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Wtf is happening. You can't even say this is taken out of context. He is literally saying what we all know is already true. TRUMP = DICTATORSHIP Bruh

It's hard for me to imagine that the thought of having sex would appear at all in a 5meo experience. Even if it did I doubt you'd have the mobility to execute on it.

Do you have any music to share that you've worked on? If so, post it up my boy.

Its natural to have the urge to sleep around with other women as that's just how men are. No need to be afraid of this feeling. However, if you're going about acting on this feeling then that's the line that separates the men form the boys. If a lady you're talking to says she wants a committed relationship and you KNOW that that's not what you want, you need to just be upfront and tell her. "Look, I know you want a committed relationship but I'm not ready to settle down yet." and then accept whatever comes next. If you're the type of guy who can sleep around like you think you are, you should have no trouble finding the next girl to sleep with who wants the same thing as you.

Okay bro, we gotta get real here. Somebody has got to level with you here because there's a lot to unpack. First, I know I'm late on this. i realize this post is kind of old. I'm going to tell you what I'm going to tell you anyways. Second, You're entitled to how you feel about this. I hope you've overcome this thing and haven't offed yourself. I hope you're more humble and mature for this. Third, I hope you've taken time to reflect on the fact that YOU are not the victim here, she is. That's where my real message to you begins- My man, you broke her trust first. You didn't care about how she felt while you were chatting up another women, courting her, and having sex with her. In fact it seems to me that the only person you considered in this whole post is yourself. I think this is the main issue. You're selfish. You called her after you cheated on her because YOU felt bad about it. The way you put it, its like you expected her to help you feel better about what you did. You then acted as if what you did was no big deal and that she should've just taken it on the chin. Imagine if she called you out of the blue when she was on holiday and told you she cheated on you, how would you feel? Wouldn't you want revenge? 'A shoulder to cry on is a dick to ride on'--->This is so immature to say and is straight out of the red pill ideology. This probably plays into why you thought it was okay to cheat on her in the first place as the red pill ideology says that its okay for men to cheat or 'exercise options' while women are supposed to just take it and be loyal. The red pill ideology is not the real world bro, throw that whole worldview out. Its toxic, selfish and dangerous for anyone you're in a relationship with. When I told my mom what she did, she was devastated and very pissed at her.- Dude what? This is pure lack of accountability. Remember, YOU CHEATED FIRST. YOU ARE NOT THE VICTIM, SHE IS. Did you tell your mom that you cheated on her first? You told your mom that she did drugs and cheated on you? Bro...this is pure lack of accountability and childishness. That's all ima say on that. You don't deserve to be cheated on man but you have got to grow up. This whole post is an indication that you're not doing spiritual work, that you don't have life principles in place, and that you have GOT to start taking accountability and responsibility for yourself and your actions. As I stated before, you don't deserve to be cheated on, nobody does man. I hope you've resolved this in yourself. But dude, you SHOULD be trying to win your girl back if you made a mistake like that. You SHOULD have to go through a period where you feel uncertain about your relationship. How do you think she felt? You SHOULD have to show her that you're capable of being trusted and it should be a long painful process. It seems like you only care that she didn't feel any pain from this because of ecstasy. You should be glad that she isn't in pain over this man, you should be the only one carrying a burden here. Why would you cheat on someone and then want them to feel the pain of it all with you too? Personally if i fucked up that hard I would be glad that my partner isn't in pain and that I have a chance to fix it. Yeah, its gross that she cheated on you back and thats gonna be hard to overcome but man...how do you think she feels? You also cheated. Anyways, alot of work needs to be done here in the accountability and responsibility department. I have no idea why noone has pointed this out to you yet. If you still feel suicidal and in pain over this, its because you're looking at this as though you're the victim and you're only thinking about yourself. You're minimizing your actions and the effect that they would have on another person. Look at the situation honestly, you cheated, you violated her trust and then she got revenge. That's what happened. One more thing, I don't know why you felt the need to say that she met a guy on tindr and had sex after a day of talking to him. Did you literally do the exact same thing but the other way around??? Didn't you meet a stranger, court her, and then sleep with her in a matter of a day or so? cmon dude. Accountability. Take it. Responsibility. Take it. Start living your life according to principles that you set and let go of the red pill BS.

