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@cetus lol i saw behind my eyes and realized nothing is there(didnt have an awakening)

i get a sense leo does not approve of zazen im curious why or am i just wrong about that? and if you dont like it leo, why? im just curious

dislike fractures :C LOVE the ability to form connections with people!

from what i hear it seems that the whole introspective vibe is not there with aya its more of a "let it take control", on top of that i can imagine with all the visual it is easy to to get lost in entities, spirits, mother aya. i have no experience but i have heard countless reports of this brew saving people from suicidal depression, addictions (mushrooms saved me from cocaine). If i were to dio my toes in this brew i would do it alone without a shamans guidance (unless i go back to ecuador) Has anyone been able to deconstruct the mind or access states that 5 meo would lead to on aya? would be sick to hear stories. 5 meo is one ill get to once i feel ready (years away) mushrooms i get lost in various thought loops and struggle concentrating on direct experience. meditation... meh states arent what ive seen "percing the veil" with the DMT's help.

@Michael569 damn, that list literally explains why i been feeling how i been feeling usually i can pull a uno reverse card and be okay but a few weeks ago i was so depressed i was genuinely considering just ending it ( good friends and hope saved me) its so true tho, the lack of struggle as a kid def hurt my character development, and maturity for that case. only struggle i had was hiding weed from my over protective parents

seems like i can but im going to GA(USA). hard getting an exact answer online i wonder if any fellow north americans know if 1plsd can cause legal issues if i have it mailed. im a little nervous about 5 meo malt (im not ready to have all my illusions shattered yet i have to admit that, i wanna mature and build my life back up first before i do something like that)

would love to hear

hard to other infjs... im sure here theres a bunch!

today was my first time trying this, very difficult it seems that im stuck in what ive heard other people say, yeah it way easier! what are your guys techniques for developing original thought? if there even is any, I found it kinda comes sporadically and I find it funny how when i try to observe thoughts i enter a state of no mind LOL!

jeebus?

@Judy2 <3 its okay give yourself time i believe in you

@Judy2 i found for myself, accepting my "bad sides" really questioning why i call them that (like my stutter) if u can connect dots see where the trauma came from (if its from trauma) then understanding will almost turn into compassion and you will love and accept yourself (this is what happened to me) i hope this helps

were infjs well back down from the turf war you can take it! @Schizophonia

@Schizophonia blast! you foiled my plans!

@Sidra khan lol try telling me i cant take a day off from work, ill do it anyways

so fun to hear from other infjs!

@Sidra khan my biggest strength is how fucking arrogant i can be to let myself be known, a challenge i have is my humbleness when trying to help others (quite paradoxally) dont touch me or i bite but im hesitant to hug

@Moksha so happy

As i begin to love teaching and helping people i cant help but want his views and input on this! some specific points i would love to see - how to tell when to be pushy and kinda smack sense into somone (not physically of course) -how to be more compassionate for people you lead and thier "pettiness" - good skills to demonstrate your value - how to keep on track when communicating - dealing with imposter syndrome - connecting to people - what makes a good teacher/leader

@Schizophonia thank you friend

i always said i have separation anxiety, from my biggest awakening (not my lastest) i just realized that once the bubble popped i went to tell my parents i finally get it (i didnt tell them what i saw of course) soon after i was like "where go bubble :c" funny little insight i caught, i can tell my attachment to my parents is my biggest struggle even now i see that this holds me back. tough cookie to crack, ill get there

@Yimpa i agree, flow of life flows much better when i dont put my hands in the water then maybe ill realize once again im the river maybe this is why i havent "gone back home" at least not to the totality i was once resting in.... man all of my problems all my worries, any issues, insecurities poof gone as if they never existed... finally rest in peace till i come back once again purified by the holy river(a little more than last time), thank you for the advice

@Sincerity damn it i cried :,) thank you your right, just let go people are heavy anyways i cant carry two people D: thank you for the advice

@Sincerity very glad to know im not alone in this thank you

@Yimpa thats my objective for my next little trip back home thank you for the advice