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Testorone. Jk. Idk for myself for sure, but I think to it's to be happy with yourself and your existence and life in general.

Damn, this part really hit hard home for me. Recognized a large part of my own self-survival, self-evaluation, self-worth , and approval mechanism for my own self in it which I have never really tried to honestly explain, introspectively question, face up to and wonder why it's there and what purpose does it serve me in the first place or why do I get enjoyment from it in the first place, trace the origin to and clarify it for myself why do I need it, use it and why do identify with such an image of myself by using that type of humor to maintain unconsciously for myself that part of myself which I have a strong identification with the way you did just now through summarizing it in words in a report form and self-introspection. Thank you for your radical self-honesty and openness to others here regarding that here, it helped me as well by providing me with a major insight into it, so I appreciate it very much for providing that insight into it which can help me to deal with and tackle this self-gratifying habit of mein as well. Thanks for sharing the way you beautifully and succinctly summarized your trip report and the openness you shared with other people here whom it might help in dealing with their own shadows.

Interesting and educational brief, non-time consuming introduction into the communication of some of the basic, fundamental aspects of those ideas and their reprogramming and paradigmatical shifting intent. Thanks for sharing it here, although I must say I was getting heavy stage Green utopic energy and vibes while watching through and listening through the whole thing - with some '60s and 70's hippie idealism with the whole aesthetic presentation and in the style of how the whole affair was presented and communicated to the audience I don't mean this in a derogatory sense since the ideas they were aiming to present and communicate were done pretty understandably and straightforwardly for anyone new to this theoretical concept of the 'Game type in human affairs and perception' watching it the first time.

Is this your lion? Last known photo of a Barbary Lion (i.e. Atlas i.e. Nubian Lion) (now officially extinct in the wild when the last one was supposedly shot and killed in 1942 though there were several unconfirmed reported sightings by Algerian communities of this breed of lion in the wild up until 1964) live in the wild was taken in the Atlas Mountains near Morocco in the Sahara in 1925 by a French explorer and photographer Marcelin Flaunders.

