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Maybe create a discussion for the high quality books that were read from other people instead of just book reviews.

@BipolarGrowth Why does the guy add a negative connotation with gravity pulling us down and what does he mean by it?

This is what I wanted to originally post: What if told you that the soul does not violate the law of gravity? You see, gravity is the attraction between bodies of mass but the soul has no mass and therefore is not attracted to anything and can freely float in the air according to the law of gravity. Also, Leo onced asked how I would react if fell through the floor because I realized that it was imaginary. would also realize that gravity is imaginary and therefore would not fall through the floor but don't think that was the point of what Leo said. Also, whenever I see the name "Martin Ball", I think of the name "Martin's Balls". Do you think that you will be able to unsee that name ever again? He sure has the balls to take phycadelics which I respect him for. I'm talking watermellon sized balls, what would happen to his mystical experiences if he was kicked in the balls? Like I don't mean to make fun of the guy, but this is what think about whenever see or hear his name. Also, do you think am addicted to thinking if tam having meditating properly to let go of these distracting thoughts?

I wanted to post my thoughts to get them off of my mind but then I "get service" unavailable" on my computer.

@Hojo But how do I even know that this is the right idea of God?

So I rewatched Leo's video about what Awakening feels like and is Awakening is supposed to transcend cause and effect right? What does it mean to say that Awakening is not caused by anything @Leo Gura?

@axiomYeah you're right, are you saying that I won't like it, would it better than what I described or both? Isn't awakening God-realization?

@roopepa I got the idea from God being Love and truth is identical to love, therefore I want awakening even if I don't know that yet.

So my mind has a lot of deep thoughts that may not be clear but is still a distraction none-the-less which is why I want to post them on the forum to get them off of my mind and it is my mission to improve the education system. Taking this into account, it would be important to think about when homework will improve someone's life and when it won't. I would say that homework should be enforced during elementary and middle school to build discipline for the areas of life that is worth pursuing but becomes more of a distraction if it causes misdirection when it comes to life purpose. I think that it becomes more of a distraction during high school because the mind becomes more mature and focuses more on spirituality, life purpose, etc. There needs to be a way to show this or for this to be tested like a survey or having a conversation with a student (I don't really know the methods or how this will work yet). Although I focused on these things in the past, I was probably resistant with doing the work for those things and I still am to some degree and so homework needed to be enforced during elementary and middle school in my life to learn discipline. I probably need to learn that with my homework now but I don't want it to be misdirected either with this new system even though I want to focus on it now. Having this kind of state of mind however feels less neurotic than the addiction to thought although addictions can feel pleasing so I need to introspect on what it feels like more. Homework is just a tool, there needs to be other methods for serious learning and that going through my school schedule reminds me of the stuff that was irrelevant or not learned. Maybe that method can change every year to maintain order with this schedule but to still have more flexibility when needed. What is the fundamental purpose of homework? What makes this tool so common and overused? What are some alternatives? If it makes me feel guilty with doing the kind of work that I care about more, then it means I am doing it mechanistically and for the sake of doing it instead of doing so consciously. HealthyGamergg is right, it turns out that motivation is keeping a thought steady in your mind and I am more motivated to be doing this even though it was past midnight while I was creating the post and that the thought of posting this was more steady within my contemplative mind. I want to give him credit for his work on YouTube as a phychiatrist, he even talks about meditation, consciousness, and enlightenment. He gives really high quality information about work, motivation, etc, and it is very rare to find such information on the internet. Would it then be impossible to predict or control my motivations if I cannot predict or control a thought without thinking about it causing an infinite regress problem? Could I actually fix this through awareness by meditating? Homework should also not cause people to normalize isolation just because people are too "busy". There should also be a deeper connection with other people at school to actually a deeper connection outside of school. I am interested with inviting people over but homework, having to clean regularly, video games, and social media usually gets in the way which is why there needs to be better relationships within school to give me hope and motivation with doing the work required to have better relationships with people meaning that there cannot be such a short sliver of time for that and that there needs to be deeper questioning with the content and structure that is being taught and the beliefs and assumptions that is responsible for the content and structure of the curriculum. The structure is how you make the content better which is improved through systems thinking. This is very difficult to do because that skill falls in tier 2 at stage yellow in spiral dynamics. I would say that HealthyGamergg can be effective at contributing to that if he really wanted to based on where he is at within spiral dynamics and he is slowly opening the door with making room for me to develop systems thinking. My first step would be for me to get back on track with meditation so that I can have better concentration with whatever I want or need to work on. HealthyGamergg actually provides such a meditation and it seems to me that he is right that the meditation session is for the base level of consciousness. How do I find out what actually caused me to lose track of meditation? Was it boredom, lack of results, distraction? What is causing resistance with meditating when I first have to chance to do so and how do I focus on the thought of it to actually get motivated to do it? This contemplation session is creating a vision for me and I look forward to see where it takes me.