Are you smoking pot or taking any kind of other recreational drugs? If so, try removing that and see if that helps

Ask your therapist or doctor about a medicine called amantadine. Works wonders for cptsd symptoms

There are different types of breathwork. If you want to trip then shamanic breathing will be your best bet. Not that BS DMT activation stuff on YouTube either. I recommend you Find a breathwork center in your city and learn from someone who regularly gets results. You'll know in 20 minutes if it's for you to not. Not to.mention most breathwork centers are also ayahuaska churches.

Hey, I didn't bother reading a lot of these comments , I just don't have the time so I'm just gonna shoot from the hip here based off your initial post. I didn't lose my v card till I was 26 lol. Once I did I realized it never actually mattered. For you, I think you have the same problem I had. You've placed sex and a relationships on a pedestal and you've formed a bunch of negative shaming ideas about why you haven't been able to succeed. Shame. That's your biggest enemy. The idea that something is wrong with you. That you need to do something to be lovable, be a certain way other than the way you are to be lovable. This inner problem is what needs to be resolved which is why therapy is probably needed for you. Before I met my now long term girlfriend I was on some self loathing, red pill, mgtow type stuff. I had a bunch of bad ideas about women and myself and every women I encountered could tell it. It's like they could sense the danger lurking within me. Now I understand that what I truly needed was someone to help me confront my feelings of being incomplete. My therapist and teacher helped me with this. Psychedelics helped with this as well. Ultimately getting a partner who was willing to let me climb out of my anxious attachment style was what helped the most but I never would have been able to land her without my therapist and psychedelics doing a lot of the pre game work. I hope you don't commit suicide dude. I hope you resolve your rage. There is hope though, I was just like you. It's got nothing to do with your looks or your weight or anything else anyone else but you can see. It's about what your intimacy. The parts of you that only you experience. That rage, that pain, that feeling of missing out on something. It's all within you. Bring it out to light so a therapist can help you heal it or take a psychedelic trip about it. Love ya bro!

For me breathwork really helps. An hour out of my day I put my headphones in, do some breathwork, trip balls and then come back. It's enormously healing and easy to do. Plus you get a much deeper experience than you get from pot. It's a non negotiable for my sobriety. Hope this helps!

In my own experience of the 5meo dmt peak nothing happens at all. You realize that you've been the source of happening all along. Nothing happens at that place. Nothing ever changes there either. The peak is plain and regular. Ordinary like an old trinket on a table. It's just you. The feeling of being you. It is not the feeling of being 'something' but moreso the ordinary, plain feeling of being, period. It is only when reality splits up again that you feel amazing, That you've discovered some absolute truth long forgotten. Then you forget again what you are and begin to wonder what you are and the cycle repeats.