Just discovered an interesting folk religion, via a Canadian scientist, scholar, and specialist on the history of Indo-Iranian civilizations and religions named Richard Foltz, who wrote about it in his recently published scholarly book in 2021 about the history and culture of the Ossetian peoples in the Caucasus called The Ossetes: The Modern Day Scythians of the Caucasus, the Scythians, of course, referring to the famous group of migratory nomadic tribes that ancient Greek historians gave a collective term for after the ancient Greek term 'Skuthoi' meaning 'Archer' or 'Archers' and wrote extensively about during the time they once occupied the Eurasian steppes in the first millennium BC and implying that modern-day Ossetians have a direct ancestral lineage to one of those groups of Scythian nomadic tribes, namely the Sarmatians, better known in history as Alans (i.e. 'Aryans' or the i.e. 'Iranians') genetically wise and through the retainment of the culture, religions and folk practices of those ancient nomadic peoples that inhabited those areas. It is called 'Assianism' meaning the religion of the "As" or "Os"—an ancient name of the Alans, from which the Greeks drew, Foltz says, the name of "Asia", which is preserved in the Russian and Georgian-derived name "Ossetians", that started to be revived in a conscious and organized way in the 1980s, as an ethnic religion among the Ossetians. Its collection of 'holy writings' that it draws its inspiration from are called the 'Nart Sagas' which are a series of tales that form much of the basic mythology of the folklore of ethnic groups in the North Caucasus including the Abkhazians, Circassians, and to some extent the Chechens and the Ingush, the author Richard Foltz defines them as a ''"typical Indo-European heroic epic". Despite claims to antiquity, categorizes it and analyzes it in the framework of it being part of 'new religious movement' phenomena and terms it as being a kind of 'Scythian Neo-paganism' but immediately notifies the reader that he uses the term 'neo-paganism' to classify it and describe it for the purposes of the practicality of scholarly work and scientific research in religious studies since he warns in advance that: ''the adherents of Assianism object to the use of the term "Paganism" to refer to their religion, such term having strong derogatory connotations in Ossetian language and being still used by Christians and Muslims to ridicule traditional Ossetian beliefs and practices.'' Foltz, Richard (2020). "The Rekom Shrine in North Ossetia-Alania and its Annual Ceremony". Iran and the Caucasus. Brill. 24 (1): p. 42. note 2. To the extent that the culture and practices of most well-known and famous peoples among the group of Scythian nomadic tribes in Western European History the 'Alans', to whom the modern-day Ossetians are the sole existing and still surviving modern population that can the most claim direct descendency from in terms of keeping their cultural and linguistical lineage mostly intact and preserving beliefs and rituals likely dating back to times of their Scythian religion, impacted the development of culture and civilization of early Western medieval Europe, Foltz details: ''Allied with the Germanic Goths, the Alans penetrated west into France, Italy, Spain, and other territories under the Roman Empire. The Romans tried to manage the threat by hiring them as mercenaries in the cavalry, or, particularly in France, by buying them off as landed gentry. Many toponyms in France, such as Alainville, Alaincourt, Alençon, and others, testify that they were territorial possessions of Alan families. Alan equestrian culture formed the basis of Medieval chivalry, and in general Alan, culture had a significant role—though rarely recognized—in the development of Western European culture.'' and also according to Foltz and the Russian author Shizhensky: [the Scythians] ''widely worshipped [chief among their lesser deities, which in some cases were later adaptations of the names of Christian saints, whose original Scythian names of the deities were not kept, Uastyrdzhi (whose name derives from "Saint George"), the god of contracts and war (the Iranian Mithra), but also the general archetype of men and of disadvantaged people] through altars in the form of a sword planted in a pile of stones or brushwood, a cult perhaps reflected in the Arthurian legend of the sword in the stone, likely brought to Britain by Alan regiments settled there by the Romans in the first century. The cult of the sword continued among the Alans as late as the first century CE.'' Foltz, Richard (2019). "Scythian Neo-Paganism in the Caucasus: The Ossetian Uatsdin as a 'Nature Religion'". Journal for the Study of Religion, Nature, and Culture. 13 (3): p. 315. and pp. 318. - 320. ''The most important symbol in Assianism, according to the Dzuary Lægtæ ("Holy Men"), is the Uatsamongzh (Уацамонгж) or Uatsamonga (Уацамонга), a bowl, goblet or cup mentioned in the Ossetian Nart epics whose name means "indicating (amongzh) truth (uats)" or "revelator of divinity". It is a symbol of truth representing the inverted vault of the sky, which can saturate the worthy ones (the hero of the Nart epics) with unearthly knowledge. The origins of this symbol go back to the earliest Indo-Europeans and it is also present in later Celtic and Germanic cultures. In medieval Western European legends, the magic chalice took the Christianised form of the Holy Grail.'' But to get to the point here is the most interesting thing I found about this 'neo-paganist' Ossetian folk religion, is the Assian theo-cosmology which their leaders themselves define as being based around a form of 'pantheism' and 'non-dualism', it's tenants are as follows: ''Assianism contemplates the worship of a supreme God, Xwytsau (Хуыцау), who is the creator of the universe and of all beings and is the universe itself, or the universe is "the body of God", comprising both the immanent material world of the living and the transcendent spiritual world of God, where the dead make a return. It has "no tangible, personal qualities, nor extension in space and time", and it is pure light. The transcendent spiritual dimension of God is the "World of Light" (Рухс Дун, Rukhs Dun) or "True World" (Æцæг Дун, Ætsæg Dun), while the immanent material dimension of life is the "Illusory World" (Мжнг Дун, Mæng Dun). The supreme God may be called upon by a multiplicity of epithets, including simply "Styr Xwytsau" (Стыр Хуыцау), meaning "Great God", but also "Duneskænæg" (Дунескæнæг), "Creator of the Universe", "Meskænæg Xwytsau" (Мескаенаег Хуыцау) and "Xwytsauty Xwytsau" (Хуыцаутты Хуыцау), meaning "God of the Gods". Assian theology affirms that God is within every creature, is "the head of everything", and in men, it manifests as reason, measure, and righteousness (bar).'' Schmitz, Timo (2015). "Etseg Din – Caucasian paganism from Ossetia" pp. 1-2 ''God and its triune manifestations: The supreme God unfolds in triads. The fundamental triad is that of God–matter–spirit: Xwytsau / Xuitsau (Хуыцау, "Heaven") — is the supreme God of the universe, the source of it and of the highest wisdom attainable by men, creator, and patron of worlds, without either image or form, ineffable and omnipresent; Iuag (Иуаг) or Iuæg (Иуæг) — is the substance-matter of everything, both uncreated and created worlds; Ud (Уд) — is the universal self, that is attained by an individual soul when it identifies with Mon (Мон), the universal mind-spirit, i.e. God's manifestation; ultimately, Mon and Ud are the same, and they are Xwytsau's manifestations. On the plane of the phenomenon, God's universal mind-spirit further manifests as the triad of: Uas (Уас = "Truth", "Good Word") or Ard (Ард = "Right", "Law") — the order of God, which produces well-being in reality; Uastyrdzhi (Уастырджи) — the good-spell incarnated in men, who are bearers of divine reason, enlightened consciousnesses, awareness of God; in other