Vlad Ropotica

@cetus56 Last three days i had some amazing shifts,i realized how the perceptions are going nowhere,the idea of no free will,and i think i realized what's the meaning of the question ''who am i'' ,which meditation made you experience ''no-self'' ? You were really seeking enlightment then?

@cetus56 thanks for the advice,Have you experienced the enlightemnent?

http://www.actualized.org/articles/whats-the-worst-that-can-happen i found this very helpful

Please tell me what was that episode that shooked you? I can't help you if i don't know

I took antidepressants for good months and i felt nothing but at the same time i was going to psichologist .Since then i started to see some true changes,but i remember that my biggest shifts were when i started to watch Actualized.org,especially i started to feel changes by doing meditations . If you want to live a peaceful life you need to realise that emotions are not some evil things,they just exist,you need to accept them,mental illnes comes from trying to avoid emotions

I live in Romania,for the last 3 or 4 years i lived in depresion but,i ''actualized'' myself by pretty hard working.Now , my ultimate goal is to search for happines(no matter the costs) ,every day i do 4 types of meditation (mindful,do nothing,deep meditation ,simple meditation) but there are still some parts in my life that gives me alot of anger.As a kid in romania ,i have troubles with gypsies (there are many of them ) and also many stupid people.every time i get taunted or hitted by one of these guys im getting very angry,and im thinking about dealing them fatal injuries... or beating them with my friends...,.But i just dont want to be like that,violence goes to more violence,revenge...,and i dont want my happines to depend on external things,i am trying to think rational about it,but when its for real, i stop thinking... (im still dealing with some thinking from my depresion past,i was so obsesed with my self-image,and i was thinking about how other people think the worst about me )