JuliusCaesar

The two of you are using different definitions of the word avatar it would seem.

I realize that some here might take what I'm saying very seriously. So I just want to point out that I was somewhat hopped up on caffeine at the time I wrote it. So it may have been the caffeine taking, or maybe not.

This is consistent with my own prior knowledge and experience with binaurals. And yeah, I'm not too sure about using Gamma waves either because, on the one hand, Gamma waves arise naturally in the brains of lucid dreamers when they're lucid. On the other hand, it's not really clear to me if artificially inducing them is such a good idea.

I can relate to this as I've managed to succeed in lucid dreaming whilst sleeping under the influence of binaural beats. Out of curiosity, what binaural beats track/system specifically were you using?

I'm a ruthless asshole who wants to enslave every sentient being in the universe. I obviously can't be enlightened right? Because enlightened people are benevolent angels who are perfect in every sense right?

That's non sequitur. He could easily be bisexual and even as you yourself admitted it's also possible he was once gay but changed. But just since you asked no, I wouldn't ask a guy something like that because as you've pointed out since I'm not into dudes it wouldn't make any sense for me to do that. I'll grant that what you're saying is plausible. But all that's obvious to me here is that you're jumping to conclusions for some reason. It doesn't mean they aren't true, it just means I fail to see how you can certain of such a thing. Is it possible that you're lowkey trolling the OP and projecting your own rapscallion-type behavior on them? Not that I have anything against people who gossip mind you. Or anyone else for that manner.

To quote Genghis Khan “An action committed in anger is an action doomed to failure.” Of course, that basically says nothing about whether or not your suspicions are true. I just felt it was relevant to your situation since as @Loving Radiance has pointed out, you obviously seem to have ascribed ill intent to that guy out of anger.

That's illogical, the probability that he's a homosexual in the first place is low as the preponderance of humans are hetero-normative. Unless you think he's also full of shit pretending to be gay. That's possible, well I guess it's good you're at least conceding that he may or may not be trolling. But relative to him being desirous of attention, that much is obvious in any event. Irrespective of whether or not he's actually serious and wants assistance. lol

Eh, couldn't he be bisexual? Or maybe his sexual orientation changed.

It does, if nothing else it helps me realize you don't really think someone else cursed you, or at least you're not certain if such a thing is true. Believing that you think some sorcerer or malevolent alien did this to you is a misapprehension I think many here including myself have had. And as such, we've at times raised arguments that are basically tangent to what you're really saying and not actually relevant since they address a caricature of your actual position. I've asked this before and I don't believe I've received an answer. But what psychedelics specifically? And while we're at it, could you expound on what exactly you experienced under their influence? It's difficult for me to try to ascertain what kind of impact that has as I've never had suicidal ideation myself and have never really studied it in others. But intuitively I can say generally that it at least has the potential to have a deleterious impact on the spiritual practices you've done. The extent to which this can affect you is often underestimated. Similar to doing psychedelics, this can have a positive or negative impact, or more oftentimes some combination thereof. In my understanding, that's probably helped if it's affected you at all on the global structure of your life. In all likelihood, this has helped you.

@Heart of Space Its kind of confusing following this from a third-person perspective. On the one hand, you yourself started out by saying that you cursed yourself. But then you go on to say things that seem to imply someone else cursed you. So it seems that you're trying to say that you cursed yourself by allowing yourself to be influenced by others. There is a basis in my own experience for this to be possible. But at any rate, if you realize that you cursed yourself, then aren't you also capable of breaking the same? And can't you also pursue higher possibilities without engaging with and experiencing such negativity?

They are me.

Alright, well just consider the possibility then, that because there are powerful entities that exist in this shared dream. That it's also possible for them to bring form to essentially any desire(we're talking in consensus reality here, not necessarily just a personal one). Including malicious ones. And as such, there's then a whole science which arises from this, though one even I admittedly have only scratched the surface of. In part because I don't much care for negative things like curses. I'd prefer to study more positive examples of paranormal phenomena. At the same time, however, I'm aware of distortions that you could call universal laws here, as they seem to be at play in all occurrences of this nature. And ultimately, it's clear to me these "laws" are just distortions of the actual reality of oneness anyway.