words, Uastyrdzhi is the archetype of the perfected man, follower of the order of God, and is the mediator of all other deities; Duagi (дуаги; pl. дауджытæ / дауджита → daudzhytæ / daudzhita) or duag (дуаг) and barduag (бардуаг) — gods, deities, forces which continuously mold the world alternating forms according to the order of God; the most important among them are the arvon daudzhita (арвон дауджита), the seven deities of the seven planets. Another distinction is established between the three cosmological states of:[39][40] Zedy (зэды, pl. задтæ → zadtæ) or zhad (жад) — tutelary forces, generative deities, which accompany the birth and development of beings according to the order of God; Uayugi (уайуги, pl. уайгуытæ / уайгуыта → uayguytæ / uayguyta) or uayug (уайуг) — destructive forces which violate the order of God and distance from light; in mankind they are the cause of passions, fears, pride, and nervous diseases; Dalimon (далимон) — the lowest possible state of mind when it identifies with the brute matter, chaos; its meaning is "lower (dali) spirit (mon)" and is also a category comprising all terrestrial unclear entities, contrasted with ualimon (уалимон), "upper (uali) spirit (mon)", which comprises all celestial clear entities.'' Shizhensky 2018a, pp. 130–131. ''According to Assian doctrines, human nature is the same as the nature of all being. Mankind is a microcosm within a macrocosm, or broader context, and the same is true for all other beings. The universe is kept in harmony by Uas or Ard, the order of God, the foundation of divine reason, measure, and righteousness (bar). The deities (daudzhita or ualimon) form the world according to this universal law, while demons (uayguyta or dalimon) are those entities which act disrupting the good contexts of the deities, and are the causes of illness and death. Every entity is governed "by it itself" within its own sphere of responsibility; God and its order are not seen as an external force of coercion. These positive and negative forces also influence humanity's consciousness: A man may take the side of either deities or demons, and this choice will shape this man's life and action. If a man is able to subdue passions, not putting exclusively egoistic material motives in his actions, he becomes open to the Uas, or its receptacle (уасдан, uasdan; good-spell receptacle), a wise noble who perceives the order of God and higher spirits and receives their energy, acting like them by producing good, truth and beauty. On the contrary, if a man's actions are driven by egoistic material ends, Dalimon and demons own him and he becomes a source of evil, lies, and ugliness. In the words of Khetag Morgoyev, mankind is endowed with the free will to choose between good and evil, deities and demons.'' Shizhensky 2018a, p. 130. ''The "Three Tears of God" (Trislezi Boga), a symbol representing Assian theology and three most important Ossetian shrines, was first "perceived" and drawn by the architect and painter Slava Dzhanaïty, and has become the most common symbol of the faith, "seen everywhere throughout North and South Ossetia on t-shirts, car stickers, and advertisements". Within the three "tears" of Dzhanaïty's symbol there are three equilateral crosses; "cross" is said dzuar in Ossetian, the same term for the manifestation of divinity. The three most important Ossetian shrines that the symbol represents are the Rekom Temple, the Mykalygabyrtæ Temple to the southeast of Rekom, and the Tarandzhelos Temple located south of Mount Kazbek in Georgia.'' Foltz, Richard (2019). "Scythian Neo-Paganism in the Caucasus: The Ossetian Uatsdin as a 'Nature Religion''' pp. 328-330 So what do you guys think is this just an attempt to revive, reinvent, or reconstruct a traditional basis for Ossetian nationalism and its traditional national folk religion, that survived through the millennia and centuries in the culture of their folk practices, through a 'new religious movement' that gained traction and became popular again in the 1980s and that bears strong resemblances and similarities to other 'neo-paganist' ones around the world (including the Rodnovery one among the Slavs that refers to the movement of reviving, preserving and repopularizing the 'Slavic Native Faiths' - which is were this image of Russian Rodnover Ynglists in Omsk, Omsk Oblast practicing the Scythian ritual of the sword planted in brushwood is from), though according to, one of the researchers and scholars on this subject, the Canadian scholar and author Richard Foltz, that if that is the case then: ''the movement has become so widespread among the Ossetians that its success is "unrivalled" among all Neopagan religious movements. According to the 2012 Arena Atlas complement to the 2010 census of Russia, 29.4% of the population of North Ossetia (comprising Ossetians as well as ethnic Russians) were adherents of the Ossetian Pagan religion. Authorities of the religion itself claim that a large majority of over 55% of the ethnic Ossetians are adherents of the religion. Ruslan Kurchiev, president of the Styr Nykhas in 2019, prefers to define Assianism as a "culture" rather than a "religion", claiming that what it champions are rituals and values which are encapsulated in the Ossetian tradition. Similiarly representatives of the Dzuary Lægtæ ("Holy Men"), the council of the priests of the Ossetian sanctuaries, define Assianism, by citing the folklorist and ethnographer Soslan Temirkhanov, as "[...] a worldview [...] that arouses that holy spark that raises a person, illuminates and warms his soul, makes him strive for good and light, gives him courage and strength to fearlessly fight evil and vice, inspires him to self-sacrifice for the good of others". According to them, this Ossetian worldview is "not some form of perception abstracted from the material, productive activity, but on the contrary, it is interwoven and reflects all aspects of being, at the same time being the very basis of being, an ontological principle, which we can phenomenologically characterize as pantheism", a worldview characterized by "intertwining, interconnection, interdependence" which favors a natural "logical-conceptual type of thinking and discursive thinking". They articulate a historical critique of Christianisation: For them, Orthodox Christianity is an "alien religion" that "seeks to captivate and corrupt the souls of the conquered", and in Ossetia, it was spread by foreigners and by the tsarist autocracy through coercion, by police measures and by luring children and the poor with gifts, a process which led to the disintegration of families and to the ruin of farms. According to them, Islam spread among the Ossetians as an alternative to avoid forced Christianisation. The Russian Orthodox Church is for them a "socio-cultural and cultural-political problem" in Ossetia, as it has "neither knowledge of the peculiarities of Ossetia, nor interest in its culture, nor concern for its future. The movement of Scythian Assianism has attracted strong hostility and complaints from Christian and Islamic authorities. The Russian Orthodox archbishop Leonid in Moscow sought to silence Makeyev by trying to ban his books as "extremist literature", calling on his personal contacts when he was a general in the Federal Security Service. The Russian Orthodox Church has also been trying to have the Rekom Temple destroyed and a church built in its place, but without success so far.'' Foltz, Richard (2019). "Scythian Neo-Paganism in the Caucasus: The Ossetian Uatsdin as a 'Nature Religion''' p. 331 or is there some deeper spiritual non-dual teaching that can be derived from it from its seeming claim to stem from some sort of universal perennialism? Thanks to anyone who sets their personal energy and is interested and has the time to share their thoughts and views and engage with me in a discussion of this particular topic, question, and subject! As always much appreciated by me in advance

