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i wanna try amanita gummies but dont know too much about them, anybody got stories? are they worth taking in the sense of actualized.org?

@Nathan not very motivating :C

whats lemon tek?

@Santiago Ram dude... ive trhought about that... i lowkey LOVED the psych ward i could just fucking meditate all day!!! i would choose a psych ward over an addiction center they make u do stuff in those places but i just sit in my room until i have a meeting with the doctor... it kinda is a load off ur chest feels very easy like the perfect place to go insane!!!

just consider maybe it will make you miserable... i live a very reclusive lifestyle and sometimes it can be tough u can do what i do sorta keep your life as is just cut out all the external shit i dont have friends i can still socialize at work talk to people i just don't feel the need for friends or going out right now so i kinda force myself to be sorta monk like live mindfully be more minimalist and ive noticed that life even becomes more enjoyable when it comes from a place of just existing not doing anything as leo says in the satisfaction video. i just really wanna warn about "running off" cuz that can SERIOUSLY fuck up ur life i made a choice to run away with friends while i was on mushrooms, NOT a good idea LOL! i really am afraid of others who might put themsleves into situations they may regret... if ur gonna exist may as well be comfortable just go minimalist crazy shit is not always needed, but those people are out there too

@Ero thank you!

very well put

ego backlash?

@Yimpa like, theres whats haqppening the now the bubble, and whats outside pf it i wanna go back outside, i experienced that one i was utterly boundless.... is it possible to experience this through do nothing meditations?

hey guys, ever since i experienced the void i really wanna go back for some reason 5 meo malt didnt even take me there i sorta hardly sensed it i guess but i wasnt infinite like i once. can this void be experienced thru meditation with eyes open such as shikan taza or would the eyes need to be closed? how do you guys access tyhe void, if you do

i began to really practice satisfaction and just existing, zen, i even get kundalini sensations when i just concentrate on the present and be still sorta like it naturally just activates when your not doing anything and present (this happen to anyone else?!). butr after a few days of this now sorta going more minimalist and contemplative waking up i get a sense of dread. like i wake up instantly unhappy, can this be an ego defense?! maybe its a signal from my soul im unhappy?! i would love to hear what you guys think and if this has happened to you? is it par for the course? i wish you guys well i havent been active in a long time so im happy to see the forum.

@thenondualtankie only on lsd when i deconstructed my mind... dude ive been trying to look outside the bubble again for years... i was hoping malt would do it for me.... 5 meo dmt i cant get cuz im in USA. i can get dmt and aya but 5 meo dmt i cant get unless i learned of a vendor who sends to USA

is there more to breaking through than just dose?

update! on maybe 15 mg rn no real effects i am like super grounded and i see that nobody is gonna get this fly off into notthingness you meaningless letters lol. not enough of a dose, im gonna wait an hour before i redose o 25/30 i am a heavyweight so i was afraid this would happen but hey i got all night i guess ill post more updates thanks for the support more mentions little kundalini tickle, like when u pee and u get that jitter LOL! my heart was beating fast but this chemical is so gentle its lovely

here i go guys imma snort like 3 mg to allergy test would a dose this low cause a bad trip cuz its not strong enough to break me through?