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He wants to earn his independence by creating a YouTube channel. He genuinely wants to be a massive value provider. But he has an "ADHD" type of mind, leaving him unable to retain the information he reads or studies. He's unable to articulate understanding. He has mental health issues due to childhood trauma — the tremendous lack of love he didn't receive in early childhood is debilitating. He grew up in poverty with a violent, alcoholic father and a cold, depressed mother. He realizes that he has mental health issues that could be cured only through spirituality. He gets to work. He starts to read books. He struggles to focus but he pushes through anyway. As the future is uncertain, he has no idea where he'll end up — but he continues to be vigilant and persistent.

Hello. I'd like to share with you the most delinquent tips for overcoming any type of addiction. But first, I wanna give many thanks to @Leo Gura — he made a video on the staggering depth of awareness, and I used it to my own benefit, just like a selfish person would do. See, life is all about being aware — even Leonardo da Vinci has a marvelous quote about the potentness of awareness: "An average human looks without seeing, listens without hearing, touches without feeling, eats without tasting, moves without physical awareness, inhales without awareness of odor or fragrance, and talks without thinking." As I kept my awareness ongoing, I realized so many things about my body — the incessant stream of thoughts that I was having, my positive and negative emotions, and my cravings and impulses that were generated by a vague image that appeared in my mind. The more you stay consciously aware, the soberer you become and the more clarity of mind you experience. I didn't try to refrain from eating junk food — I continued to eat unhealthy food but I was aware of what I was doing. And it wasn't only a few seconds of awareness; I had to remain aware the whole time I was consuming sugar, for example. At some point, I become so aware of the dysfunctional behavior that anytime I look at junk food, a feeling of disgust towards it manifested inside me. The bizarre thing is that even if I were to force myself to eat sh*tty foods, I couldn't — I consciously and unconsciously have an aversion to it. To overcome any addictive pattern, just be highly aware of the unwanted behavior and you will notice that in a year or two you will no longer have cravings. You'd rather avoid it because it will make you sick. The cornerstone of growth is your conscious awareness — a new dimension of experience that takes care of any so-called problem you have. It's never about force but rather about the depth of your awareness.

@Leo Gura, I've found your YouTube channel in 2018. Since then, I'm meditating on a daily basis — my consciousness has increased exponentially. Back then, I had no idea about the dark side of meditation; I blindly started to meditate. It was out of foolishness and enthusiasm at the same time. After a year and a half of meditation and mindfulness inquiries, I plunged into "The Dark Night of the Soul." It was so scary that I didn't know or had no idea if I'll make it through — that was dark man. But somehow, after two months of being patient, without suppressing my awful moods, I started to feel better. And now, when I look back, I laugh so hard because I no longer have a false sense of identity. I only have egoic leftovers. It was due to you that I've become interested in spirituality, and for that, I'll be eternally grateful to you. 1. Less suffering. 2. No more junk food — just a little from time to time so I won't harm my body. 3. I'm a lot more confident. 4. I let go — daily — of anything constraining. 5. I'll soon be enlightened, meaning that I'll be able to lock the enlightened state as long as I'm alive. 6. I can stay present for hours, effortlessly. 7. I don't take everything too seriously; the present moment itself is a joyful experience. 8. I'm no longer nihilistic. I'm falling in love with reality. Thanks, Leo!

Thanks for asking.

Sometimes I'm feeling self-conscious, especially when I'm talking to people — I have the impression that what I'm saying is wrong or weird. Or when my girlfriend calls me, I'm at a loss for words due to the awful feeling of self-consciousness; I just don't know what to say or how to get out of that tense situation. Although I'm confident enough because I've been meditating for the past four years, I have egoic leftovers that are pretty strong when they get triggered or activated. I've done my homework in terms of consciousness work. I'm aware of anything that happens inside my own mind or aware of the feelings that I'm experiencing at a particular moment. In the past, I've had severe social anxiety, but right now I'm pretty much okay — the only thing that I need to overcome is my self-consciousness and my slightly awkward moments when I talk to people. To offer some context, I grew up in a dysfunctional family — my father was absent, violent and an alcoholic and my mother was depressed and emotionally distant. I grew up in poverty. I really wanna fix my impostor syndrome issue. Do you have any tips for that?