Iran's President Ebrahim Raisi had vowed to take revenge against Trump over Soleimani's killing. Iran released an animated video of former US President Donald Trump being targeted by a drone on a golf course. The video was showcased on Iran's supreme leader Ayatollah Ali Khamenei's official site. I found this animation video very funny and laughed, the Iranian leadership has a very dark sense of humor when they feel an injustice was committed against them out of vanity and selfish reasons and that nobody has been held responsible or accountable for it or that they have been adequately compensated for it out of the inflicted trauma and pain.

In short, as far as I saw, it had and realized the intended effects by: 1. pissing off the right people 2. caught their attention and reminded them in a short-term memory historical amnesia atmosphere 3. was really humorous and entertainingly eye-catchy in the way it managed to execute* (no pun intended ) ) doing all of the aforementioned things above.

But in all due seriousness props for them for twisting the knickers of the MAGA people in the comments below with this in their feeling like their selected leader is invulnerable to kill with impunity or sent by God to do so - by demonstrating to them and showing them they could do tit for tat - less privileged stage Blue pissing of the hypocrisy of a more privileged stage Red/Blue and even some Orange in the right straight to the point no bullsh#t way, as I interpreted this.

Inshallah! So be it!

I just wrote several critical Twitter comments via an Anon profile emotionally triggered regarding the celebration of the commemoration of the 30th anniversary of the founding of the Republic of Srpska entity within the Federation of Bosnia and Herzegovina, calling out the illegal and worrisome secessionist behavior displayed on the official military parade in Banja Luka with Serbian state and republic flags being waved there instead of only the standard tricolor Republic of Srpska entity ones and the seeming striking parallels with German fascist 20th-century ideology of the citizens of that entity being treated and behaving the same as the Volksdeutsche with their waving of Republic of Serbia state flags and being redefined in the same fashion as the German Nazi state-defined all Germans living outside of Germany without German citizenship as being ,,culturally, spiritually and ethnically German" - Volksdeutsche (Nazi term coined in 1938 by Hitler) instead of up until then defined Auslandsdeutsche (''Germans abroad'') - and therefore eligible for becoming German citizens and becoming part of the new German Reich - the Volksgemeinschaft established across German borders (in the case of the Serbian government propaganda in the media that's reffered inconspiciously with a seemingly neutral branding attempt of a dangerous, poisonus thought terminating cliche of an ideological construction ('Verbemittel' as the Germans called it) to as ''the Serbian World'' or the ''serbische Welt'') - and the Serbian state in the Republic of Serbia is now approaching in the similar fashion to these Bosnian Serbs in Federal Bosnia as almost not yet explicitly defining them as - Volksserbische in Bosnia and elsewhere - but agatiting on that basis of it being their true homeland and mother state for their violent secession and unification with the Republic of Serbia - these things are not explicitly advocated and forced but floated around as ideas oftenly in the media explicitly or implicitly by the Bosniak Serb leadership or Serbian leadership here until the time is right for forwarding them into a plan and the moment for their execution. I deleted those comments on a news portal where I got the news of the events that took place on the anniversary afterward in act one can say of cautious self-censorship when I am not ready yet to engage with people openly with this in public with well-refined arguments and intellectual clarity and also because I didn't want to pick a fight with some closeminded rando who would find me forwarding parallels to such a proposition outrageous and would proceed to do ethnic gatekeeping and ethnic purity tests and questioning my loyalty to ''my'' country and state (the same indistinguishable thing in these people's critically unquestioning and taken for granted minds when they use the same monolithic term state in their everyday discourse and conversation) for me holding such an opinion and views about these upcoming and development of events, needless to say afterward an hour after that Avast Anti-Virus Program issues me a warning that my internet IP is vulnerable to being watched and data collected from it by government agencies since I don't have a VPN program installed. So I am wondering if I can ask am I being too paranoid about this and if Avast somehow noticed that I deleted the comment so it on that basis recommended the VPN to me as a part of a marketing ploy or is there real suspicion when I wrote something like that, that a government agency can track my IP, data and my location in Belgrade, as Avast warned me that it was vulnerable to outside exposure and that I should get a VPN deal via Avast and get that PayPal account with my Bank via my debit credit card so I can pay for the monthly fees of the maintenance that service up and running together with the fees of maintaining my foreign debit Credit Card and PayPal account since its worth the monthly cost if it ensures the protection of the privacy that my IP and that isn't being monitored or tracked to protect the privacy of my IP location if I want to freely comment my opinions and comments online on some websites without the risk of being tracked by some agency. Thanks for anyone for the energy in giving me advice on resolving this possible issue and what should I take into account when considering this decision for getting a VPN and covering the monthly fees of its yearly subscriptions! Much appreciated!