So I've had a few times where I smoked pot and re entered the 5meo experience. Here's a report/ ramble on my latest one. I sat outside on my back porch and took a few tokes of pot I had bought earlier that day. My last bit of pot for a while, I'm going to quit for some time and get more stable (I said to myself.) I found myself in a state where I was overwhelmed with consciousness of the fact that reality is. But what is it? I wondered as I looked to my hand, and other objects around me. In this state of consciousness scale, time and 'real-ness' fluctuated. I could more easily split consciousness up into its seven parts. Sight, sound, feelings, mind, smells, tastes and of course, the transcendent 'Reality', or Truth which can be discovered amongst all of them. Part by part I became conscious of each facet and one by one I found the inherent True Nature of each of them. Each thing its own enigma, its own mystery. Deep within each, the same insight. I am. Yes! Affirm, Affirm! Yet,when a monk asked Joshu if a dog had Buddha nature, Joshu replied NO. What is NO? My spacial dimension began to warp around as I stared into a column on the back porch. At some points it presented itself as light years away and others only inches. The spacial dimension of things was fluctuating rapidly. Sometimes it felt as though my entire visual field was spinning and other times it felt as though it were all about to crash against some 'floor' of existence. I tried my best to surrender into each experience as they all eventually led to the same truth. This sense of being 'Okay'. It is hard to communicate something that neither does or does not exist, something which cannot be seen or experienced but can only be. The mind yearns for some kind of experience of it and so it appears as peace, but since it itself is not an experience the mind is left bewildered even still. Can something be True if it cannot be experienced? What if experience has fuck all to do with the Truth? Gonna preach for a sec. The reflection of the Truth is this deep underlying peace which resides in your belly, just two inches or so below your belly button. It underlies all changes in the facets of human consciousness (the six senses as well as the mind) as well as any other phenomenal experience possible. It is the only sensation you can be aware of that is not limited or produced by something finite. When, during my 5meo dmt experience I experienced this same insight, it was because my body had fallen away, my mind had fallen away, things were changing so rapidly that I lost track of any sense of self. When even the last thing disappeared this peace remained. This is because this peace which is hidden in your belly just two inches or so below your belly button is no other than your own face, looking back at you through the waters. The Truth, having nothing at all to do with either side, the seer or the seen, is not changed or bothered by anything manifestation of this process and appears as awareness. But the truth is not awareness. The Truth is prior to even awareness. The experience ended rapidly after peaking for about an hour and I was left with a refreshed state of mind. As though I had had a long drink after nearly dying of thirst.

The title. Just looking back at your old video on the 5 meo magic pill to enlightenment video and I got to wondering if you still maintain that position? Have you discovered anything new on this? Thanks

@Leo Gura Thanks for replying to this. I didn't realize such a conversation would bloom here. I came back after a few days and here it all is! lol. I do think that there is a lot of debating and stuff in here so I won't reply to all that. I wonder what these folks aim to accomplish via these debates? Why do you participate in these Leo? Just curious. Thanks again

I'd like you to make a video on how to integrate after intense, life altering psychedelic experiences. I'd like to know about the common pitfalls, why some people never change despite having 100s of psychedelic experiences and how to make sure the psychedelics constitute a path rather than a series of peak experiences with large regresses in between. Thank you.