@roopepa Because I want to KNOW God. I want to know if God exists or not and the nature of God not just as a belief, but to become directly conscious of God because it is the meaning of life.

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@Breakingthewall Does awakening require to stop looking for other things?

@Breakingthewall You know the stubborness of other people kind of reminds me of that but I have to ask myself the intention behind engaging with arguments. You were probably talking about something else but this is what I had in mind.

You know, for some reason, I set up notifications for actualized.org and yet i don't get any. The password that I also use sometimes doesn't work. These are just technical details, it's pretty difficult to try to improve such a high quality resource.

@Gidiot I know that Leo said not to mix any other yogic practices on his blog but what else did you do outside of yoga that increased your chances to have Awakening?

@WonderSeeker So then why is it that I don't want to meditate? I can clearly see that it can free me up from mindless distractions and gives me peace of mind when stressed out wiith what I need to do.

So every morning, I plan to get up to meditate but no matter how much sleep I get, I masterbate for 2 hours without enabling a timer and then I don't actually get to meditating for the rest of the day. I even set my alarm on the other side of the room, shake my phone, and still go back to bed while forgetting to enable a timer although I have set a reminder to do that. The thing is that I never watched porn ever. Is there some need that meditation cannot fulfill? Why is it that masterbation and YouTube is my default option if I am bored or don't know what to do? What can I replace masterbation with? The reason I don't block myself from using YouTube is because of productive videos that I don't want to be blocked for. Maybe I can set a certain amount of time for the app blocker within the settings and watch actualized.org on my computer because there is friction with using it anyways and that there are less apps for it. I just need to remember to renable the app blocker when it is appropriate to work so I will need to make a reminder. I want to make meditation the first thing I do but how do I do that and actually meditate effectively? In the short term, I might be distracting myself from my work but i think that meditation can help me become more alert and break bad habits and behaviors in the long run.

@Majed Well right now there is no craving to materbate. Why is that? What are actually the triggers and what is determining my response? Also, I cannot seem to point my finger on why it takes a while to start to do homework. It probably has something to do with wanting to improve my life and that I cannot actually find homework relevant to that but sometimes my procrastination is worse than that. What is the underlying condition of having the wrong proportions od doing certain activities? It also takes longer than 10 minutes to actually meditate effectively, what do I do about that?

@WonderSeeker I would have meditated today if I didn't need to take a long nap, watch videos, or need to do my homework. Should I just drop the idea that I need to meditate an hour a day? It may seem like I am making excuses but distraction as the ego's favorite defense mechanism seems to be a serious problem. What is it that my higher self wants?

@Something Funny Yeah I know, Leo rarely responds to me and might do the same to you so I thought that I would say something. I thought that I had something important to say and I didn't know that you ONLY wanted Leo's response. I can stop talking to you if you like.

Why is LSD classified with heroin and cocaine? How do I tell the difference between psychadelics and recreational drugs?

@Something Funny @Something Funny I never said that I am God or that God is love. Christians never parrot ideas that say "I am God" and no I don't parrot or believe dogmatically what Leo says.

@Something Funny Christians never parrot ideas that say "I am God" and no I don't parrot or believe dogmatically what Leo says.

@Leo Gura But I thought that I was not supposed to break something down even further reductionisitcally.

@UnbornTao The video you posted might have a solution, I will watch it during my free time. Also, I am use with taking notes of what Leo says on my phone but having a physical keyboard would be a bonus I guess.