Thanks for recommending that also, I will definitely check it out!

Watch: current sitting Kazakhstan President Tokayev forwards a very questionable claim to the other council chair Presidents and PMs at the CSTO members official meeting called up because of the Kazakhstan Jan. protests and political crisis that there were 20 000 terrorists including foreigners at the protest and among the protestors but that there wasn't any evidence found to prove that there were this many of them since their comrades probably snuck into Kazakh morgues and stole their bodies (supposedly to resurrect them later using the dark arts of necromancy, that the terrorists mastered, so they can raise more Zombie terrorists to plague the country in the Kazakh Jan 2022 Zombie terrorist outbreak): Take a note also at the puzzled opened eyes look at 0:18 mark of the clip that Armenian PM Pashinyan is also giving him as if to convey through facial expression: ''Did I just hear that right? Is this guy really saying what he is saying?'' and then right after in the video he proceeds to swiftly raise his eyebrow as if to say convey with that expression to other parties at the meeting: ''Are we really going with this explanation/excuse at the end guys, really?''

Yeah, thank you for the recommendation that it is worth the monthly price with the benefits you receive in internet privacy and security if you are worried that your activity might be monitored and your data collected. Thanks also for recommending to check up on some Reddit forums regarding some questions I might want to check up on before I decide to get my CreditCard up and running and get a VPN deal with some provider. I am less worried about Big Tech companies since I am not a US citizen collecting my data through and despite the VPN, then my own current government agencies spying and monitoring on my online activity, e-mails, etc. and collecting data my personal data online because of my political views regarding the current situation in the country and where it is potentially headed in me able to safely call out their fascist behavior and system where ever I am at.

I couldn't tell for certain if I answered honestly and self-introspected enough and brought out all the memories that were perhaps murky or repressed on all the questions regarding my perceived childhood relationships with my mother who passed away and my father, though I can easily say that on the material/care front they both provided and focused on me a lot as a single male child and my father especially emotionally of being at least always there for me as a security and care guarantee when I was growing up even after my mother passed away when I was 7. For the relationship front, I've never been actually in any concrete romantic relationships ever in my life just flirted and had sympathies, platonic romantic feelings, and sexual attractions on/off to more or fewer degrees depending on the context and the passing of time towards a few girls I knew in my life but never actually engaged and formed an actual romantic relationship with the opposite sex, so on those questions I had to answer regarding on how I would hypothetically feel towards, expect and want from my hypothetical future partner so the questions I choose to think about and honestly try to answer as much as possible of how I feel towards certain propositions that were posed as questions happening within a relationship are not perhaps a 100% accurate representation of my actual personality in a relationship since it lacks the actual past or lived experience component of it. First Run: I got Anxious/Preoccupied but didn't get a graph representing the exact value and quantity of this relationship personality type on an X/Y axis after I did the test. I might redo a second run trying to answer more concentrated, honestly, and attune with my actual feelings when I unearth and express some more of my stuff from my memories and feelings towards the degrees of attachment and expectations and demands from relationships from myself and other people in the near future after I fill up my journal with entries about my thoughts and feelings regarding some subjects and topic relevant to my current life. One more Question: Does preoccupied in this test mean preoccupied with myself or in the potential would-be relationship?

Would you consider would it be useless or naive for someone not living in the US to readily take upon an internet security deal or a VPN from some other provider if one is suspicious that one's own online activity is being monitored by government agencies in his own country where he is currently located? I am asking because I am considering and pondering in my head is worth it now or relatively soon in this year to get a VPN subscription deal myself to protect my IP from my online activity being monitored by the government agencies in my own country.

Ik sometimes how it feels, I feel you, when watching Serbs and Bosnians and Croats do the same thing to each other as well, don't. Take care and worry about your own people and fight and hold your own government accountable, that is the best thing and most conscious thing you can do and any of us can do in any given situation, and only afterward then can we have the power to help others people abroad besides our own in a meaningful way. We dehumanize and kill each other because we don't really know ourselves and our own situation and how it came to be and therefore we don't understand and misunderstand others that are actually a part of us and aspects of our own deeply repressed selves when looking at reality objectively as a whole. We need to deeply understand and accept ourselves first, of who and what we actually are first, and only then can we love and understand others, but this can't come into being if we're forced to do this by some perverted, twisted and untruthful version of this imposed by others who also don't understand themselves and therefore us and do this for their own self-serving purposes and agendas for us to buy into so they can easily manipulate, control and dominate us. True love and understanding of other people is not forced upon but must come out naturally and organically out of our self-arrived insights, knowledge, understanding, and self-realization about the true nature of our relationship with them. In short, true love is not and can't be forced, it is therefore no longer love by that definition but forced bondage and dependency, it is naturally arrived at by the personal self-realization of the individual about the nature and origin of his relationships and reason he has formed them in the first place.

