4cryingoutloud58

I figured out something maybe I think my neighbors think I have been communicating telepathically and they can kind of see the image or thoughts ? so I realize if I stop ? accepting any type of telepathical information (cause can be fake lots of times), then there’s nothing to see or watch telepathically so neighbors will stop wanting to spy on me all day. that’s the solution for me I guess.

I think fake wind is fading as long as no more ‘telepathical’ things..... this seem the way to get the fake wind disappear

when I had mental illness they said one of the symptom was like my thoughts are broadcasted outside. but now I think with evil spirits working people outside actually might know my thoughts? like it’s not mental illness but evil spirits

so now it’s like loud speaking in indian the wind again it’s never endless where’s my normal life gone why they speaking loudly in the wind all day

here’s my favorite verses

how you think about this verse:

I think the neighbors are against each other for nothing in my opinion. I think about bible Ecclesiastes again https://www.o-bible.com/cgibin/ob.cgi?version=hgb&book=ecc&chapter=1

I think discussing psychological things here anonymously should be ok for anyone?

what’s going on in my real environment today it’s like: I hear the fake wind all the time since I woke up an hour and half ago. the loudest neighbor has been standing outside and speaking loudly in the phone in like indian language I think? It seem strange too like they stand outside and speaking like that for more than hour now just strange..... I know they want to hijack all the time telepathically but. They have been like that for days and few days ago they were affecting me a lot but not affecting today so that’s good. but they are there speaking indian loud all this time, it just doesn’t seem like a normal neighborhood right now. but at least the indian speaking not affecting me but it’s still loud and abnormal I feel like they are in the blasting wind and trying speaking loud in indian just kind of weird I guess. just now they turned on the speaker like they trying to show they are talking not like talking to the wind I guess..... I get skeptical for people around me all the time like I also don’t really trust anyone right now. I feel like a scared little bird right now omg just now I typed ‘scary little bird’ and the neighbor loud speaking just stopped. so it was strange

For me it’s like: I seemed to have these3 friends ‘telepathically” and they are all the trustworthy type and are all in the same homeless lonely kind of situation. they were supposed to keep each other company but they seem to have been a bit against each other because of. It’s like having 3 babies and they each want undivided attention but I’m not able to so they have been a bit against each other for my attention. then I realized the ‘telepathical’ communication can be hijack and faked by people with bad intentions so like 6 hours ago I stopped trying receiving any message ‘telepathically’. I tried to let them know that but I’ve no idea how they are doing now. it wasn’t good that they were a bit against each other for my undivided attention. I was hoping they could try be more independent or think out more ways of coping when they feel like it’s a bad day or anything. because if they strengthen their friendship 3 of them, they will still have good support with each other. instead of 3 of them only thinking rely on me all the time. I thought I kind of got the message from them earlier yesterday that they decided to form a group with each other and try to learn to be independent and rely more on each other’s friendship. I know they would want to be like that but I also know a lot of times they are like 3 babies and not able to be independent. they often tend to find anything ‘untrustworthy’ to reply on. I’m not sure how they are doing right now. I use to have to spend the night comforting one of them but everything can be faked ‘telepathically’ so yesterday was the first time I didn’t try to offer any comfort ‘telepathically’. because I know my neighboring people are trying to hi jack us telepathically any time. I know this telepathical thing sounds strange but maybe I try to post here and see if there might be this is the more reliable communication? actually I woke up this morning an hour ago and I can hear the fake wind outside kind of loud. but I could never understand any information in those fake wind. I know when I hear the fake wind it means the evil spirits are at work. but I can never understand the information through evil spirits much. so now I’m not sure what’s going on. I know I can hear fake wind and I know the neighbors are all under evil spirits control. all this sounds like not making sense but I hope it makes sense to those 3 babies.

anyone want to share their journey today? : )

I’m not sure if anyone has experienced anything similar like this. I feel like I kind of been through hell for this... anyway I’m over it now I think, but it was really hard...... maybe I can get some support on this here?... basically, the problem is, I was born and grew up in China. And I lived in US for a year during middle school, with my parents who worked in a university there. I was kind of normal and on the quiet side when I was in China, but soon after I was in US for a while, I just became a different person. Like another side of me showed up I just totally became like a total American girl and it’s like talking in English just feel more suitable for me than in Chinese. I was 12 going on 13 years old. and then, my parents had to go back to China after a year, so I had to go back. Then I started high school. Basically I was not happy, the very restrictive style of schooling and everything etc. but I was only 13 so I just had to stay in China where my parents were. the high school was fine, was still fun for me in China. But when university started, I became adult and I was not naive anymore and I noticed like there were hatred from people often. I don’t blame people like, it happens everywhere, part of human nature I guess... years later, after university, I finally managed to immigrate to a western country. Now I feel like I can be myself and it’s so great. But I’m still far away from the Chinese community here... I feel like I really identify with the ‘Barbie’ type of girl, like the fashion style that I like... I just feel more like myself when I dress in like ‘Barbie’ style, imagine compare that with Chinese style. I don’t blame that the other side don’t like me.. and the funny thing is, I also identify with the brown/black culture as well. When I’m with the people in brown/black community, I feel more like myself as well. But I also had the typical problem that lots of people in brown/black community have as well, maybe make another post about that... but in my experience, I had to go through times when I had to live in an environment that I can’t be myself, I was literally fish out of water, and hatred around, and I kind of had to live in isolation...... it was hell and I hope people here can understand how that was like? I still don’t know why I was like that.... maybe past life I was not Asian..... that’s the only explanation I can think of.... I still have the Asian side as well, I have good relationship with my parents. But the western side is way too dominant... and I wasn’t even grew up in any western country... actually it’s not like everyone on the other side are the same, there are some nice ones that are in a different level of consciousness, and they recognize that it’s not right to ‘hate’ anyone who is different or you think have more than you do. It’s not about if people are the same or not, it’s just not right to compare and just to ‘hate’ someone if they have more in some aspect.... if someone was born in a rich family, they didn’t work for it, but it’s not their fault that they don’t need to worry about money, it’s not right to hate them for it... it’s kind of not fair but the people who do ‘hate’ think it’s not fair too..... anyway, it’s just nice to know that there are people who don’t ‘hate’ even if they have less but they just think everyone should be nice to each other no matter what... but those are not the majority..... it’s nice to know there are those people out there...