I'm not going to say that you should maybe listen to him then as I know that advice is likely to land like excrement in a punch-bowl. But the fact you're aware of that should give you pause, as it opens up the possibility that he may believe valid things that others don't. And no, that doesn't mean necessarily that I endorse any of the things he says. That's a communication error on my part. I didn't mean to say that the topic creator's beliefs are on the same level as physics and logic. What I meant to say is that there is such a thing you could call cursology which could even be defined as logical, and even physical to some degree. Operating under certain laws and within which there are predictable patterns. Though perhaps not exact mathematical equations/qualifications or at least not as far as I am aware anyway.

By this logic, we can also argue that awakening cuts through all the bullshit of physics, chemistry, geometry, and logic. There may not be anything objectively wrong with saying this. But to take the fact that it's all ultimately imaginary, and assign invalidity to everything on that basis is a mistake. If for no other reason than the practical utility these sorts of disciplines have within the dream. Or at least, in instances where we aren't describing pseudoscience anyway.

Of course, lucidity with infinite variance in degree is possible. True but that in no way undermines or discounts the occasionally valid thing New Agers practice/believe in.

What psychedelics specifically? Well, I've personally seen into the future on multiple occasions in the past as well. But unless you've actually experienced in some capacity the entity which cursed you. I don't see why you think there is such a thing. Otherwise, you could tell us about who they are and why they're capable of doing such a thing to you. Obviously, you experienced precognition, though I'm curious what exactly you mean by the information that was fed to you. Was it by some specific being or by undifferentiated mind? Is it possible that one doesn't have anything to do with the other? Well, everything is a dream so isn't that a meaningless statement? Unless you're commenting on the fact that new agers are nearly always full of shit?

Curses are in fact a part of this reality. That doesn't necessarily mean that you're under one, especially since at least some of the things you've described like losing your keys tend just to be an ordinary part of the human experience. And considering you don't seem to have any direct evidence, I mean it's not like you accidentally shot some Shaman in the ass with a shotgun then he put a whammy on you. Combine that with the fact that most humans their whole lives never come into contact with anything obviously indicative of mystical curses existing or being possible, well you can see why people here have a hard time believing you. This is mostly a shot in the dark, but you haven't been doing Datura or anything similar to it like Belladonna in the past by chance? Many of the things you describe can be brought about by them. I believe you, but even I'm struggling to understand what makes you so certain that a powerful entity cursed you. On the one hand, you've experienced things that could be brought on by a curse, but on the other, I fail to see what concrete evidence you have to support this conclusion. Unless there's something you haven't told us.

It's possible that it isn't the best advice. But all I'm saying is if you behave like a Pallas's cat, then no one with an ounce of sense will tangle with you. Writing this I realize there may be people who don't know what a Pallas's cat is so I'll link a video about them below. And by the way, like I said I myself would be very unlikely to actually behave in such an aggressive fashion were I in your shoes. It's just that sometimes the best way to deescalate a situation is to escalate it further. Because if you strike fear into the heart of the enemy, he's likely to flee. Of course, If I were you, I wouldn't likely view any of these guys as an enemy, even in spite of the strong possibility that one of them did me wrong. Cute little devils aren't they? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u82y8zI1SdI

The problem is that you're relying far too heavily on the assumptions made by our culture. In much the same way that the intellectuals of Galileo's day did. I'm not exactly certain if it's beneficial to either of us to state the same arguments over and over in slightly different ways and never manage to arrive at a consensus on anything.