This is a Putin and Russian nationalist stage Blue government propaganda line of ''Malorossiya'' and ''Novorossiya'' about the people in Eastern Ukraine and Belarus, I just want to warn you that you are consciously or unconsciously repeating Russian government talking points why intervening in Ukraine is justified to them that has unpleasant and scary connotations for the people living in Western Ukraine and Ukraine as a whole. They see this as justifying a bellicose stance towards them in wanting to secede and reunify part of their country with the Russian state. Just warning you kind-heartedly and out of concern of the way you use or heard some phrases being often repeated or used in the media that they are actaully part of the ongoing Russian government propaganda campaign against Ukraine and part of its people and the Belarussian people also of why they shouldn't rise up or protest against their government.

Screwing up, due to entertainment distractions, online addictions, immaturity, perceived mental problems and turmoils, lack of experience in socializing and seizing opportunities and making good friends and later allies, and depressive episodes in finishing my studies in sociology and giving enough exams in it year after year and getting a BA degree in the field, but we shall see. All is not lost. I am 23 and I will be 24 in 6 months.

@hyruga @JosephKnecht I will have to definitely check out the remaining ones and write out notes on the remaining ones I have in mind, that I personally think I had the most trouble with, Sloth and Lust, after a break I took from this series. @hyruga This sounds like the survival efficient aspect to it that you are mentioning in relation to the cultivation of personal character and one's life's work and purpose, but in terms of spiritual development and advancement as a person, I think holding onto and repeating consciously or unconsciously the patterns of these 'thoughts' and 'states of being' as manifested in your life and your experience of it is tantamount to achieving greater results in self-introspection and self-understanding on some deeper metaphysical and epistemic levels. For example, the miss of Wrath that Hedges was talking about and discussing with Yusuf was aimed to point in ways how it manifests itself unconsciously in social groups and people as a form of possession, that they unconsciously approach other people and their lives from that state of their being and how it harms not only themselves but people around them in cultivating an unhealthy atmosphere and discourse around various topics and concerns of social importance and furthering and expanding the links in the chain of hurt, as Leo termed it, without forgiveness or in some way to find a way of letting go and purging that wrath. He was aiming to show these are deeply unconsciously manifested in people's beings and that anger is just the consequence of their outside manifestation with something that is deeply embedded and not settled from within. I understand your point since at the time of posting this I kinda felt in that paranoid way that if I don't stop succumbing or giving in to the temptation of these self-gratifying habits they will eventually lead to my self-annihilation, decay, decline, and eventual destruction, but since then I have tried to approach them using a more consciousness centered manner of how I feel about them and think about them and in a sort of trying to let that pass away, understand and have compassion and understanding for myself why do they manifest and are here in the first place and to slowly let go of it and ween myself of these habits during a prolonged period of being consciousness centered, abstinent, patient, understanding, pragmatic and purpose-driven for some other realistic goals and plans that I can realistically partially succeed by and achieve in the coming years in my life. In short, I have slightly let go of the dogmatist approach towards it and my understanding of my mistakes and faults up until this point and their origins , that you are warning me off as a piece of friendly advice, if my assessment is correct. I think Pride can be more or less present in the cultural programming in accordance and in regards to a certain level of dvlp or consciousness stage of the society you currently live in as demand from the nature and character of the ideology that is propagated and amplified in that said society for its citizens and how they should perceive and feel towards their collective identity and the society in which it is cultivated - wher is a fine line for example in a stage Blue society/country between patriotic feelings towards your nation of birth or origin and prideful national exclusionary close-minded ethnic narcissism and ignorant arrogance?

