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@CameronsExploring @lmfao @PepperBlossoms @Breakingthewall @khalifa Thanks so much friends. @lmfao @Yeah Yeahfeel for you, don’t get to my point. You have a life to live. I have come to the point of ending my life again after my attempt. Life is impossible and excruciatingly painful. I need to be free of this misery so I have come to this decision. Maybe in the next life I won’t be one. I am a suicidal 38 year old incel. I wanted a woman to love me. Everyone my age is married with a happy family. I am isolated in poverty. I failed at personal development. I failed at saving myself. I want to kill myself. My never ending struggle. Death is imaginary after all. I needed to end my pain. Appreciate every one of you who replied. I am sorry for letting you all down.

@bejapuskas Nothing seems possible because I have lost all hope. The closest perceivable goal is to stop being an incel and find a women and stop living in poverty and stop being isolated and suicidal. I have no social or female contact and am a 38 year old kiss less virgin @Flim @Applegarden8 thanks for caring friends. I don’t believe in me @Florian I am living in poverty and cannot afford a gym membership Thanks so much for caring friends. God bless

@Florian @bobbyward I cannot afford escorts or the gym. I am falling. This feels impossible

@Zeroguy @Emotionalmosquito thanks for caring. I cannot access MDMA or ketamine. I cannot afford it anyway

@Federico del pueblo I need a release and this is me documenting my life. People like me exist. Not all incels are bad. We shouldn’t be forgotten

@Federico del pueblo It was getting worse before the attempt and after it everything became much worse. I am rock bottom. I just cannot. There is too much pain. At my age I cannot I have lost all hope. It’s impossible. The pain is unbearably bad. I lost my hope

@charlie cho I cannot. I am in pain. I’m a 38 year old virgin incel at my age. It’s my only way out

Suicide is my only way out. I will try it again properly

Thanks for caring @LordFall @Blackhawk @Federico del pueblo I cannot afford anything. I have no choice but to commit suicide. I have no life and no future. I cannot bear the pain. I am suicidal. It is too much

Thanks @flyingwhalee @Eternity @Blackhawk @Waken @Max8 @Barbara I failed to kill myself. I am significantly worse. I am not going to make it

Days got much worse the past days and I attempted suicide yesterday. Thanks @Raze @Huz @Flint @kamwalker @Matt23 @Jacob Morres @PepperBlossoms @Yeah Yeah @kelli

@Leo GuraThanks so much Leo and @Seed I am grateful. I don’t believe I will make it that far and reach 60. I think I will commit suicide much earlier because of the pain. The spirituality is probably too advanced for me when I can’t get the basics right

@flowboy thanks for the video. I am watching it now. It’s not fair. I did try @Barbara it pains me to get to this point and to have to call a suicide hotline. I don’t believe I matter because someone would love me if I did. The pain is so bad. I hate myself @TripleFly @Seed thanks for the encouragement.

I am in pain @BlackMaze thanks for caring. Everyone my age is loved by someone

@Barbara @nistake I am working too recognize the idea is bad but I can’t do it. I can’t do it. I am not in the right place or welcomed by anyone in society. I would be happy if I weren’t a virgin and loved by someone. I would. I hate my life guys. I hate my life. I want to kill myself to end my pain. Society and the entire world rejected me. I am depressed. I’m in pain. I wish I was dead.