This will be a conglomeration of my thoughts that arise from an eclectic and multiperspectival point of view on Leo's recent video, if you haven't seen it yet and are into spirituality, then go watch it here. I normally detest linearity, but in terms of the range of importance of issues, I feel that opining on statements made by Leo early in the video would be best. Early into the video, Leo mentions how he's 40 years of age and believes that he'll perish some time into the future. So my opening criticism would be on the fact that you're thinking too much like a human. Think of all the things you've experienced thus far and their extremely radical nature. Do you honestly believe that you are and will always be incapable of making your human self immortal? Or are you telling me you want to grow old and die? No, you as a human want to be young and perfectly healthy eternally just as much as I do. Think back, therefore, to how you were decades in the past. How you once were totally incapable of predicting what following the path of enlightenment would did to you. I mean, you were actually stupid enough to be atheist for Pete's sake. Even the religious morons got that one right! I understand that most of your awakenings seem to you not to "enable" your ego to manipulate consensus reality. That you currently believe that the things of the Godhead are not some kind of toy for your ego. Given however your past stupidity, what is the probability then, that future you will look back also on the current you and think "wow, how stupid and self-limiting I was!". Furthermore, has it occurred to you that given our infinitely loving nature(as such we literally don't give a fuck what happens ever) that we would actually permit your ego to weaponize higher consciousness resources in your ordinary "human" life? And the fact that you currently believe that there's no way for example, that you could sustain high consciousness states indefinitely might also be bullshit? Open your mind to higher possibilities for human selves than you currently understand to be possible/real. I could go on and on about this, how you know there are humans who have done paranormal things, how you're even aware of some rare instances of what you like to call "specific omniscience" in mortal man. But I believe I've done more than what's necessary to make my point sufficiently well. Now I'll address other deficiencies I find in you which are more minor than this self-limiting crack addiction of believing ordinary human limitations are somehow absolutely immutable. You have a substantial Stage Red shadow, and a minor Stage Orange one. The Orange one is no serious problem, though I'd like to ask that you stop judging all of those highly technical academics simply because their worldview is full of delusional nonsense. Because while yes, it's true they're deluded rather highly, it's simultaneously true that you're likely to be overcorrecting in your response to their inadequacies. And that you should hold yourself to a higher intellectual standard from an Orange perspective. Meaning you should, for instance, care more about consensus reality than you do now. Know that just because reality is a dream, that doesn't change the fact the dream is governed by absolute mental laws. And because these laws are mental, they can be broken or transcended by one who is sufficiently powerful within the dream to do so. Don't demonize within yourself, therefore, those who demand you do paranormal things before them. Onto the more severe deficiency/shadow you have in Stage Red. The majority of liberals also suffer from this. You've demonized those who are ruthlessly ambitious. But they are in fact you as you know, their ambitions are your ambitions. Their "sins" if you can forgive me for using such an asinine human concept, are your "sins". Has it not occurred to you, Leo that by refusing to embrace selfish ambition, you've made a mouse out of yourself? That if you thought more like for example one such as Dan Peña, that you wouldn't need to imagine me to assist you in moving beyond your current limitations? That if you were so ruthless ambitious and disrespectful of rules which are not your own, that in all likelihood, you'd actually progress much faster than you currently do in the spiritual work you do? Realize that Stage Coral is essentially much like a combination of Turquoise and Red, and that you're holding yourself back from the higher possibilities we have in store for you. By the way, would you please remove that "No spiritual mumbo-jumbo." part of the Personal Development heading? You're only creating the illusion that spirituality is useless bullshit, and helping reinforce the erroneous perception that you're a cult leader in the minds of stage orange materalists here. This is complete and utter foolishness, and nothing more than human nonsense anyway. Furthermore, your belief that highly selfish entities are not capable of higher states of consciousness and power is mostly baloney. There exist in our reality, many ludicrously selfish entities that are easily powerful enough to create matter out of nothing in our consensus reality. However, they struggle to proceed beyond a certain point in spirituality. Because in order to go further, they have to embrace all things as the love and light of the Godhead, and as such, there is a point beyond which they cannot proceed without dropping their selfishness. However, that threshold is dramatically higher than you'd imagine. There are beings in the universe who by their own power have turned themselves into plants on Earth so humans may commune with them via consumption. Some of these entities are servants of the light, but some of them enjoy the darkness. The various species of Datura is one such example of a negatively oriented entity doing this. All personal individuations of God are all together as individual drops of water which comprise an ocean. And she is as a mighty river. At her level of development, she experiences whatsoever she desires. And increases in power over time, approaching absolute power. Her purpose on our planet is twofold. One, to satisfy her sadistic tendencies directly, she imposes what your medical scientists call anticholingeric syndrome upon the idiots who consume her that know little to nothing about her. Two to do so more indirectly, by empowering the human entity giving them some degree of command in this dream, and using them to impose suffering upon other humans with this power. Men of knowledge tend to know that if they fast for prolonged periods of time prior to ingestion. Then the nasty effects, she ordinarily imposes are not present as there's dramatically less acetylcholine in the body to compete with the anticholingerics present in the plant. There have been many instances of humans who have to various degrees of progression, moved beyond their own limitations by successfully binding her to their will. But make no mistake about, a being as powerful, wise, and ruthlessly selfish as her always succeeds in enslaving her most serious acolytes. And they become powerful enemies of the human race, creating pathogens, natural disasters, and many other blights on mankind that otherwise wouldn't exist. Just in case there are any psychopaths reading this, I'll prescribe a method for using her to generate your own insights into spirituality and reality, that if you're stupid enough to follow, will result in you becoming her bitch. Which if you're a psychopath is the last thing you want. Abstain from all food for 30 days, then on the thirtieth day ingest 500 or more seeds of her. The differences in potency due to species variants doesn't need to be taken into account for, as the competitive antagonism of choline receptors will be nearly nonexistent under such circumstances. Therefore, you are "safe" doing this at least in terms of biological danger. But make no mistake about it, the best that will come of this is you becoming an instrument of her terror. And don't fool yourself into thinking you can handle her or succeed in achieving anything of substance with her beyond various minor things. If you want to destroy the human species with her, you fail miserably even with her help in spite of her tremendous power. All the enemies of humanity has been made their footstool in the past, and it will always be so in the future. Because the forces of the light are more intense and powerful than the darkness, so the darkness has always failed and the light always triumphed.