Hamza Yusuf: ‘'It’s a misnomer to call them deadly sins, because they are not really sins, they are states of being.’’ Chris Hedges: ‘’Well, Evagrius never called them ‘sins’ . Yusuf: He called them ‘thoughts’. Interesting and very helpful summation series I found via Chris Hedges covering all of the seven of the seven deadly 'sins' or 'thoughts' (there were actually originally eight according to the early Christian theologian, monk, mystic Evagrius - which included the Deadly Thought of 'Melancholy' or 'Self-Pity' or 'Self-Loathing' as the eighth one but later more mainstream church theologians like Saint Gregory excluded that one out) and their origins, theological, metaphyiscal, moral and ethical significance and their presence and manifestations in modern societies across the globe in an one hour interviews with each guest with theological expertise on the topic. ''Renovatio editor-in-chief Hamza Yusuf—conversing with scholars, leaders, and writers—explores one of religion’s most enduring conceptual frameworks, the Seven Deadly Sins. These conversations, filmed to capture their warmth and intimacy, shed light on how the sins manifest themselves within us, illustrate their devastating consequences on our culture, and elucidate their corresponding virtues for all of us who struggle with sin.'' I watched and compiled notes/transcript one the first one I watched which was the sixth one about Wrath which featured Chris Hedges as a guest and notes which I took from that episode on Wrath will post here in a Word Document and I will also post the link to the site where all the episodes of interviews on each of the seven sins are and will post subsequent notes I take and compile in my Word files of the other episodes that cover the remaining sins which are of relevance of me or I see as personal priority to contemplate on in my own life: On the Third Deadly 'Sin' or 'Thought' (as Evagrius calls them): WRATH. https://zaytuna.edu/renovatio/7-deadly-sins The Seven Deadly Sins WRATH - Hamza Yusuf.docx

Thanks for sharing this video from Second Thought, it was very educational and filled up on some of my blind spots and enriched some of my understanding regarding theory.

Serbian Fascism is on the rise here as well, war criminal Ratko Mladic murals painted on most places across the Capital and elsewhere in Serbia and Republika Srpska, also protected by government loyal and controlled police, from being removed by anti-fascist activists or ordinary local citizens and building apartment owners calling on cleaning service to their residential building where they were painted by hooligans connected with orgs connected with government and is a very traumatic and harmful genocidal figure for most Bosniaks or people of Muslim descent or background living here or in this region openly celebrated and displayed here as a war hero and whose legacy is being rewritten and historical revisionism being actively done to suit an ideological worldview is actively done by the government propaganda filled to the brim with former war profiteers also.

Nor did I claim that you were a part of the UK government just that there exist orgs, activists, and movements who you can help, make friends with, or support in order to bring into light your government shenanigans who you pay taxes to and whose economy you stimulate with whatever work you are doing into the light and for something about it to maybe be done or for something in it to change. That's what I claimed it could be done with the notion of taking action while criticizing others for not doing so, not directed at your personal character and lifestyle, etc. I Agree, and I misinterpreted your intentions and motives for helping improve the understanding, compassion, and communication of different people engaged in this thread then so I deeply apologize for that for making it sound with the way I phrased it that you feel that I personally attacked you and your character and your life's work. MB, apologies for this, indeed in this thread seemed that they started to get heated up and derailed.

