that? It seems like a "Bull in a china shop".

Punch line: The disciple himself is an illusion. Not that funny? How do you like this one? The Zenkini bathing suite.. It doesn't exist!

No need to. Spacious, isn't it.

In Time it's just a few seconds- but infinity knows no such restraints as time. Did the endless void show you that? Did meditation begin to happen outside of you and time?

@Leo GuraRecently I've been getting the impression that reality is happening in multiples simultaneously. Is that just the mind playing it's tricks or could there be some truth to that on some level? Any thoughts either way on that from what you have experienced?

@Barna Mind has no safe environment.

@abrakamowse I did a total surrender when it happened. I let it all go and just put total faith behind it. Scary shit man! I never experienced ANYTHING like that before. Everybody is different but I don't know if I could have gone to work the next day. Good thing I didn't have to. *I wasn't feeling quite myself. haha BTW-that list is Leo's I think your referring to. From his steps to enlightenment discussion at the top of the forum. All good stuff there. If I could suggest, try his 60 minute exercise on being empty awareness. If that don't get it going, nothing will.

@abrakamowse My first no-self experience was that awareness had no location. The ego self "me" felt like a friggin ghost floating in reality. That was crazy for sure. There is nothing like your first experience. Call me Casper.

@Barna Hi Barna. If I may say, you don't need to find something to help you. Rather you need to lose something. And that something you need to lose you may consider your most valuable possession in this world. Could you do that? You say b-beats didn't have much effect on you. Nothing will really do it for you unless your totally ready to surrender. Otherwise your just kidding yourself. Awaken from the dream of self this moment. Just let it go! Only you can do that! Think of it this way. What you may consider "you" is like a shell that needs to crack wide open. And however much you hold on to the illusion of you is how hard the shell will be to crack out of. It really is that simple.

@Earnothing You may have seen this already but here it is in case you haven't. You could spend a day or better inquiring just one question. Best Self-Observation Questions: What am I? No, seriously now... WHAT THE FUCK AM I????? No, cut the shit! What am I -- RIGHT NOW -- in my direct experience???? Who is aware of reality? Who is aware of me? Who is perceiving? Who is the owner of the body? Who is the owner of the mind? Who is feeling pain? Who is asking all these questions? What was I before I was born? What am I when I'm in deep sleep? What could I be if I'm not the human body/mind? What connects and unifies all of my different senses? What is true independent of ever-changing sense experience? Why do I believe I'm the body? Why do I believe I'm the mind? Where to do thoughts arise from? If I'm the body, what is everything else that I'm seeing? Why do I trust my feeling that I'm the body? Is a feeling really evidence of TRUTH? Why must I be an object? What if the "perciever" has no attributes or properties? When I close my eyes, where did the world disappear to? Where is sound occurring? Where are thoughts occurring? Where are body sensations occurring? What is the relationship between physical body sensations and my visual field? What if I don't exist? What if I can't locate myself because I am "empty" or without form or attribute? What if I'm addicted to looking only for objects or perceptions, but my true nature is neither of those? What if I'm just an idea? What if my entire paradigm of physical reality is just an idea? Could my body and brain just be ideas? Is any physical object actually permanent according to direct experience? What distinguishes one object from another? Do boundaries between things really exist, or are they ideas? What would happen if I stopped distinguishing existence from non-existence?

@Earnothing There is no "one size fits all" in this work so experiment a little and see what works for you. When you hit on something, because it is a hit or miss thing, stick with it. Leo put together a nice list of self -inquiry questions somewhere here on the forum too. If I find it I'll send it your way.

@Earnothing It sounds like your on the right track! The only advise I can give you is don't put too much emphasis on trying to repeat the experience. It could keep you from it. If it happens, it happens is the best attitude to take.

@Will Bigger Tao Te Ching It isn't aware of it's greatness therefore it is truly great