From reflecting on my past, what I'd do is incredibly obvious. I'd just assume perhaps naively that the new guy is innocent at least at first. But given the bits of evidence you've mentioned, I'd probably conclude as you have that he's guilty. From there, I'd probably just ignore/forgive him. His saying how nasty of a guy he can be sounds like bullshit to me. In actuality, his bark is probably worse than his bite. If however, you want me to advise you not on the basis of what I think I would do, but maybe what I think you might want to do instead. I'd have to point out that you sound kind of afraid of this guy. And that if you really want to set your mind at ease. You should retaliate, doing to him whatever wrong things he did to you but many times worse. If you showed him that you're more bellicose than he is, and perhaps psychologically imbalanced, he'll leave you alone out of fear as he seems like a coward to me. Of course, I say all of this somewhat tongue in cheek knowing that you're supremely unlikely to follow the advice I've given in this second paragraph. That, however, doesn't change the fact that it was fun to write.

At the time of that, I wasn't 100% certain whether or not I had discovered a "glitch in the matrix" so to speak. Or if I had just made myself batshit crazy for a day. Either way, it lead me to probe the subject further and find much better essentially incontrovertible proof that the insights I had on that today were actually correct. Of course, I could do better, but really if I wanted to argue against materialism more efficiently for the benefit of others. It would probably be wiser to cite Quantum phenomena instead. Just due to the fact that it becomes possible for me to leverage the authority of the scientific community then, and as such makes the whole argument more persuasive. But persuading people of things isn't really my agenda here, or at least not my highest priority as I mostly have a totally different set of motives entirely.

With LSD analogs you especially have to be careful as sometimes NBOMes(a dangerous class of psychedelic that causes heart attacks) are sometimes sold as LSD or LSD substitutes by some vendors because it's cheaper to manufacture than legit acid. So obviously, if it's possible you should always test your substances before doing them. I'm not sure if a test you can perform at home exists for 5 MEO Malt, however.

If you're in the US you might consider Salvia Divinorum as it's legal in 19 states. Just don't smoke it otherwise you're probably subjecting yourself to a hell you can't imagine, especially if you smoke a potent extract. If you don't want to do that, I suppose you could wait for psilocybin-bearing mushrooms to be legalized. In Denver, they're already decriminalized so given another decade or two they'll probably see similar legal status nationwide to Cannabis, on the grounds that psychologists endorse them as antidepressants.