For anyone interested in what led up to this Kazakhstan situation and international crisis, I recommend reading up on this. It is a Kazakh socialist's activists in Kazakhstan's perspective though but I found it had a lot of nuances to it and an interesting perspective on the causes and origins of this current situation: https://lefteast.org/a-color-revolution-or-a-working-class-uprising-an-interview-with-aynur-kurmanov-on-the-protests-in-kazakhstan/?fbclid=IwAR0JF6_S9WtBEqWP4ZW2eW68TPEBtFnbJpRpNYIxEJW69Umdq5uuO8ZWYwI ''The workers of Zhanaozen were the first to rise. An increase in the gas price served only as a trigger for the popular protests. After all, the mountain of social problems has been accumulating for years. Last fall, Kazakhstan was hit by a wave of inflation. It should be taken into account that products are imported to the Mangistau region and they have always been 2-3 times more expensive there. But on a wave of rising prices at the end of 2021, the cost of food rose even more, and substantially. We must also take into account that the West of the country is a region of solid unemployment. In the course of neoliberal reforms and privatization, most of the businesses there were shut down. The only sector that still works here are the oil producers. But for the most part, they are owned by foreign capital. Up to 70 percent of Kazakhstan oil are exported to western markets, most of the profits also go to foreign owners. There is practically no investment in the development of the region: it is an area of total poverty and poverty. And last year these enterprises began to undergo large-scale optimization. Jobs were cut, workers began to lose their salaries, bonuses, many enterprises have turned into just service companies. When in the Atyrau region the company Tengiz Oil fired 40 thousand workers at once, it became a real shock for the whole of Western Kazakhstan. The state did nothing to prevent such mass layoffs. And it should be understood, that one oil worker feeds 5-10 family members. The dismissal of a worker automatically condemns the whole family to starvation. There are no jobs here except for the oil sector and sectors that service its needs. Kazakhstan has actually built a raw-material model of capitalism. The population has accumulated a lot of social problems, there is a huge social stratification. The “middle class” is ruined, the real sector is destroyed. The uneven distribution of the national product has a considerable corruption component. Neoliberal reforms have all but eliminated the social safety net. And most likely, the owners of transnational corporations calculated – 5 million people are needed for servicing the “pipe”; the whole 18+ million Kazakh population is too much. And that’s why this revolt is anti-colonial in many ways. The causes of the current protests are rooted in the workings of capitalism: the price of liquefied gas really rose on electronic trades. There was a conspiracy of monopolists who benefited from exporting gas abroad, creating a shortage of it and an increase in gas prices on the domestic market. So they themselves provoked the riots. However, it should be noted that the current social explosion is directed against the whole policy of capitalist reforms that have been carried out over the last 30 years and their destructive results. This is not a Maidan, although many political analysts are trying to present it this way. Where did such amazing self-organization come from? This is the experience and tradition of the workers. Strikes have been shaking the Mangistau region since 2008, and the strike movement began back in the 2000s. Even without any input from the Communist Party or other leftist groups, there were constant demands to nationalize the oil companies. The workers simply saw with their own eyes what privatization and foreign capitalist takeover were leading to. In the course of these earlier demonstrations, they gained enormous experience in struggle and solidarity. The very life in the wilderness made people stick together. It was against this background that the working class and the rest of the population came together. The protests of the workers in Zhanoazen and Aktau then set the tone for other regions of the country. Yurts and tents, which protesters began to put up in the main squares of the cities, were not at all taken from the “Euromaidan” experience: they stood in the Mangastau Region during the local strikes last year. The population itself brought water and food for the protesters. In Kazakhstan today there is no legal opposition, the entire political field has been cleared. The Communist Party of Kazakhstan was the last to be liquidated in 2015. Only 7 pro-governmental parties remained. But there are plenty of NGOs working in the country, which actively cooperate with the authorities in promoting a pro-Western agenda. Their favorite topics: the famine of the 1930s, the rehabilitation of participants of the Basmachi movement and collaborators of World War II, and so on. NGOs also work on the development of nationalist movement, which in Kazakhstan is completely pro-government. Nationalists hold rallies against China and Russia which are sanctioned by the authorities. Back in 2017, a monument was erected in Kyzyl-Orda to Mustafa Chokai, the inspirer of the Turkestan legion of the Wehrmacht. Today, the state is radically revising history. The process has especially intensified after Nursultan Nazarbayev’s visit to the USA a few years ago. The pan-Turkic movement is also becoming more and more active. More recently, i[on the initiative of Nursultan Nazarbayev, the Union of Turkic States was established in Istanbul on Nov. 12, 2021. Kazakhstan’s elite keeps its main assets in the West. That’s why the imperialistic states are absolutely not interested in the downfall of the present regime; it is already completely on their side. Nazarbayev’s resignation as president to head the Security Council was motivated by the desire to create the appearance of democracy, including to the West. In reality, he maintains full control over all the branches of power and only increased his power while at the same time completely avoiding responsibility. President Tokayev is a decorative figure, a pawn within the ruling family. Undoubtedly, the current protests can lead to some factions attempting a palace coup or similar actions. You can’t reduce everything to conspiracy theories. You shouldn’t idealize the current protest movement either. Yes, it is a grassroots social movement, with a pioneering role for workers, supported by the unemployed and other social groups. But there are very different forces at work in it, especially as workers do not have their own party, class trade unions, a clear program that fully meets their interests. The existing left-wing groups in Kazakhstan are more like circles and cannot seriously influence the course of events. Oligarchic and outside forces will try to appropriate and or at least use this movement for their own purposes. If it wins, the redistribution of property and open confrontation between various groups of the bourgeoisie, a “war of all against all,” will begin. But, in any case, the workers will be able to win certain freedoms and get new opportunities, including the creation of their own parties and independent trade unions, which will facilitate their struggle for their rights in the future.'' - this is the interview excerpt from the activist Aynur Kurmanov from that whole article in short if someone is only interested in reading his take on the causes of the whole situation there now.

How about you take some action and join an org, group, movement, or action calling into the independent investigation of actions of ''Tony Blair and Associates'' consultancy groups receiving millions of pounds (pardon dollars) from the former Kazakh autocratic president and his family that fled the country now into Dubai and joined with the former Afghan US puppet president, into the PR for covering the state crackdown and police brutality and massacres of Kazakh oil workers in the Zhaonzen massacre, the same workers that were now first on the firing lines to protest a sudden increase in the spike of not just gas prices but also other crucial living commodities prices because the government lift price control mechanism and state subsidies for domestic gas prices for regular Kazakh citizens and workers in order to leave it to the prices determined by the international market and because of the easing of electronic bidding reasons conducted mostly by Western oil companies who have large stakes and shares in the Kazakh state oil industries and have a large private oil industry there or for the Tory MPs to disclose from who have they received funds for book deals and PR firms writing favorably on the previous and ousted Kazakh autocratic government and president and what did they do with that money they received and they then stashed on their tax havens on the British Virgin Islands and later spent on what? or call on them to investigate and pressure by joining or donating to some group or org. pressuring the UK government into the investigation of the origin of the vast sum of money and funds of former president Nazarbayev's and families real estate empire worth 80 million pounds sitting in the UK I think you should stake into consideration what actions, education, and information you yourself can take but are not doing so and not going to immediately blame and moral grandstand to others who are suffering through this now for infecting everyone with their victim mindset in this thread when their own government's officials sources of economic power and wealth were propped up and protected by your own government officials https://www.theguardian.com/world/2022/jan/06/how-tony-blair-advised-former-kazakh-ruler-after-2011-uprising