Hallo everyone. I have only come across Leo and Actualised.org just a few days ago and have been listening and have to say, everything is resonating with me. This discovery comes at quite a cross roads in my life as Im not sure which direction to take however, I am very very very lost. When I was 21 I wrote a book called the Dichotic Dilemma the fabric of life, and I guess it was my 1st insight into duality. My most recent edition of this is called The Dichotic dilemma the fabric of life, the fourth dimension, from duality to reality. I dont even know what this means as these books are stream of consciousness. What I do know is in 2016 I went to a Vipassana 10 day meditation retreat and that changed my life forever, for the worst so far. I had a transcendent experience but when I came out a few days later I had a psychotic episode, then suicidal depression after that for 2 years. Ive had 2 relapses so 3 episodes in total and Im not sure what all this means. All I know is so far listening to Leo, I have instinctively agreed and intuitively understood every single thing he says. I havent disagreed with anything but dont know what any of all this means as I battle with my own mortality.
Can anyone help?