Hello world

I read a previous post here about being a 25 year old virgin and could relate and thought I’d share my own story. I am a 38 year old virgin living alone on government handouts with no friends. I have never never kissed a girl or held hands with one. I am suicidal and have been battling an endless battle with depression that I am about to lose. Before you say this is fake know that this is true and I am NOT lying. This is my life. People like me exist. Person who posted about being a 25 year old virgin I am sorry and hope you do not get to this point. Live your live and succeed friend. I am poor with very little savings that I get from the government. I have been unemployed for more than a decade. My apartment is a mess and I eat pasta or microwave or canned meals for food. I have ruined my life and am an incel. Not every incel is bad. I am a loving person but lack love and hate my life. Every one when they reach my age is married has a stable life with some money and friends and has sex with many people multiple times and are happy. I want to be in a relationship. I am not happy. Nobody loves me. Nobody cares. I want to feel a woman’s touch and her body and be loved by one. I am going to lose this battle and people like me end up killing themselves. I am a loser and a 38 year old virgin who is suicidal.

@CameronsExploring @lmfao @PepperBlossoms @Breakingthewall @khalifa Thanks so much friends. @lmfao @Yeah Yeahfeel for you, don’t get to my point. You have a life to live. I have come to the point of ending my life again after my attempt. Life is impossible and excruciatingly painful. I need to be free of this misery so I have come to this decision. Maybe in the next life I won’t be one. I am a suicidal 38 year old incel. I wanted a woman to love me. Everyone my age is married with a happy family. I am isolated in poverty. I failed at personal development. I failed at saving myself. I want to kill myself. My never ending struggle. Death is imaginary after all. I needed to end my pain. Appreciate every one of you who replied. I am sorry for letting you all down.

@bejapuskas Nothing seems possible because I have lost all hope. The closest perceivable goal is to stop being an incel and find a women and stop living in poverty and stop being isolated and suicidal. I have no social or female contact and am a 38 year old kiss less virgin @Flim @Applegarden8 thanks for caring friends. I don’t believe in me @Florian I am living in poverty and cannot afford a gym membership Thanks so much for caring friends. God bless

@Florian @bobbyward I cannot afford escorts or the gym. I am falling. This feels impossible

@Zeroguy @Emotionalmosquito thanks for caring. I cannot access MDMA or ketamine. I cannot afford it anyway

@Federico del pueblo I need a release and this is me documenting my life. People like me exist. Not all incels are bad. We shouldn’t be forgotten

@Federico del pueblo It was getting worse before the attempt and after it everything became much worse. I am rock bottom. I just cannot. There is too much pain. At my age I cannot I have lost all hope. It’s impossible. The pain is unbearably bad. I lost my hope

@charlie cho I cannot. I am in pain. I’m a 38 year old virgin incel at my age. It’s my only way out

Suicide is my only way out. I will try it again properly

Thanks for caring @LordFall @Blackhawk @Federico del pueblo I cannot afford anything. I have no choice but to commit suicide. I have no life and no future. I cannot bear the pain. I am suicidal. It is too much

Thanks @flyingwhalee @Eternity @Blackhawk @Waken @Max8 @Barbara I failed to kill myself. I am significantly worse. I am not going to make it

Days got much worse the past days and I attempted suicide yesterday. Thanks @Raze @Huz @Flint @kamwalker @Matt23 @Jacob Morres @PepperBlossoms @Yeah Yeah @kelli

@Leo GuraThanks so much Leo and @Seed I am grateful. I don’t believe I will make it that far and reach 60. I think I will commit suicide much earlier because of the pain. The spirituality is probably too advanced for me when I can’t get the basics right

@flowboy thanks for the video. I am watching it now. It’s not fair. I did try @Barbara it pains me to get to this point and to have to call a suicide hotline. I don’t believe I matter because someone would love me if I did. The pain is so bad. I hate myself @TripleFly @Seed thanks for the encouragement.

I am in pain @BlackMaze thanks for caring. Everyone my age is loved by someone

@Barbara @nistake I am working too recognize the idea is bad but I can’t do it. I can’t do it. I am not in the right place or welcomed by anyone in society. I would be happy if I weren’t a virgin and loved by someone. I would. I hate my life guys. I hate my life. I want to kill myself to end my pain. Society and the entire world rejected me. I am depressed. I’m in pain. I wish I was dead.

Thanks so much for caring friends. Grateful for all your support @Tudo I can’t afford to buy a car to drive with Uber or go to an escort. I’m not able to afford it. @mandyjw sorry for forgetting to tag you previously @Barbara @Knowledge Hoarder I called the suicide hotline today thanks. My life is already ruined so committing suicide would end my pain. @Nahm Thanks for summarizing friend. You sounded very spiritual before. It is hard to change my beliefs but I am currently trying. @Barbara Thanks. But getting a woman to love me is impossible for me. I have been rejected and mocked many times by girls I liked. I am at the bottom of the food chain. Everyone else has normal lives and aren’t virgins at my age. I want to be loved by someone @Bob Seeker I will look into him @Leo Gura Thanks for the plan Leo and for the advice. We are close to the same age. It feels impossible but you said it’s doable for me. I will follow the baby steps. I want to be loved by someone Does everyone think I am a loser being at the point I am now? @Jacob Morres @Husseinisdoingfine @Regan@hoodrow trillson Thanks. Means so much to me. Not all incels are bad

I am close to killing myself

Yes it will and I posted to share my story after reading a similar one and to vent and with the hopes of someone who could help save me

I don’t know if you guys can imagine the pain of being in my situation at the age I have reached

@flowboy @Nahm @Barbara Thanks a lot friends. I will watch the videos for sure and try to follow the plan. @Nahm you sound very spiritual I want to be like you one day. I don’t understand much about what you said it’s too advanced for me but thanks for the the advice. @flowboy I haven’t committed suicide yet but I am dangerously close now and without any hope. I am alone in my apartment with no social contact yet alone from any women. I am dragging myself through each day suffering. But I will try. @Barbara love is dependent on external conditions at least for an incel like me who’s a kissless virgin at the age I have reached. Everyone my age is happy and loved in relationships and not an outcast and with stable lives. Look at @Leo Gura he’s so rich and successful at 36 and loved by everyone. I wish I was like him or alone with normal happy lives. I am unloved and an alone incel living in poverty. I haven’t even held a woman’s hand before

@Spideymon77 @Tudo @flowboy @Nahm @Barbara Thanks for caring. I can’t love myself if my external situation is so bad. I hate myself to the highest degree. I am a worthless loser. Everyone thinks it. How tragic my life is

Thanks guys. Just know that not all incels or people my age are crazy cruel people. I am a good person but I am seriously struggling and to the point of suicide now. Everyone my age has succeeded. I am left behind. Call me bitter or resentful but I am a good person just seriously broken