My facilitator told me to take three deep breaths, in out, in out, in out, focusing on the exhale. When I exhaled the third breath, he put the vape to my lips and I inhaled. This time, I told myself that I would inhale until he pulled the vape away. I told myself that I wouldn’t stop, no matter how scarred I was, I would just keep on inhaling. The inhale was warm and tasted like plastic. It was sharp on my lungs but not so much that I couldn’t handle it. I laid back on the matt, closed my eyes and waited for the come up to happen. It came on almost instantly, the deepest wave I’d ever felt came over me. I clenched my hands to the floor to try and hold on, but something called me to go deeper. I knew that it was pointless to struggle so I relaxed as the experienced took me away. I listened to the music as I went deeper and deeper. I recall thinking ‘he really dosed me this time.’ It felt a lot like being pulled into a deep underwater place. I could hear the music around me and that kept me feeling alright for a second or two but I began to lose sight of that as the current pulled me deeper. Before long I couldn’t feel my body, I couldn’t hear thoughts anymore, and I was just shooting far away into this place. My attention moved to this peace that I was feeling which outlasted the passing away of everything. I kept my attention on this peace as I fell apart. I repeated to myself as a part would fall away “I’m okay”, while I kept my attention on this peace that was making itself more and more visible. Another part of me would fall away and I would have a small freakout but then I would put my attention on this pervasive peace and it wouldn’t matter anymore. This place I was going into felt ancient, but alive. I recall a point where the experience felt tribal and it freaked me out a little. I was also freaked out by the fact that absolute reality was happening and that I was being, but then I was pulled away from all that too. Before I knew it, I was gone. I was completely and totally gone. It was then that I realized this peace was none other than myself. “I’m okay” I said softly as I became one with this peace. I don't know how long I was like this. It felt like forever. I then began to come back out of the experience. It felt like I was being birthed through a birth canal of some sort. As I came back into my body my first thought was ‘how the hell am I going to live after all this?’ but I remembered my shaman telling me that thinking during this experience isn’t necessary, that it just complicates things. That I had my whole life to contemplate what to do with this experience, that I should simply let it be while it was happening. I moved my arms and wiggled my toes. I began to laugh the hardest laugh I ever laughed as I realized that I was truly okay. Not ‘me’ as a personal self but ‘Me’ as Reality, God, whatever you want to call it. I am okay. I laughed so hard! Then, I cried with my whole soul. 30 years I’ve wandered in existence feeling like something was wrong with me. I felt as though I had to become wise, become successful, be better, make money, have sex, etc. to fill this hole within me. My whole life up to this point was built on an insecurity that I didn’t even know I had. I mourned for all the years I’d wandered in darkness. I cried for all the years that I had forgotten I was Absolute Infinity. I then laughed as it was the most brilliant realization I’d ever had. I laughed for how fooled I was, how far I’d come despite being fooled, and I even laughed for no reason at all. I processed a lot of feelings on the mat. I left a lot behind. I left the most fundamental insecurity I had on the mat and walked away from it forever. Now I see a clear distinction between my authentic self and my domesticated self. I want to live in alignment with my authentic self and I know that the next move to make is to start to take my life apart, piece by piece and rebuild it from this new place. For the last 8 years or so I’ve been in countless meditation retreats, I’ve sat thousands of hours, all the time wondering what all this is for, what reality is. So here’s the quick version for any of you who are also wondering- It doesn’t matter what it is, it doesn’t matter what purpose you give it, it doesn’t matter what you do within it, none of it matters. You are okay, You are worth it, you are whole and complete, you are perfect and amazing. That amazing place within me, where my absolute true nature is visible, is also within you. Should you take 5MEO DMT yourself and go all the way or sit on a cushion for 30 years, you will see this same Truth for yourself. You don’t need to go sit for 30 years at a monastery, you don’t need to be nice, or good, or anything. You are always right here, as yourself. There is nothing to attain, nothing to get, nothing to want, nothing to do. You are worthy of it all. You are beyond it all. With love.

To get confidence you have to go do a thing. If you wanna be confident with women, go get good with women. If you wanna be confident in your work, go get really good at your work. There is no other way. Those who came the funk always get exposed.

Not a lot about this out yet as it just happened a few hours ago. I'll post the video below. What are your thoughts on this?

Thanks to DMT I can access God consciousness while smoking marijuana but when I drop my body and become infinite, it's terrifying to me. When I see how my mind is imagining others, I feel terrified. Does this ever stop being so damn scary? Thanks

This video is an absolute masterpiece and I'm so grateful to you for making it. How you articulate the Truths here is a true work of art. Thank you!

After taking a few LSD trips I didn't feel the desire to achieve any real wealth. I put my work down and focused exclusively on spirituality for many years. Now I'm at the point where I realize that I need to make money and achieve wealth but it's not coming from a place of emptiness or angst. It's coming from a place of peace. The wealth will come when it does, I don't really need it. I guess I'm saying all this to reassure you that things come full circle. Psychedelics may put you off the path to materialistic wealth for a while but as long as you don't become a basement dweller you'll come out alright in the end. It's more about you and your attitude to develop and grow no matter what that counts.

@Thought Art yeah I've also had a few of those "duuh" moments or "oh yeah" moments as well. I wonder if it's not so much about the realization and more about the method of accomplishing it? After all it's me. Why am I terrified of myself? I'm a loving being.

@Leo Gura have you managed to attain any level of realization in your daily life? Or do you also fall back into delusion soon after?

@Leo Gura are you aware of a way to stay in that level of consciousness as a baseline? I can have God realization on marijuana but I always come back to my regular waking state a few days later. What gives?