Thank you! It makes sense, and now I have a clear understanding of my self-consciousness issue. Why didn't I know this? And my social anxiety issue. Can you help me understand it?

@Yarco, I think I have impostor syndrome. Sometimes I'm feeling self-conscious, especially when I'm talking to people — I have the impression that what I'm saying is wrong or weird. Or when my girlfriend calls me, I'm at a loss for words due to the awful feeling of self-consciousness; I just don't know what to say or how to get out of that tense situation. Although I'm confident enough because I've been meditating for the past four years, I have egoic leftovers that are pretty strong when they get triggered or activated. I've done my homework in terms of consciousness work. I'm aware of anything that happens inside my own mind or aware of the feelings that I'm experiencing at a particular moment. In the past, I've had severe social anxiety, but right now I'm pretty much okay — the only thing that I need to overcome is my self-consciousness and my slightly awkward moments when I talk to people. To offer you some context, I grew up in a dysfunctional family — my father was absent, violent and an alcoholic and my mother was depressed and emotionally distant. I grew up in poverty. I really wanna fix my impostor syndrome issue. Do you have any tips for that? Thank you!

I'm doing that and it works — that you for offering me an illuminating perspective.

I don't have a need to change her — I never attempted that.

She likes to talk about her day and the things that are happening in her family. You know... mundane stuff. What can I do to get her interested in what I have to say? Is there a possibility?

Hello. I was drinking alcohol with a friend, and I still couldn't be relaxed. I was neurotic, and I wasn't able to make eye contact properly. Despite drinking alcohol, I still was self-conscious. Not even alcohol can put me at ease. Damn! Is there any solution to my self-consciousness problem?

Hello. I was watching one of @Leo Gura's videos about God — he mentioned that infinite consciousness has accepted itself and the nature of its being. Last night I had an insight into the nature of reality: total acceptance must be ensured for a happy life. Unless I'm working on my mind's kernel to accept existence as it is, I can not be happy. Infinite consciousness is indeed epic, as @Leo Gura says, but the fact that it's eternal, is that a good thing? Is it acceptable? And why isn't infinite consciousness intolerable? I AM is the profound realization and it can scare the sh*t out of you.

Okay, that's fair. But I have the need of understanding female sexuality. Are women more sexual than men in terms of needs and instincts? Who is more driven to have sex? A man or a woman? From a hormonal standpoint, a man has a bigger drive for sex, right?

How about a woman, @Leo Gura? Does she require "jerking off?" Or a woman is not like a man, meaning that she doesn't need to have sex as often as a man.

Hello. I've recently seen an Instagram video with Elon Musk, where he talks about the rapid decline of birth rates. We're no longer reproducing ourselves — we don't replace ourselves. He also talks about the consequences of low birth rates; it will lead to a civilizational collapse and thereafter, a long dark age period. Here's the link: https://www.instagram.com/p/CXRiAtSh0e0/ Many people believe that there are too many people on the planet. That's wrong! It takes a lot of good engineers, doctors, scientists, and other people with practical skills to maintain a technological civilization. We're 7 billion people on the planet and just a small percentage of them have impeccable skills. It is extremely hard to master an essential domain. And if you don't have enough people, there's no stimulation of the economy and any other aspect of a functional civilization.

God comforts Himself by surrendering Himself to Himself. Enough said.

He was trolling Bernie.

Sure. He is that. He is the problem. He is the bla bla bla. In the meantime, what are you doing for the betterment of humanity?

Elon Musk is from Africa. He does a great job for humanity.

We're doing that a lot. That's why the West represents the greatest civilization in human history. Elon Musk is from Africa. We've allowed tens of millions of people to migrate into our Western hemisphere. We're helping a lot of people. As for Elon Musk, he is a man with common sense — I can't help myself but be grateful to Elon for everything he has done for humanity.

