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why the fuck they try so hard to be japanese? Its cringy! I love zen the practice of zen, the teachings of zen but dude! WTF! so much dogma! and i cant help but cringe when we do the chanting (which does have legit concentration benefits for the intensity of it) and the not the jiki-jitsu but whoever leads the chant puts on this Japanese's tone! i dont mean to talk shit but i just had to get this off my chest.

suffering is love, i struggle to translate that to words but i kinda intuit that

i make myself cringe.

maka-hannya shing-YOOOOOOOOO! >:o

@Thought Art :< your so right thank you master yoda! may the consciousness be with you!

tf am i doing here? how did i get here? wtf is all this?

a book by reemus boxing called automatic ambition. I used to be a shy timid fighter who kinda settled for sparring w the newbies now im befriending pros, getting my ass beat but growing EXPONENTIALLY. My mindset has flipped completely. Book brought me to tears at some points. If any fighters wanna argue ab fury n ngannou lets hear it! Fury gets smoked in a rematch!

Depression has sprung up in my life in a very nasty way that at one point led me to trying to grab a cops gun. im just at that age when mental illness in males comes up, i sought help, got meds. Doesnt wanna go away. I was thinking of maybe an emotional support animal. BUT ANYWAYS how come someones mind can be so sad and hopeless? when i know its not true but my mind says screw it anyways. The points of silence i get from sporadic meditation is the only break i can get.

@Raze at this point ill try anything

@vibv thank you, i dont live authentically i dont know who i am anymore it seems, since i gave up fighting cuz its not gonna help me get back what i lost (due to dui's). good advice thanks

@Leo Gura negative, ill retake your life purpose course. im wandering around lost right now.

punchline!

@Something Funny duck ur head and hope for the best

@Jannes lol i was gonna say do squat plyometrics with good timing

@Something Funny bob weave- little punch here a little pnch there keep that head movement or the balls gonna hit the bell youll hear the ring

alone or all one? big dif and from my experience yes god is all alone but hes cool with it

i was on one where i was only eating raw greens and meats chicken not raw but no seasoning or anything. GOT SICK RESULTS! but maybe theres a better way a way that doesnt leave me so tired afterwards or starting as a matter fact. missing those carbs but im tryna be in the best fighting shape i can. got big moves to make once my surgey is over! wish me luck!

i love fighting!

@Schizophonia Yes, more muscle = more strength. NEGATIVE! im a reativley slim light heavyweight but i got power that took me YEARS to develop now i got a punch that landed me plenty of opportunities to help pros spar. a buffed dude who never trained on proper fighting technique does not possess the power a slim jim like me can produce. size can actually be a limiting factor less movement in your arms and shoulder joint. more meat to move around... more meat to slap

@StarStruck HA! funny shit thats what i should be doing, battling a shoulder injury ill meet u in the ropes in few months, step up!

ive sparred gym dogs and i never lost but again i was 14 beating up adults and blackbelts. strength doesnt get you wins in fights (well caculated precise measured fights, from like kickboxing or boxing mma whatever ) big arms tire quickly carry weight takes energy if he doesnt bear hug me then yell timber i would say a fighters chance to beat a guy who thinks he can fight (size and weight not irresponsibly distrubed) are 90-10 hes not taking the fight, maybe with a a lucky punch and opponents lazy guard

i dont like what tate teaches hes a cocky sun of a bitch, plus he hits ladies my mom would hit me with a spoon if i ever did that! Anyone here muay thai fighters? boxers? MMA? thats my thing i LOVE to fight and train, itll make me cry if i visualize too deeply. whats your excuses to fight?

these past two awakenings, i get this desire to simply sleep and rest in peace forever. anyone else feel this way? It was like my checklist for life was complete and there is nothing else to do. just rest happily in peace. of course im not talking about killing myself that wouldent be at all what im saying. its literally like theres nothing else to do I AM complete, whole, everything, everyone, nothing much else to wanna do. of course afterwards my ego came back and i started doing stuff again, and here i am cant wait to go back my reaction is something like this D: .... YEOOOOOOOOO! YEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! IT GETS ME EVERY TIME! HOW DO I KEEP FORGETING THIS?! YEEOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Almost like god is waiting for me with cupcakes and balloons patiently waiting forever for me to find myself again! Im so happy

I feel more tranquil and somehow more aware of the present moment while im doing something small like studying life coaching. watching the video i got the sudden realization im not watching the video. its just there.. i guess, hard to describe. i wonder what your guys opinions on this is.