I'm also a virgin and I don't feel bad about it. I'm 29 years old by the way. It can be a problem only if you crave a woman. Other than that, it's alright.

You're awesome, Leo! Thank you! I also suffer from crippling social anxiety. I'll do something about it, soon.

I also find it hard to retain information. I read a page and I have no idea what I've been reading. I can not recall that information properly. I've been meditating for about three years now and I take this practice seriously. I stay present for a few hours a day but it's an intense struggle. The only problem is that the mind wanders off at its own pace, even when I read; I find myself thinking about something else without me being the one who has caused the thinking. I'm also socially anxious and awkward at the same time. Although I like to write a lot, how am I going to beat the competition with such obstacles in the way? It feels like everything that I'm doing leads to no progress and that it is in vain. I was growing up in a chaotic environment, without love and emotional support. I was rejected by my parents. My mother was depressed, absent, and cold, and my father was violent and an alcoholic. The human brain, especially the hippocampus, can not develop properly in a chaotic environment. I was thinking about reading a quote and recalling it a thousand times. Then, after I do that, I go to the next one — and so on and so on, until my working memory is starting to work properly. Although I'm a hard worker and like to read and write a lot, how am I going to beat @Leo Gura, for example, at articulating understanding? Or other people that don't have an ADHD problem. I need to work ten times harder and still not get the same results.

Hello. After doing some research, I've learned a lot about the Rittenhouse Trial. "Kyle Rittenhouse, 17," declared the Milwaukee Journal Sentinel "was not old enough to legally carry the assault-style rifle he had." Just stating it as fact. And then the entire national media followed suit and told us the same thing. The problem was it was a lie. In fact, under Wisconsin law, which apparently no one in any newsroom in America had even bothered to check, 17-year-olds are allowed to carry rifles as long as their barrels meet a minimum length requirement, and Kyle Rittenhouse’s rifle met that requirement. So no, Kyle Rittenhouse did not violate Wisconsin's gun laws. Today, even the prosecution at the trial was forced to admit that. And so immediately, the judge dismissed the firearms charge. Oh, well, that couldn't be clearer. The prosecution is admitting in open court that it was legal. He had not committed a gun crime, and that means that for more than a year, Big Tech and its lackeys throughout our media have spread misinformation about Kyle Rittenhouse. Well, that's embarrassing. What are they going to say? Well, they're not going to admit it, Of course. They're going to make certain you don't learn about it. Just minutes after the judge in the case dismissed the gun charge. YouTube, which is owned by Google, censored the video streams of several independent legal experts who were commenting on the trial in real-time. These were knowledgeable attorneys, many of whom were critical of the obvious weaknesses in the prosecution's case. Now, hundreds of people were watching those streams. At the moment they were canceled, but over concern that Americans might conclude that Kyle Rittenhouse is innocent, YouTube shut them down, citing policy violations. In other words, God forbid! — people think for themselves. That's not allowed anymore.

Hello. I've been battling social anxiety my whole life, not to mention that I'm feeling intensely awkward when I interact with other people. Where do social anxiety and awkwardness come from? Although I'm meditating on a daily basis for the past three years, I still don't understand the root cause of it. It is highly probable that I'm creating it — when I'm about to meet with people, I begin to feel nervous two hours before the meeting. And when I interact, I'm so anxious; my heart is beating and my awkwardness amplifies. It is a feeling that is taking over me, despite the fact that I'm fully conscious of it — I see it clearly behind the back of my mind and I feel it strongly in my stomach area. Maybe I'm making irrational judgments that I'm not good enough at socializing and that I'll be perceived as being weird. I'm also overthinking everything and planning what I'm about to say in advance. I had a turbulent childhood. Trauma, alcohol in the family, and a cold, depressed mother. It is difficult to see how I'm generating anxious feelings, including awkwardness. Or maybe I'm not responsible for those feeling while they get triggered by themselves? Perhaps they have their own autonomy and inertia. Or when I see a girl that I like strongly, I'm getting a lot of anxiety in my stomach area. Why? I think it is because I have an intense fear of being rejected. I would like your thoughts on this — I have to explore multiple perspectives. Thank you!